Black Locket

Change

2011-10-30T23:01:00.005+08:00

Some things change. And some things....just. don't. change.
Life's been alright. Better for now.
Always have that share of drama present in my life, which never really ends, never really goes away. Can't escape it even if I want to.
That's why I'm always grateful when there's a period of time where everything is fine.
When I have nothing big to deal with.
Yes, I'm definitely contented, grateful and happy with my life.
But there's just some things I wish that would change and wouldn't change at the same time.

Gotta admit the past few months...I don't think my life's been any worst than the things that have been happening during that period.
I've had many things happen in my life but that period of time was the worst.
And I hope never to face anything much more worst anymore.
I can face a lot of things but there's one thing I can't take when it changes or screws up.
Because it's like the end of the world. And it kills me entirely.
And it shall remain unanswered here.
Of cos those close to my heart will know what it is.

But for now, life's been alright.
I just have a change that's going to happen in my life that I have no control over or say in.
But what to do, we just have to make do, don't we?
Since there's nothing I can do.

Sometimes someone makes us think that something is right cos they are always right in their world and we start to think something is right because nobody tells us that it is wrong. We start to question if it is right or wrong because all we hear is what they tell us.

In my opinion, the basis of a happy family is the couple which in this case is your mom & dad.
Because if something goes wrong, along the way there will always be something wrong even when you think it's done & over with.
So please, make sure you marry the right person.
I know I made a vow to myself to never let my kids go through what I had to.
That's a promise. I'll make damn sure.

How To Say Goodbye

2011-07-03T18:49:00.003+08:00

Leaving isn't quite the same, he said to me,
As running away
If you're scared or tired of what you're scared of
Well, why should you stay?

He loved to say goodbye,
And always counted out the time
Until he was free, to get up and leave
To learn how to breathe

Again

Slipping out to have a cigarette with someone else that he'd never met
Asks her if, by the way, would she like to run away
and try to forget?
Or just not to stay, to leave without saying why

To get up and go
To catch the last train
To get in some car
And drive out again
To never come back this way....
And have to say....
goodbye

Trying to make it work but man, these times are hard

2011-06-21T08:15:00.003+08:00

I don't know how much I've been keeping to myself, holding it all in, pulling myself together on my own.
I've been facing stuff which I realised most people won't ever understand...or anyone for that matter.
I don't know how I do it but it instantly goes away when I'm surrounded by people because I know I must keep it together.
And then it comes back to haunt me when I'm alone, at home...and most of the time when the situation, matter is brought up again.

I am definitely not the kind to lose my faith, give up easily and I'm motivated by my own drive and will.
But there's only so much one can do when things get too much to handle.

Lately, I feel like I don't know what to believe in anymore.
What do you do when one supposedly most important factor of your life decides to wash their hands off you, turn their back on you when they are the ones that's supposed to be there for you through it all because blood is thicker than water?
It has lost it's meaning, to me.

I've always felt like a punching bag.
Always the victim of other people's mistakes and excuses.
For 10 years, I have to put up with hardship just because of two people's mistakes and now I have to face it alone.
I don't think it's fair.
It was alright and I still could take it when at least one was still responsible, now both are turning their backs on me.

I don't know what goals, ambitions, passion, dreams mean to people but it means a lot to me. It really does.
I've always put in my heart and soul, hard work, full commitment, dedication and passion in what I love to do.
Asking me to compromise all that is just not possible, to me.
It's like you're asking me to live life without living my dreams, live life to get by.
I'm not that sort of person and I don't want to be that way.
Because I feel when you're in it, you give it your all.
I don't want to compromise what I do just because life gets in the way.
Moreover, when I feel I shouldn't be burdened with the responsibility yet.
There's a reason behind my actions, why I do things the way I do.
I don't like people to throw me off my direction, where I'm heading.

Life has been busy definitely but I'd rather be busy doing what I love than do nothing at all.
I am busy taking baby steps, leaps, paving my way and slowly achieving my dreams.
There's a reason why most of the time my schedule is packed and full.

I've been through a lot and perhaps this will be just one of my obstacles that I'll overcome soon.
I really hope so.
Because things, people that I believe in are losing my faith and I've started to not believe in them anymore. Some things are starting to lose it's meaning no matter how much I don't want them to.
I hope everything's gonna be alright.

Broken

2011-04-16T17:24:00.005+08:00

"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."
-Marilyn Monroe.

I think I've hit rock bottom. One of the lowest moments of my life.
Everything's screwing up & my positivity & optimism is running very low, even my health.
There's only so much I can take.
Besides being sick, there's some issues which I shall not elaborate on.
Sometimes I feel like I'm someone's punching bag. It hurts so bad, so much.
I can't describe how heartbroken or broken I have been lately.
Basically April's been sucky for me so far. I hope it gets better in time soon.
I need a miracle.

The only one that knows everything that's been happening to me lately is Ahmad.
I really love him for always being there & tolerating everything cos all these things are making me very vulnerable & I've haven't been myself that much lately.
Thank you for being such a good boyfriend & best friend.
I love you so much, Ahmad Husayn ♥

Lost Voice, Lost Cause

2011-04-16T16:39:00.004+08:00

"I have feelings too. I am still human. All I want is to be loved, for myself and for my talent."
-Marilyn Monroe.

Lost my voice & it hasn't come back since Wednesday.
My first time ever. Throughout my years of singing & cheerleading, I've never lost my voice.
I was supposed to perform & sing for an item Miley Cyrus's Two More Lonely People with the Hip Hop dancers since the original two singers were a no-show.
Got everything down, the song's melody, lyrics, choreo but too bad my voice didn't recover in time.
I didn't even sang for Zeenol's Dj Got Us Falling in Love Again but got to perform.
I swear the crowd was awesome. Made up of 5000 people.
Best. Crowd. Ever.

Everybody, the whole of CREATE Republic did an awesome job!
And I'm very proud of Replug. It was a success.

Just wished my voice recovered in time. If not I could've have two more new experiences.
1. sing & dance at the same time with dancers
2. perform & sing solo to 5000 people
My only Replug wish is to perform & sing solo for next year's Jam & Hop.

Funny how things work.
I missed The Script's first ever concert in Singapore because of a bump-in & in the end, I lost my voice for Jam & Hop. Go figure.

I think this is God's way of teaching me a lesson not to take my voice for granted.
I always wished my voice was better in some way like other people...huskier, better tone etc.
I always admired people's voices more in a way that I think whatever song people ask them to sing on the spot it would've sound awesome anyways.
I also got sick of some people making fun of my voice cos it's tiny although big at the same time, that Disney girl thing people like to label me with.

All this when I should've been proud of the voice I've been gifted with.
Because I can do so much with it, I can almost adapt & sing any genre I want with it.
I can go as high as I want though I've yet to master my very low notes.
I swear I will be very proud & have full confidence in my voice & not take it for granted anymore.
I won't care what anybody say about it anymore.

Dear voice, I hope you'll come back soon, even much better & stronger with full force.
I'm ready to show the world & let them listen, let you be heard, show 'em what you're made of.
I miss you, please come back soon.
Love, Liyana ♥

Upgrade U

2011-03-31T03:33:00.003+08:00

Got to watch ITE's Westside Story musical on Sunday!
Almost didn't got to watch it cos I only knew about it that week itself.
On that day itself Dalilah couldn't make it last minute so I ended up goin' alone.
I couldn't miss it! The fact that it's an ITE musical & my friends are in it, of cos I'd do anything for the arts & my friends even if I have to do it alone.
But in the end I ended up watching it with Syirah, Aidil & the other Showchoir peeps :]

The musical made me thought to myself that I've sang, I've dance but I've never been in a musical before.
I'd love to try that once if I ever get to.

There's so many things I want to try if I ever get to.
Here's a list:

sing, dance, act altogether -musical
ballet
indian dance
malay dance
know how to play the basics for at least one instrument -piano, guitar

Basically that's it. I'm sure along the way I'll find more to add on soon.
These are the things I've yet to try in terms of music & the arts and I hope I get to do 'em one of these days.

Surreal

2011-03-31T02:44:00.005+08:00

Today, my mom, her friend Sheila & I went to pay their friend, Moi, a visit.
She just gave birth to a new born baby girl name Azrar which is a combination of her name & her husband's name. (Cool much?)
Of cos there were talks about pregnancy, the process, marriage & my mom of cos walked down memory lane & talked about the times when she had me & my brother as a baby.

One thing I found fascinating was when they talked about the fact that having a baby is surreal.
Because you see something which is a product of you.
You ask yourself questions like, "Is that really mine?" "Did that came from me?"'
You have moments of fascination, trying to believe & make sense of it all.
Because something such as having your own child is unbelievable.
You wake up and it's just there.

Something I still find surreal sometimes are those days when I can't believe I fell in with Ahmad & he's someone I can call mine.
It's sucha magical feeling to be in love & to have someone like you.

I can't imagine how it'll be like to go through pregnancy & all.
All those talks I've heard of it before is scary.
They say it's feels like a matter of life & death.
But the best thing about it all is you go through pain and you're gifted with your love child.
Someone both you & your future life partner can call yours.

I can't wait to experience more magical, surreal moments :]

Here's some pictures of Azrar!
I couldn't stop snapping! hehe.

Look at her tiny hands!

She's so strong! She can already reach out & lift her hand!

Peek-A-Boo! Eyes open! :D

What Hurts The Most?

2011-03-30T16:49:00.003+08:00

What hurts more?
Not having something everytime but when you finally do, it is all yours. Just for you.
Or having something most of the time, so close within your grasp but it is not entirely, completely all yours?

They say the worst way to miss someone is to have them sitting right next to you and yet you know you can never have them.
In my case, I have someone...but not to myself.

This week has been tough on me relationship wise...or you could say this holidays.
Ever since we've been having practices, I don't get to have Q.T. with my boyfriend as much as I want to.
Sure, we see each other, go to school together for practices if I have 'em too & all...but it's not the same as spending Q.T. with each other, just the two of us.
Even if we're together on bus rides mostly the talk nowadays is about work which drains us.
Heck, practices already drains us what else talks about it.

That's why it's possible to be with someone most of the time yet you miss him so much because you never got to really spend precious quality time with him alone.
It hurts so much to miss someone so bad. It really hurts.

Among many things that you are to me, I miss you as my boyfriend the most.
I miss my boyfriend. I miss you. I miss us. ♥

Oh You Make Me Smile :)

2011-03-25T10:12:00.003+08:00

I wish I can take a picture of Ahmad whenever he looks at me, especially with that charming, wide grin smile. But I can't because he never smiles like that for the camera & I know it's only meant for me to see :]

*takes a mental picture instead* hehe.

This Is What Dreams Are Made Of

2011-03-23T01:33:00.007+08:00

"It will cost you nothing to dream -and everything not to."
-Rev Run.

Today, I realized nothing kills my soul more than the mere thought of not being able to pursue my dreams.
Because I am nothing without my ambitions, passion & dreams.
It makes me who I am. I cannot live without 'em.
Without 'em, I'll be lost. So lost.

It gives me an identity, a sense of who I am, something to hope for, something to wish & dream about, something to do, goals to set out for & so much more.
I will never compromise them for anything.
If it takes a lot of my time, work & effort, I don't mind. Not at all. I will do it.
Nothing will stop me. Nothing.
I will never give up on my dreams.
Because I never give up. Never.
I am a lady of ambition & nothing will change that. Nothing.

"Trying to make it work but man, these times are hard

Oh these times are hard
They are making us crazy
Don't give up on me baby"

-The Script's For The First Time on replay.

Express Yourself

2011-03-19T22:56:00.007+08:00

I'm not the kind of person to fully express myself.
Usually I express myself through the things I do.
Music, design, writing, photography...
That's why I cannot NOT sing & dance.
If not, I'll feel trapped.
I feel no sense of self-expression.
That sense of individuality.
And lately, I've been feeling this way.
I yearn to do my own stuff.
Sing the songs that I want to sing.
Dance & get lost in the music.
Problem? Time.
This busy schedule is not giving me any time to do my own stuff.
Instead I'm helping out by singing back-up...which is not the same.
That's what I mean when I say I miss singing.
I miss singing me, singing my own stuff, expressing me.
Me.

Confession Hour

2011-03-18T23:20:00.005+08:00

I swear I can honestly, truly say I've never been in a relationship where I am very scared to lose someone.
To the point where I've even dreamt about it, in my dreams.
Perhaps it's due to my fear of it almost happening once...or the fact that he's my wish came true.
Even so, I've never told a guy I never want to lose him before.
I've never felt this way about a guy either.
I've also never dreamt about someone so much before, be it good or bad.
I can't bear to lose the most bestest, perfect guy for me that I've ever met in my entire life.

I never fail to fall in love with him all over again every single day.
I can't get enough of him every time I see him.
He drives me crazy, in a good way.
I've never felt this kinda love before.
It doesn't get any better than this.

Call me a horoscope buff but yeah, I've been reading up horoscopes since I was young.
I've always believed in mostly the personality traits & compatibility.
Maybe the fact that I'm a Capricorn, He's a Taurus, both earth signs which equals to the perfect match in terms of horoscopes could be it.

Or it could be the fact that we're close friends who fell in love with each other & ended up being lovers & best friends.

Or it could be the fact I've never been with someone whom I actually like, have feelings for, have a crush on in the first place & the same goes for the person too.
Mutual attraction, feelings & everything else just falling into place so nicely.

But that's the thing about love: Love finds you the minute you stop looking.
Better believe it cos I swear it's true.
People like to make the mistake of finding for love when all they should do is let love find you.
When it finds you, it'll all happen naturally.
To me, that's the most bestest love of all.
To fall in love, unexpectedly...especially with your best friend.
It's not about who you are attracted to. It's about who you fall in love with.

Whatever it is, I know that I've never felt a love like this.
You're my present & I can't see a future with anyone else but you.
All our hopes, wishes, dreams together...we'll make it happen.
One day, that someday will come.

Never let me go ♥

Somebody's Me ♥

2011-03-17T03:20:00.008+08:00

“Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you every single night
Somebody can’t breathe without you, it’s lonely
Somebody hopes that one day you will see, that somebody’s me.”
-Enrique Iglesias, Somebody’s Me.

I’m very lucky & happy to have a somebody.

I love you, Ahmad Husayn. ♥

You Are The Music In Me ♥

2011-03-04T18:06:00.006+08:00

To me, singing/playing music & dancing are both under music.
They are two things under one category.
I've never thought them to be separate.
They both involve music. They are both different expressions of music.
That's why when people ask me what are my interests I just say Music and then go on by saying I sing & dance.
People should never separate this two because they are not two separate worlds.
Just like how different races are under one human race, one nationality, it is the same for music.

I can't stand not dancing for months, what else not singing!
Thankfully, now I'm dancing again cos I have Contemporary dance class on Mondays.
Now, I miss singing.
Yes, I am in a singing IG but we haven't done much singing lately.
I'll have some back-up singing stuff to do soon but it's not the same.

I've been wanting to cover songs, quite a number of 'em.
I've been wanting to collaborate with people but waiting around for people gets too long.
And most of the time people say it but it never happens.
That's why I think I should start doin' my own stuff, stuff on my own.
That's what I always do.
People take too long to do somethin' & eventually I get tired of waiting around & I end up doing it on my own.
So I might as well.

Saw a short feature on Santana on Channel 5 yesterday & before you know it, I recorded myself singing Smooth on my IPhone!
I haven't let anyone listen to it yet but I think Ahmad's gonna be da first! heh.
Can't wait to do lotsa covers with him. Time time timeeee!

Ooh, I also had a video concept idea + business idea when I was showering just now.
I know, out of all places. The bathroom's a good place to sing like nobody's listening, think & contemplate on stuff, come up with ideas, somehow a place & source of inspiration & more! haha.
For the video concept, I'll see how.
And as for the business idea, I'll keep it & use it if I happen to get rich enough in the future to start my own business hehe.

Jinx! -Not.

2011-03-04T17:22:00.003+08:00

I had this belief that whenever I started blogging about a boyfriend on Black Locket, it will jinx my relationship.
Why? Because it has happened. Twice.
Just nice when I start to blog and slowly reveal who my boyfriend is on Black Locket,
things happen and before you know it. Bye bye.
Pure coincidence on two occasions? Maybe.

I told this to Ahmad & he said, "Then you better don't do it."
I don't believe in such things but I only started to be cautious & wary about it when it had happened two times.
But now, I shall reject that claim.
I won't believe in it anymore.

Black Locket has always been a private place for me to express whatever I want & talk about all things happy, sad...anything that gets my attention, anything that gets to me.
I love it that it seems quiet & I don't really know who's reading except for the exceptional few close ones.
Anyone is welcomed to read provided they mind their own business.
They read because they bother, they care & want to be updated on how I am doin'.

So I have faith that no, Black Locket will not jinx my relationship. Especially this one.
Because I love Ahmad with all my heart & have enough faith to believe that this will be everlasting.
This faith is more than enough to overcome anything & stronger than any jinx.

All The Small Things ♥

2011-03-03T19:58:00.001+08:00

Yesterday I guess I could say Ahmad cooked up a storm for me in the kitchen! He was on a cooking spreeeee! hehe. It was his first time cooking Spaghetti! He added tomato sauce, salt, grind the black peppers. He also did some scrambled eggs while I got ready the garlic bread. I love it when he cooks; it's sucha turn-on + plus point! hehe. Anything tastes super duper yummy when it's cooked with love ♥

Today I got to go out grocery shopping with my mom! She ate Laksa while I got to eat curry chicken + rice + bread! Yum Yum! C:

I love doin' mini surprises for my loved ones. I did two today. I think I shall not unveil it now till the two people have discovered it already hehe. Most probably I'll post up what I did once it's discovered! hehe ;)

Stay The Same, Don't Change ♥

2011-02-06T20:39:00.012+08:00

I'm gonna blog before it's da new week tomorrow!
UT3s are around da corner so it's time for intensive revision!
What's more, they are consecutively back-to-back.
And it's can be easily remembered cos it starts on da 14th feb, Valentine's Day haha.

Okie dokie, let's get down to da nitty gritty.
Continuation from da previous entry, these are da precious people in my life that I'm happy that they're still around & I hope it stays that way :]

First & foremost, my Ohana :D

My mom & bro; just da 3 of us.
No matter how much they can get on my nerves sometimes, I'll always love 'em & can't live without 'em. They're the ones who are always there for me no matter what.

And that goes the same for my family lyke my kuzzies, my little ones, aunts.
I look forward to festivities & family gatherings because of 'em.
Love 'em :]

Shockwave!
My close knit of ITE Bishan friends.
My best team to work with too, ever! Period.
Love all da inside jokes & how we make effort to meet up from time to time despite our different, busy schedules.
I love who I am when I'm with them, they bring out the best in me & are always there to support me in whatever I do.
I really hope this friendship lasts till we see each other get married, grow old with each other & all hehe.

Sabrina! my weiyi :]
Friends since secondary school till now.
Went through a lot together.
We both know our friendship had a funny, rocky start but look where we are now haha.
We don't get to see each other as often as we want to but we always meet up once in awhile & keep in touch :]

Lastly is Tasha!
I can't remember how long I've known her already...lyke 4-5 years is it?
My online friend turned bestie haha!
She's has her MIA moments but thank god we've always managed to find each other and not lost touch.

And this is the end of my continuation cycle entries haha!
Shall start to blog as per normal from now on.
Can't wait to see Ahmad l8er!
Haven't had my QT for 2 weeks already.
OT = Quality Time + Cutie. HEHE.
Okie dokie, toodles! :D

Same Old Brand New

2011-02-01T22:41:00.012+08:00

Wow, I'm blogging! hehe.
Pardon me, I'm still getting used to me blogging again after about 2 years haha.
I did mention that I was gna blog about how my life has changed right since then?
Here I goooooooooooo!
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scream my lungs out tryna get to youuuuuu!

Okie dokie, what's new?
This may be so last year (literally) but just so you know...
I'm an RP student now! :D
Yes, graduated from ITE Bishan & I got to the polytechnic I wanted to go to hehe.
I love RP bcos it's so active & rich in arts & culture :]
Hence, my choice of school.

I'm in Sonic Arts & I'll be doin' my 2nd Year soon!
Besides that there's IGs! (interest groups)
I remember being spoilt for choice because RP has too many awesome IGs, I swear.
So I tried to narrow down & auditioned for Replug, Jammerz Arena, Modern Dance & Hip Hop.
Some of 'em had more than 1 round of audition.
I got through the auditions for all of 'em but in da end I stuck with Replug & Modern Dance.
One singing IG. One dancing IG.
So Liyana, can't live without either one haha :P

But in the end as lyke what happened in ITE, both clashed so in the end I had to quit Modern Dance halfway & stuck to Replug!
Still, I miss dance so much!
Haven't been dancing for what feels lyke so long already! :(

So...new school, more friends

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E24F!
My very first classmates in RP!
I swear I love 'em mann.
An awesome, fun bunch.
Def miss them a lot.

E35N!
My current class!
Currently don't have a class photo yet but I hope soon! hehe.
Cos this sem's coming to an end alreadyyy!

Replug!
Unplugged music redefined.
Aiseh mann hehe :P
Basically we do awesome acoustic music heh.
The people I spent most of my breaks, after school hours with.
and this is where I found the love of my life, my other half...

AHMAD HUSAYN! ♥
My close friend turned boyfriend/best friend.
My wish come true.
I swear he's sucha sweetheart.
I feel v blessed to have him in my life and have someone I can call mine :]

Okie, I think I should wrap it up cos it's getting late & I have school tmr!
Shall continue on my next entry bcos I'm still not done.
This is about Change. The next one's gna be about the ones who are still arnd.
I'm sure they know who they are already hehe.
Till then, Goodnight! :D

Guess who's back, back again...

2011-01-31T20:50:00.006+08:00

I'm proud to say...
I'm BACKKKKKKKKK!

I realised I need this space more than ever now.
Finally decided to make a comeback after having more time on my hands now.
Not to mention so many things to let out & express.
I guess this is also an avenue where my friends can get updated on what's goin' on with me & my life in more detail now besides Facebook & Twitter.
Don't know if anyone will bother to drop by here anymore but I'm sure those who are close to me will hehe :]

Anyways, Blogger has def. changed a lot since the last time I used it.
Only logged in today at first because we had to create a blog site for some school assignment.
It was also my turn to be interviewed by my New Media faci today.
She asked, "Why did you stop blogging?"
My reply was I was too busy with stuff, I had no time.
But there's actually another reason why I stopped...
those who keep track & know my life I guess will know why.
Those who don't, it's alright...you don't need to know :]

Back to the Blogger topic, I realised how much it changed in terms of template layouts etc.
I decided to upgrade from my classic template style to this new template style thus explaining the new look tho' I've yet to add my personal touches & play around with it hehe.

Besides Blogger, my life has defintely changed too since 2009-2010...(the last time I updated)
More additions to my life hehe.
And also stuff I wish I can subtract. Bleh.
Shall update & elaborate more on that in my next entry.
In the mean time, I shall end here.
Toodles! :D

2009-12-29T21:38:00.008+08:00

Singapore Idol Finals.

For the first time, I felt goosebumps onstage.

Actually it wasn't just me, the rest did too when we sang for Sezairi's Touched By An Angel performance.

It's like you could really feel the fans' love for him.

The atmosphere really got to me.

I really feel lucky to have been part of a big event.

I'm grateful for the experience & exposure.

And the goosebumps are one of the best feelings I've ever experienced!

Thank you Sezairi & his fans! :D

Sezairi & Sylvia.

Some people find it no surprise that Sezairi won cos he's a guy & girls vote for guys while guys don't vote for girls blah blah blah.

Plus, it's third in a row that a malay guy won again.

Bcos of this, racism remarks are flying arnd on da net.

In my opinion, I didn't care who won.

Both were great in their own way.

Sylvia def. has great vocals, the whole package.

But I think Sezairi won bcos he has a large & supportive fanbase.

And no, it doesn't consist of just malays.

If it's like that their votes wouldn't be enough for him to win.

You should have been there to know why he won.

When he sang the Idol song, he really touched the crowds' hearts, he really connected with the audience.

Hence, to me that's why he won.

End of story.

2009-12-16T01:45:00.009+08:00

You are worthy of your heart's desire, but getting it requires the best of you.

Since I'm waiting for my food in Cafe World to be done, I shall blog! hehe.

Life's been v busy. I know, nothing new haha.

It's the holidays now actually but my schedule's filled with Event commitments, Dance & Acapella practices.

So I still hafta wake up early almost everyday but today I think I woke up @ 1pm?

YAY! haha :D

Anyways, I'm currently trying to finish up my dance elective by this month.

Learning Contemporary, Jazz -Lyrical, S.E. Asian (Chinese Dance) & Fundamentals of Body Movement.

And usually dance is 4-6 hours straight.

The good thing is...I'm finally dancing again! :D

Acapella.

Was gna sing lead for Last Christmas but had to forgo the Jazzanova performance bcos it clashes with my group's Club Illqya (LPD) event on that day :/

But at least I'm gna join 'em for Singapore Idol Finals! YAY :D

Gna be in the choir for that day along with Show Choir.

This xmas, I'm gna spent it with my girls :]

Since we rarely have time to meet up now.

I think the last time was Kelly's birthday which was in Oct? haha.

Sleepover @ my place!

Please, please don't let anything else clash with that day.

The year is coming to an end soon.

2010 & I'll be 20!

So far I've no new year eve plans yet but I'm def. gna celebrate it heh.

Ooh, I'm gna be graduating soon!

Hopefully my results are good enough to get me into a course I want.

Currently I'm eyeing NP's Arts Business Management & SP's Event Management.

Okie dokie, I think I'm done.

Gna get to bed, hafta wake up @ 7am!

Much love :]

2009-11-04T21:28:00.007+08:00

I used to have a handle on life but it broke.

I know, I've received the complaints to update.
The last time I blogged was September.
Now's November. 2 months...hehe my apologies.

Looks like I never have time to blog anymore or I've lost interest?
we'll see heh.
Anyways, I pretty much have nothing to blog about or I don't want to because my life's in a total mess right now. No kidding.
I really appreciate and thank you for those who still bother to check up on me here hehe.
Either you really love and miss me or you're kpo ahahaha :P
Whatever it is as long as it's for the right reasons, I love you :]

If you wanna be updated on my life I have another alternative tho'.

TWITTER!
Twitter ID: liyanaibrahim

If you don't have one, go do one! heh.
But mine's private so I only accept some follow requests.
I believe my thoughts are very private and I'll only share 'em with certain people.
Mostly people who know me well enough.
Cos I don't want no unnecessary drama heh.
So no offense if I don't accept alrighty. Nothing personal :]

Anyways, that's all for now folks.
see ya! much love :]

2009-09-07T22:07:00.010+08:00

Wow, it's been sooo long since I last blogged.
Blogger sorta looks & feels a bit different.
Or maybe it's just me lol :P

Random updates:

I miss dancing
I miss singing
I miss performing
I lost my thumb ring ):
I've yet to intro y'all my band, L'Entranta
+we're looking for a keyboardist!
So long projects, Hello Holidays! :D
+but just when I thought I'll be free from commitments this time...it's filled up with stuff already haha
F1 upgrade!
Open mic performance with Hairul on Friday!
Singapore Idol: Vote Syltra Lee!
Photoshoot on Sunday!
I should really start using the money I earn to buy stuff for myself instead of using it for outings, events etc.
FB apps: Fancheck, All My Friends!, LoverBots, whatever other Bots
+delete these apps! it's a virus & it's getting v irritating.

That's all for now.
I'll elaborate & go into details about all this stuff soon some time this week alrighty.
I apologize for the lack of updates.
You know why right, busy & me can never be apart hehe :P
And my computer is always conquered by someone.
All da more I should have my own laptop! ahahaha.
much love :]

2009-06-18T16:52:00.017+08:00

Absence makes the heart grow fonder but it sure makes the rest of you lonely.
-Charlie Brown.

LINKS
Added: Tijah.

It's been awhile since I stayed at home for a whole day.
So far I've been resting for two days already!
Having my own Gossip Girl marathon hehe.

I'm having a stuffy nose right now from all the crying yesterday
-don't ask.
I predict I'm gna fall sick soon...

On 2nd thought, I think I'm already am. bleh.

15 & 16 June 09

ITE Graduation Ceremony @ NUS UCC

Fortissimo's artist manager.
lalalalala :P

but I spoiled my only reliable pair of black wedges in the process.
boooo ):

I swear that place is freezing cold.
I was shivering while I was recording their performance.
anyways, gr8 job Fortissimo!
And not forgetting, Feizel & Aishah!
ahahaha :D

Afterwards at night...

Happy Birthday Tijah!

celebrated her birthday by surprising her after her day out with Reshi.
glad you had a blast tijah!
fishball loves you! muack muack! *boobsy hug*

Matty also came back from Canada so once we 3 girls were reunited,
french kiss! ahahaha :P
thanks Feekah for da pics! :D

Look at me!
I'm losing so much weight right now ):
No wonder Tijah's father pestered me to eat more.
I really need to start taking care of myself & stuff myself with food more!
ROARRRR! :O

14 June 09

wenta watch it @ PS with my ohana & tasha bestie!
The movie was alright; the story didn't have much depth.
It's more for the guys to watch & learn from it than girls.

No matter what they say, there's always someone out there for you to wake up to every morning.
Don't fool around because karma has a way of getting back at 'cha.
Take risks. Treasure your true love.

Yeah, I think that's basically the lesson to learn from the movie.
heh.

Ooh ooh!
In the movie, the girl was a wedding planner while the guy was a photographer heh.
*hint hint* hehe :P

A quote from the movie:

"Someone once told me that the power in all relationships lies with whoever cares less, and he was right. But power isn't happiness, and I think that maybe happiness comes from caring more about people rather than less... "

Sometimes love comes around and it knocks you down, just get back up when it knocks you down.

Please Don't Stop The Rain
by James Morrison

I don’t know where I crossed the line
Was it something that I said
Or didn’t say this time?

And I don’t know if it’s me or you
I can see the skies are changing
No longer shades of blue
I don’t know which way it’s gonna go

And if it’s going to be a rainy day
There’s nothing we can do to make it change
We can pray for sunny weather
But that won’t stop the rain
You’re feeling like you’ve got no place to run
I can be your shelter til it’s done
We can make this last forever
So please don’t stop the rain
Let it fall, Let it fall, Let it fall
Please don’t stop the rain
Let it fall, Let it fall, Let it fall
Please don’t stop the rain

I thought that time was on our side
I’ve put in far too many years
To let this pass us by
You see life is a crazy thing
There’ll be good times
And there’ll be bad times
And everything in between
And I don’t know which ways it’s gonna go

And if it’s going to be a rainy day
There’s nothing we can do to make the change
We can pray for sunny weather
But that won’t stop the rain
You’re feeling like you’ve got no place to run
I can be your shelter til it’s done
We can make this last forever
So please don’t stop the rain
Let it fall, Let it fall, Let it fall
Please don’t stop the rain
Let it fall, Let it fall, Let it fall
Please don’t stop the rain

Oh we’re a little closer now
In finding what life’s all about
Yeah I know you just can't stand it
When things don’t go your way
But we’ve got no control over what happens anyway

If it’s going to be a rainy day
There’s nothing we can do to make the change
We can pray for sunny weather
But that won’t stop the rain
Feeling like you’ve got no place to run
I can be your shelter til it’s done
We can make this last forever
So please don’t stop the rain
Let it fall, Let it fall, Let it fall
Please don’t stop the rain
Let it fall, Let it fall

2009-06-14T12:39:00.013+08:00

The person whose calls you always take? That's the relationship you're in.
-The Devil Wears Prada.

LINKS
Added: Sparkage. Syltra.

go check out Sparkage!
Confessions of a makeup junkie.
it's all about makeup, hairstyles, nails & more.

Finally it's the holidays!

Things to do:

Photoshoots
dress up, make up, click click click!
Gossip Girl
time to catch up on the episodes
Revamp Sweet Avenue
it's time I give my blog a little makeover
Catch up
with my ohana, my girls, my weiyi, jac b.f. etc.
Movies
have you seen my list? lol.
Skillz
make-up. cooking. guitar.
Tv
lots & lots of tv.
Facebook albums
perhaps perhaps heh.
Clean up my room
the neverending chore lol :P

Whether I have time to do all of 'em is another story.
Cos I still have my school commitment stuff to attend to heh :P

Btw, have you seen/heard Ciara & Justin's Love Sex Magic?
If you haven't, you should go check out da vid!
It's hott mann. Szzzzz!~
You should see what Ciara is capable of doin' with that bod of hers.
o.O lmao.

Warning: don't click if you really buay tahan anything too hot or sexy lol.

Love Sex Magic

I know I've mention 'em before but I'll mention 'em again!
I love The Saturdays :D
You should go check 'em out.
Their album covers jst keeps getting better & better!
love their photos :D
& the thing is, the smallest one has the biggest voice.
cool or whatttt haha.
Its amazing how they can sing & dance at the same time with the super high heels & super tight skirts lol.

Just Can't Get Enough Live

Ooh, Mr Baron's coming back to Singapore on Friday!
I'm not sure back for good or not tho' hmm.

Yay! one more week till 'Izzat books out! heh :D
& I'm gna meet Tasha bestie l8er!
wheeeeee!~

A burning love I just can't seem to get enough of.

Just Can't Get Enough
by The Saturdays

When I’m with you baby, I go out of my head
And I just cant get enough, I just cant get enough
All the things you do to me and everything you said
And I just cant get enough, I just cant get enough

We slip and slide as we fall in love
And I just cant seem to get enough

We walk together, we're walking down the street
And I just cant get enough, I just cant get enough
Every time I think of you I know we have to meet
And I just cant get enough, I just cant get enough

Its getting hotter, its our burning love
And I just cant seem to get enough

And when it rains, you’re shining down for me
And I just cant get enough, I just cant get enough
Just like a rainbow you know you set me free
And I just cant get enough, I just cant get enough

You’re like an angel and you give me your love
And I just cant seem to get enough

2009-06-05T20:05:00.005+08:00

Happy Birthday Lily!

I'm sorry for the times I upset you.

I'm sorry if I get so caught up with my work and get too busy.

I want nothing more than for you to be happy.

And I hope to make you proud.

Thank you for always being there for me.

Just so you know, I'm proud to have you.

And I hope I grow up to be like you one day.

Talented, forever young, strong, independent & so much more.

I love you.

29 May 09

Happy Birthday Khai!

celebrated his birthday by giving him his first clubbing experience @ St James' Power House.

woo hoo!

For more CHEESE!, check out my facebook alrighty :D

I wna go to the movies sooooon!~

Movies I wna catch:

Transformers: Revenge Of The Fallen

Ghosts From My Girlfriends' Past

Hannah Montana

Ooh, guess what? I got into F1!

wheeee :D

It'll be my first time cos last year I faithfully stayed & continued doin' Singapore Biennale instead of goin' for F1.

ahahaha :P

The video SGP showed us yesterday during the briefing was enough to get our adrenaline pumping.

woo hoo!

School has been really keeping me busy.

Trying to juggle between my project stuff & vocal practices.

It may get tiring but at least I'm doin' 'em with my close friends which makes it enjoyable at the same time heh :]

love Ravvivi & Fortissimo! :D

2009-05-22T21:21:00.008+08:00

Maybe no one told you there was strength in your tears, so you fight to keep from pouring out.
-Kelly Clarkson.

Since I'm free now, waiting for the clock to strike 10 (Ghost Whisperer!), I shall do a quick update.

I don't know why I've been feeling a bit low lately.
Hormones. The weather. Or maybe I'm just plain tired cos too much's been happening this week. Had a lot of juggling to do.
Oh wells, it's just a phase.
I think I'll be alright tmr :]

You can't change the past but you can ruin the present by worrying about your future.

Silly me.
I must remind myself not to think too much & worry about something that hasn't even happened yet.

Oh ya! I apologize if I haven't been replying anyone's texts.
Yes, the bitch fits are back.
My phone is having the same problem again. pffffft.
I really need to get a new phone.
So if you need to contact me, call instead alrighty.
You probably missed hearing my voice anyways.
lalalala :D

anyways, my group, Ravvivi, is currently organizing a charitable cultural arts event.
It's still in the planning process but I'll post up an update about it once we've made solid plans about it alrighty.
I'll really appreciate your support! heh :]

My brother & mom's birthday is coming.
Yes, I'm the Capricorn that's stuck with the two Geminis haha.
Can't wait for the Ohana movie outing & clubbing @ Butter Factory!
wheeee :]

Somebody's gna serve the nation soooon~ hehe.
my boy's gna be a man! ahahaha :D
But the part I hate is lesser time to see each other.
BOOOOOOOOO ):
And it doesn't help I have a tendency to miss you a little too much, a little too often heh.
But absence makes the heart grow fonder right.
lalalalala :P

Ok, I'm done.
Till my next update, love love!

You make me crazier, crazier, crazier.

Crazier
by Taylor Swift

I've never gone with the wind
Just let it flow, let it take me
Where it wants to go
'Til you opened the door
There's so much more
I'd never seen it before
I was trying to fly, but I couldn't find wings
Then you came along and you changed everything

You lift my feet off the ground, spin me around
You make me crazier, crazier
Feels like I'm falling and I am lost in your eyes
You make me crazier, crazier, crazier

I watched from a distance as you
Made life your own, every sky was
Your own kind of blue
And I wanted to know
How that would feel and you made it so real
You showed me something that I couldn't see
You opened my eyes and you made me believe

You lift my feet off the ground, spin me around
You make me crazier, crazier
Feels like I'm falling and I am lost in your eyes
You make me crazier, crazier, crazier

Baby, you showed me what living is for
I don't want to hide anymore

You lift my feet off the ground, spin me around
You make me crazier, crazier
Feels like I'm falling and I am lost in your eyes
You make me crazier, crazier, crazier

Crazier, Crazier

2009-05-09T10:35:00.020+08:00

To understand the heart and mind of a person, look not at what he has already achieved, but at what he aspires to do.
-Khalil Jibran.

LINKS
Relinked: Fahmy. Tasha. Nat. Chin Ying. Matthew.

1 month later...
(think Spongebob)

sorry for the late update!
Been busy ever since school started.
Can't blog as much as I did during the holidays heh.

I have a cough & it's been with me for a few days, I think a week already.
It doesn't want to leave me!
BOOOOOO.
I've been staying away from chocs, fizzy drinks.
Have been only drinking stuff like green tea, honey, water.
I guess oily food is hard to avoid cos mostly all the food here is oily, fatty bleh.
But it's getting better I guess.
If you have any other fast ways to get rid of cough please do tell.
I hope it's not a permanent thing ):

My mom just got a cough tday too.
More honey & lemon Strepsils for us!
AHAHAHAHA

Have I mentioned that my timetable this semester sucks?
Seriously. I only end early on Wednesdays.
And now my Fridays start late, end late.
It clashes with dance so now I can't attend dance for the whole semester ):
I can't dance with my kuzzie also who also just joined Soul'd Out.
BOOOOOOO.
anyways, Dapheny left us already cos currently another instructor's taking over for ISS for the time being.
I hope by da time I can attend dance again Dapheny will be our instructor again hehe.

Dapheny

Anyways, guess what?!
I went for an interview for the ITE Arts Excellence Award...
and I got it!
WHEEEEE :D

I'm very thankful for the opportunities I've been getting lately.
I'm also very grateful for all things good in my life right now.
*sings* someone's watching over me :]

I wna learn hwta play the guitar!
I tried last time but stopped halfway.
I guess I was too young then to have the patience & interest haha.
But now I'm planning to try to pick it up slowly this year or go learn it for real next year when I'm gna graduate soon, which means I think I'll have more free time.
Aishah, my vocal instructor, always said it's not enough to just know hwta sing.
A singer must at least know hwta play an instrument too.
I have a guitar & keyboard at home that's been untouched for a long time haha.
Shall put 'em to good use one day heh.

Anyways, Im gna have a solo performance coming up!
will be accompanied by Sharil, my guitarist heh :]
Gna be performing Miley Cyrus's The Climb.

After listening to some of the songs from Miley Cyrus's movie,
I think I wna watch Hannah Montana: The Movie.
HAHA.
*sings* boom clap. boom de clap de clap.

American Idol.
It's the battle between the 3 dudes now.
Adam Lambert. Kris Allen. Danny Gokey.
*jeng jeng jeng jeng*

I'm an Adam Fanbert!
ahahahaha.
Isn't he amazing? hehe :D

cut the chase already!
we know who's gna be the winner lol :P

I was hoping Allison stayed instead of Kris Allen cos she did really well while he wasn't performing well for some reason.
I love her new hairstyle!
She changed it during Rock Week.
redhead with purple highlights.
cool or whatttt haha.
Of cos it's nice, it's done by Adam Lambert's hairstylist haha :]

Have you listened to The Saturdays?
I think their music's awesome.
And I love their style.
Plus, there's not much girl bands in the music industry now.
The only other girl group I can think of at the top of my head right now is The Pussycat Dolls.

go check 'em out!
They did a remake of Depeche Mode's Just Can't get Enough.
The vid has this cheeky calender girl style goin' on haha.
And their song Issues is really nice.
click click!

Just Can't Get Enough

Issues

Transformers: Revenge Of The Fallen.
it's coming out in june!
WHEEEEE :D

One of the things I look forward to in Transformers:
Megan Fox.

She's fiiiine mann.
I'm sure everyone agrees with me hehe.
Brian Austin Green (boyfriend) better know what he's got! ahahaha.

check out her latest interview with Elle magazine.
click click!

Megan Fox

okie dokie, I'm done.
take care people!
don't get swine flu ok, pigs can fly now.
AHAHAHAHA
love love :D

In your eyes I'd like to stay.

Make You Feel My Love
by Adele

When the rain is blowing in your face
And the whole world is on your case
I could offer you a warm embrace
To make you feel my love

When the evening shadows and the stars appear
And there is no one there to dry your tears
I could hold you for a million years
To make you feel my love

I know you haven't made your mind up yet
But I would never do you wrong
I've known it from the moment that we met
No doubt in my mind where you belong

I'd go hungry, I'd go black and blue
I'd go crawling down the avenue
No, there's nothing that I wouldn't do
To make you feel my love

The storms are raging on the rolling sea
And on the highway of regret
Though winds of change are throwing wild and free
You ain't seen nothing like me yet

I could make you happy, make your dreams come true
Nothing that I wouldn't do
Go to the ends of the Earth for you
To make you feel my love

To make you feel my love

2009-04-10T13:38:00.009+08:00

Happiness is the secret to all beauty. There is no beauty that is attractive without happiness.
-Christian Dior.

I Will Be
by Leona Lewis

There's nothing I could say to you
Nothing I could ever do to make you see
What you mean to me

All the pain, the tears I cried
Still you never said goodbye and now I know
How far you'd go

I know I let you down
But it's not like that now
This time I'll never let you go

I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart

All my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay

I thought that I had everything
I didn't know what life could bring
But now I see, honestly

You're the one thing I got right
The only one I let inside
Now I can breathe, cause you're here with me

And if I let you down
I'll turn it all around
Cause I would never let you go

I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart

All my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay

Cause without you I cant sleep
I'm not gonna ever, ever let you leave
You're all I've got, you're all I want

And without you I don't know what I'd do
I can never, ever live a day without you
Here with me, do you see,
You're all I need

And I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart

All my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay

I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart

And all my life, you know I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay

2009-04-06T11:42:00.012+08:00

Specially for Nyayi.

My grandma (father's side) passed away yesterday.
Immediately went to attend her funeral when we got to know about it.
Cried silently while we were cabbing there.
The driver got curious & asked where we were heading to, what occasion.

When I entered the room, I can't help but to cry again when I saw her lying on the bed, covered.
She was so small, so fragile.
My aunt then lifted the cloth to let me see her face.
And immediately the waterworks started again.

It was like my first time attending a funeral actually tho' it was my 2nd.
My 1st was my grandpa's funeral, also my father's side.
But back then I was still a little girl so I couldn't really remember much about it.
Of cos I do have memories of him.

My nyayi & yayi looked so cute together.
It was like they were meant for each other, so compatible.
I still remember I used to visit them a lot when I was little.

I'm lucky I got to kiss her, say goodbye & see her again for one last time.
I wished I could've hugged her tho'.
I'll definitely miss her.

I'm sure she's at a better place now & God will take good care of her.
Maybe she's reunited with my grandpa now in heaven, who knows.
But I like to think she is. :]

It was nice to see my relatives again.
I never got to visit them last Hari Raya.
So many of my cousins have children now, either were married or getting married soon.
My father was there too, he brought along my step-sister.
Yes, I'm slowly accepting the fact now that I have one.
Her name's Lydia.

It helped that they were all those happy-go-lucky kinda people.
No matter what, laughter & smiles were always present.
It made yesterday easier.
I forgot how much of a clown my father was, in a good way of course.
It's lyke he will always slot in a joke in everything he says haha.

Hari Raya 2007

I think I'm done for now.
I don't really know hwta end this entry.
I think I'll leave you with lyrics of the song Love Me by Colin Raye.
For some reason it was suddenly in my head yesterday.
Maybe because it has to do with a grandparents love story heh.
It's a beautiful old love song.
give it a listen. click click!

Love Me

I actually have a lot of updating to do.
I'll try to find time soon alrighty.
much love :]

And between now and then, till I see you again,
I'll be loving you.

Love, me.

Love Me
by Colin Raye

I read a note my grandma wrote back in nineteen twenty-three.
Grandpa kept it in his coat, and he showed it once to me. He said,
"Boy, you might not understand, but a long, long time ago,
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none, but I loved your Grandma so."

We had this crazy plan to meet and run away together.
Get married in the first town we came to, and live forever.
But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet, instead of her
I found this letter, and this is what it said:

If you get there before I do, don't give up on me.
I'll meet you when my chores are through;
I don't know how long I'll be.
But I'm not gonna let you down, darling wait and see.
And between now and then, till I see you again,
I'll be loving you. Love, me.

I read those words just hours before my Grandma passed away,
In the doorway of a church where me and Grandpa stopped to pray.
I know I'd never seen him cry in all my fifteen years;
But as he said these words to her, his eyes filled up with tears.

If you get there before I do, don't give up on me.
I'll meet you when my chores are through;
I don't know how long I'll be.
But I'm not gonna let you down, darling wait and see.
And between now and then, till I see you again,
I'll be loving you. Love, me.
Between now and then, till I see you again,
I'll be loving you. Love, me.

2009-03-26T17:24:00.021+08:00

When life offers you a dream so far beyond any of your expectations, it's not reasonable to grieve when it comes to an end.
-Twilight.

LINKS
Added: Ashahry.

Saturday

I've never been stuck in a train for soooo long before.
What a way to start my morning too pfft.
I was stuck at Hougang, Kovan, Potong Pasir, Boon Keng, Serangoon.
For each stop I was stuck for arnd 10 mins or more.
I was stuck at some of the other stations too but only for awhile.
Imagine how long I had to wait to get myself to Outram Park.
I think if I was stuck any longer, I would've memorised the NEL lol :P

I was so glad I had a storybook in hand to keep me company & help me pass time.
(I'm currently reading The Juliet Club by Suzanne Harper btw hehe.)
The cause was the train before mine which broke dwn or somethin' I think.
The announcement was so muffled I couldn't comprehend what the woman was saying.
In da end, I also had trouble tapping out cos I spent too much time in da mrt lol.
And I was late for vocal class. bleh.

Earth Hour
28 March, Saturday.
8.30 - 9.30pm
vote Earth :D
*sings* turn off the lights!
(think Nelly Furtado hehe.)

Life is a maze and Love is a riddle.

I've been in deep contemplation these past few days...
thinking over about some stuff.

To err is human.
I know we're supposed to live life with no regrets but sometimes, you can't help but wish you could turn back time and change a situation or prevented something from happening.
But we're supposed to make mistakes so we live & learn.

I just wished I knew back then what I know now.
Perhaps things would've been different now.
Perhaps things wouldn't have changed.
But everything happens for a reason.
Eventually, it's for the best.

It's good to be in control of your life; to choose the paths you take.
But there are just some things that are better left to fate, such as love.
If it's meant to be, it will work out perfectly.
And some things are better left unsaid.
Whatever happens, happens.
Let nature take it's course.
Let it be.

Emotions can be dangerous at times.
It can make you do irrational stuff.
That's why you should always keep your emotions in check & never act on impulse.
Never let your heart rule your head.

There's also no point denying what my heart feels.
I can't change how I feel about someone & how much someone means to me.

If you have no idea what I'm goin' on about, it's alright.
just enjoy the show :]

Check out Lenka!
She's so pretty & da vid's cute :]
Especially the birds & tomatoes haha.
click click!

The Show

can't wait for the weekends!
wheeeeee :D

The Show
by Lenka

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
i don't know where to go, can't do it alone
I've tried, and i don't know why...

Slow it down, make it stop
Or else my heart is going to pop
'Cause it's too much, yeah it's a lot
To be something i'm not
I'm a fool out of love
'Cause i just can't get enough...

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
i don't know where to go, can't do it alone
I've tried, and i don't know why
I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but i don't show it
I can't figure it out, it's bringing me down
I know i've got to let it go...
And just enjoy the show

The sun is hot in the sky
Just like a giant spotlight
The people follow the signs
And synchronise in time
It's a joke, nobody knows
They've got a ticket to the show....

(i want my money back, just enjoy the show)

2009-03-17T16:36:00.015+08:00

The truth always comes out is one of the fundamental rules of time and when it comes out, it can set you free or end everything you fought so hard for.
- Gossip Girl.

LINKS
Added: B2B. Dyla. Amsyar.

Friday
IES Sheesha Outing

Mosi Cafe @ Arab St.
rooftop!

I love my classmates :]

TIJAHHHHHH!~ *boobsy hug*
ahahaha. I miss her already :]

Le Baroque
wrong day to drop by there.
Aishah wasnt there...her dad passed away ):
it wasn't happening that day anyway for some reason.
So we stayed until Shaggies finished performing and wenta Boat Quay.
Ate at Shah Alam instead.
Ended up having a nice time :]

Saturday

Had dance practice in da morning @ RP with Nisa, Vern & Aisyah :]
Afterwards, met up with my Ohana.

He's Just Not That Into You.
this is def. a must-watch movie, I swear.
it's a great movie, v. meaningful.
recommended for BOTH men & women.
it taught me a lot more about love...
or rather, reminded me more of what I already know. hmm.
anyways, it has a superb cast too.
Jennifer Aniston, Ben Affleck etc.

somethin' from the movie:

Girls are taught a lot of stuff growing up. If a guy punches you he likes you. Never try to trim your own bangs and someday you will meet a wonderful guy and get your very own happy ending. Every movie we see, Every story we're told implores us to wait for it, the third act twist, the unexpected declaration of love, the exception to the rule. But sometimes we're so focused on finding our happy ending we don't learn how to read the signs. How to tell from the ones who want us and the ones who don't, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave. And maybe a happy ending doesn't include a guy, maybe... it's you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. Maybe the happy ending is... just... moving on. Or maybe the happy ending is this, knowing after all the unreturned phone calls, broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment you never gave up hope.
- Gigi in He's Just Not That Into You.

I wanna watch 17 Again!
hehe.

Spot The Difference...

In case you didn't noticed,
I got a new haircut :D

I love my hair but I'm always fussing about my fringe.
Decided to do somethin' abt it once my mom had an idea on hwta change it heh.

I wna go to the library soon.
It's been awhile since I read a good book (& have time to complete it heh.)

take care!
love love :]

2009-03-12T16:00:00.013+08:00

Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius and it's better to be absolutely ridiculous than to be absolutely boring.
-Marilyn Monroe.

*screams*
MOMMY, IT'S O-VERRRRR! :O
bye-bye school, hello HOLIDAYS!
uh-huh uh-huh.
*boogies*

Tday didn't started out well actually.
I OVERSLEPT!

My first thought when I woke up:
why is it blue instead of pitch black?

When I realised it was 7 plus, I freaked out.
Quickly speed-shower, got ready, bing bang boom.
I had no choice but to cab to school.
Booooo, there's goes the moolah I've been saving ):
Maybe I'm not meant to save, that's why lol :P

Okok, back to da story.
On da way, got a pep talk call from Reshi lol.
I thought I was gna be late for an exam.
If not, it'd be my first.
But actually I had nothing to worry about bcos I was cabbing.
but yknw me, worrywart lol.
Then Tijah texted me cos she reached earlier than usual ahahaha.

There was da daily traffic watch report on da radio.
The driver said it's always da same everyday.
Really? lol.

Then when I reached school, straightaway wenta class.
no winter melon morning tday ):

straightaway texted Reshi & Tijah:
"Ok ive reach! Merdeka! AHAHAHA"

LMAO!

And that was my morning haha :]

Friday: IES Sheesha Outing. Le Baroque.
Saturday: Movie day with Ohana.
Sunday: Weiyi's birthday celebration.

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEE!~
can't wait! can't wait!
lalalala :D

I think I haven't been dancing for 2 weeks already.
tsk tsk.
This shawty needs to get loose!
ahahahaha

I love Kelly Clarkson's new song!
especially the video.
I have my reasons hehe :]

click click!

My Life Would Suck Without You

Ooh ooh, she's gna be on American Idol tday too!
go watch it alrighty!
This season's awesome btw heh :D

Happy holidays people!
MUACK :D

My Life Would Suck Without You
by Kelly Clarkson

Guess this means you're sorry
You're standing at my door
Guess this means you take back
All you said before
Like how much you wanted
Anyone but me
Said you'd never come back
But here you are again

[Chorus]
'Cause we belong together now
Forever united here somehow
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life would suck without you

Maybe I was stupid for telling you goodbye
Maybe I was wrong for trying to pick a fight
I know that I've got issues
But you're pretty messed up too
Either way, I found out I'm nothing without you

[Chorus]

Being with you
Is so dysfunctional
I really shouldn't miss you
But I can’t let you go

[Chorus]

'Cause we belong together now
Forever united here somehow
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life would suck without you

2009-03-10T16:30:00.007+08:00

Laugh your heart out. Dance in the rain. Cherish the moment, ignore the pain. Live, laugh and love. Forgive and forget. Life's too short to be living with regrets.

WHEEEEEE!
2 papers down, 1 more to go.
mwahahahaha :D \m/

I've got a new habit recently.
An exam have-to to be exact.
It all started on Monday.
I felt lyke vomiting throughout my journey to school in the morning.
Maybe it was the nerves or somethin'.
So before I wenta class I bought myself a winter melon tea and after drinking it, I felt better.
I don't know, maybe it has the power to calm me down?
ahahahaha.

Today I did da same thing too.
Now, it's a MUST haha :D

I've been listening to Perfect 10 more than the songs on my playlist lately on my journeys.
It's a bit dangerous to listen to Morning Madness by yourself tho'.
Cos there'd be moments you'd just hafta laugh at their jokes but you can't cos you're alone in public so....maintain maintain!
ahahaha :P

Holidays holidays!
I can't wait!
lalalala :D

2009-03-05T20:23:00.011+08:00

Someday, everything will make perfect sense.
So for now, laugh at the confusion, smile through the tears.
And keep reminding yourself everything happens for a reason.

You always have a knack for sensing whenever I'm not ok.
Even whenever I refuse to let it all out, you never give up.
You always persist and when I'm not ready, you try your very best to make me happy instead.
Thank you for always being there.
Thank you for being my mother, best friend and girlfriend all in one.
(plus make-up artist, image consultant, photographer...yada yada :P)

Although I don't always say or show it,
you know I love you :]

You know you love me too! XOXO.
AHAHAHAHAHA!
(inside joke :P)

I really miss my favourite babygirl.
a.k.a. my little monster zu-rahhhh! :O
ahahahaha.
& I think she knows.
Cos she called me up recently without even a proper greeting & just rambled on & on about everything under the sun lol.
I had to guess who was on the other line haha.
Hearing her voice is enough to turn my day around & make my day.
clever orchid hehe :]

Sometimes I wished I was born in the olden times.
Where everything was so simple.
Sure, people go through a matchmaking process & they had to marry someone they didn't know or perhaps maybe even someone they don't wanna be with at the beginning.
But because of this, they had learn to love each other & slowly, they do.
Most importantly, they stay together.
Love was everlasting and separation was rare back then.

Now, divorces are nothing new.
"it's complicated" is a status.
geez.

Sometimes, it gets a little scary to see how much the world is changing.
The crazy stuff people do to get attention.
Global warming. Octuplets.
Did you know that a woman in America called up 911 just bcos Mcd ran out of nuggets?
LOL.

See, we live in a crazy world.
So I guess it helps that I'm a crazy person too mwahahaha!
ok random lol :P

I think I have a bedtime now.
Cos nowadays my body switches off automatically around 11-12plus.
Which is good for me I guess cos I used to have a habit of staying up late heh.

Current Celebrity Crushes:
Jesse McCartney.
James Morrison.

(& they happen to have the same initials, JM! haha :D)

haaaaa :D
hehe.
check out his new vid!
click click!

How Do You Sleep

I love his voice :]
plus he has really meaningful songs, love the lyrics.

check him out.
click click!

You Make It Real

I miss Ghost Whisperer!
They keep showing American Idol instead of GW...
not that I'm complaining heh.
But still, I miss it laa!
boooo.

I can't wait for exams to finish..
then holidays!
I got so much catching up to do with my loved ones :D
plus more me time hehe.

okie dokie, I think I'm done for now.
take care & much love :]

You Make It Real
by James Morrison

There's so much craziness surrounding me,
There's so much going on it gets hard to breath
When all my faith has gone, you bring it back to me,
You make it real for me

Well I'm not sure of my priorities,
I've lost sight of where I´m meant to be
And like holy water washing over me,
You make it real for me

And I am running to you baby,
You are the only one who saves me
That's why I've been missing you lately,
'Cause you make it real for me

When my head is strong, but my heart is weak,
I'm full of arrogance and uncertainty
When I can't find the words, you
teach my heart to speak,
You make it real for me

And I am running to you baby,
You are the only one who saves me
That's why I've been missing you lately,
'Cause you make it real for me

Everybody's talking in words I don't understand,
You got to be the only one, who knows just who I am
And you're shining in the distance,
I hope I can make it through
Cause the only place that I want to be
is right back home with you

I guess there's so much more I have to learn,
But if you're here with me, I know which way to turn
You always give me somewhere, somewhere I can learn,
You make it real for me

And I am running to you baby,
Cause you are the only one who saves me
That's why I've been missing you lately,
'Cause you make it real for me
You make it real for me

2009-03-04T16:50:00.004+08:00

I've never felt this way before.
I always know what I want.
I always know what to do.
Now, I'm confused...
and perhaps a little bit lost.

I don't want to hurt anyone.
I don't want to end up hating anyone either.
So it's better I just keep this to myself.
I guess this is somethin' I have to figure out on my own.

Now, I just need to be around all things that make me happy.
All things familiar, real & true.

Details In The Fabric
by Jason Mraz feat. James Morrison

Calm down
Deep breaths
And get yourself dressed instead
Of running around
And pulling on your threads and
Breaking yourself up

If it's a broken part, replace it
If it's a broken arm then brace it
If it's a broken heart then face it

And hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
And everything will be fine

Hang on
Help is on the way
Stay strong
I'm doing everything

Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way

And everything
Everything will be fine
Everything

Are the details in the fabric
Are the things that make you panic
Are your thoughts results of static cling

Are the things that make you blow
Hell, no reason, go on and scream
If you're shocked it's just the fault
Of faulty manufacturing

Everything will be fine
Everything in no time at all
Everything

Hold your own
And know your name
And go your own way

Are the details in the fabric (Hold your own, know your name)
Are the things that make you panic
Are your thoughts results of static cling (Go your own way)

Are the details in the fabric (Hold your own, know your name)
Are the things that make you panic (Go your own way)
Is it Mother Nature's sewing machine

Are the things that make you blow (Hold your own, know your name)
Hell no reason go on and scream
If you’re shocked it's just the fault (Go your own way)
Of faulty manufacturing

Everything will be fine
Everything in no time at all
Hearts will hold

2009-02-16T16:28:00.012+08:00

"Stop talking about love. Every asshole in the world says he loves somebody. It means nothing. It still doesn't mean anything. What you feel only matters to you. It's what you do to the people you say you love, that's what matters. It's the only thing that counts."
-Tom Wilkinson as Stephen in The Last Kiss.

LINKS
Added: Samuel. Dee.

They say the greatest gift you can give to someone is your time.
Because when you give someone your time, you are giving them a portion of your life that you will never get back.

I believe things fall apart so that better things can fall into place.
Sometimes the same thing happens to you again so that you learn & have a chance not to repeat the same mistakes again the next time around.
There are just certain things that you keep coming back to because you know, it'll always be a part of your life. You can't imagine your life without it anymore.
No matter how hard it gets, you'll always stay because it has become a part of you.
It means too much to you for you to let go.
Difficult but real. The curse that is the cure.

Love endures all things.
Nobody said it was gonna be easy, they just promise it'd be worth it.
Unconditional love, no questions asked.

We may not have it all together
but together, we have it all.

Note to self:

Things that cheer me up:
music therapy
cheese
slurpee [latest addition! hehe.]
chocolates

As you can see, this is pretty much a random entry :]
cos everytime I wna do a proper one,
somethin' crops up heh.

I feel much more free now that I'm done with all my presentations except for BZC which is next week.
Must. Think. Asian.
ROARRRR :O

After that, exams.
Then holidays!
which I have no idea when lol.

I love Ravvivi! :D

If yknw peeps that might be interested in this, tell 'em about it alrighty!
spread da word :D
uh-huh uh-huh.

For more details, click click!

B2B

I've been listening to a lot of Beyonce & Leona Lewis heh.
Gotta love 'em strong, beautiful, powerful women :]

Broken-Hearted Girl
by Beyonce.

You're everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you could have been
But still, you live inside of me, so tell me how is that?
You're the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I love to not forgive
And though you break my heart, you're the only one
And though there are times when I hate you
'Cause I can't erase
The times that you hurt me and put tears on my face
And even now, while I hate you, it pains me to say
I know I'll be there at the end of the day

[Chorus]
I don't wanna be without you, babe
I don't want a broken heart
Don't wanna take a breath without you, babe
I don't wanna play that part
I know that I love you, but let me just say
I don't wanna love you in no kind of way, no no
I don't want a broken heart
I don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl
No, no, no broken-hearted girl

There's something that I feel I need to say
But up til' now I've always been afraid
that you would never come around
And still I wanna put this out

You say you've got the most respect for me
But, sometimes I feel you're not deserving of me
And still, you're in my heart
But you're the only one
And yes, there are times when I hate
you, but I don't complain
'Cause I've been afraid that you would walk away
Oh, but now I don't hate you
I'm happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day

[Chorus]

Now I'm at a place I thought I'd never be
I'm living in a world that's all about you and me
Ain't gotta be afraid, my broken heart
is free to spread my wings and fly
away, away with you....

I don't wanna be without my baby
I don't want a broken heart
Don't wanna take a breath without my baby
I don't wanna play that part
I know that I love you, but let me just say
I don't wanna love you in no kind of way, no no
I don't want a broken heart
I don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl
No, no, no broken-hearted girl
Broken-hearted girl
No broken-hearted girl

End of randomness.
bye bye! :]

2009-01-26T18:26:00.016+08:00

LINKS
Added: Matilda.
Relinked: Khairee. Shahira. Nisa.

Hello :]
here's my long overdue entry hehe.
I was supposed to have a new year's special entry but somethin' happened so yeah, scratched that heh.
but I'm back! If yknw whad I mean.

anyways, as y'all should know,
I turned 19 on 18 January! heh.

Is there a vast difference in the transition of 18 goin' on 19?
Nope. The only thing it made me realized is that I'm gna be 20 soon!
the BIGGGGG TWO-O.
look at me!
twenty & me don't go together at all!
ahahahahaha.

I shall blog the best bits of 1801.
:]

I actually had a mental note of who I wished to spent my birthday with.
Some of the special people in my life.
here it is in random order:

Ohana
mom & bro
kuzzies ana & dian
my fave aunts cik minah & cik aye
my little darlings

my weiyi, Sabrina
Izzat
my girls; bibi kelly ning zhi jo agnes
Tasha bestie
vocal clique
IES
jacinta b.f.

I'm happy I got to spent it with most of 'em.
For the ones whom I didn't get to celebrate with,
wished you were there! heh.
Love love! :]

1801 Part I.

At the stroke of midnight, had a surprise birthday sleepover hehe.
My mom actually went out & pretended to be out with her friends.
Then she quietly entered the house with six boxes of pizza.
After that slowly the rest also entered the house.
There was sabrina, bibi, kelly, jophillien, my kuzzie; dian & my mom's friend; Yannie plus her little ones! heh.

I think they knew I could predict there was gna be surprise that day haha.
I'm so sorry! but I reaaaally appreciate it! hehe.
I didn't expected my kuzzie & my mom's friend to be there tho' heh.
thanks bibi for planning it! :]

we stuffed ourselves with pizzas, ate choco mint cake, watched Sisterhood of The Travelling Pants 2, youtube vids etc haha.

Didn't slept till lyke 4-5 am plus in da morn lol.

Oh ya! there was this v. funny moment.
My mom was asking "Sabrina, why you never bring PC along?"
Then she replied, saying "so heavy laa, l8er got church some more".
LMAO!

My mom & I were laughing while she was still wondering why we were for a min ahahaha.
she thought my mom was refering to her laptop lol.
F.Y.I. PC is our Red Camp mentor, a person.
lol :P

kuzzie dian :]

the busy people!
uh-huh uh-huh.

weiyi's prezzie (a stitch pillow which I hug
to sleep every night now hehe) & the girls' card.
check out the background lol.

the girls' prezzie!
a billabong cap & a personalized pullover.
I really love 'em! thank you lovelies :D

Emo shot...
lyke reaaal only ahahaha :P

1801 Part II.

In da afternoon, met up with my kuzzies.
we wenta Orchard for music therapy!
mwahahahaha :D
wenta Ming Arcade's Cash Studio for karaoke.

I swear I had lotsa fun! lol.
I sang till I couldn't sing anymore.
I laughed until I wanted to pee in my pants! LOL.
plus I was lyke some siao char bor.
I think people would have thought I was intoxicated or somethin' haha.

kuzzie love :]

muack muack muack!

my shorts & her jacket seemed lyke
they came from the same material haha!

I'm crazy lyke that ;)
LOL.

feeling2 or whaaatttt.
ahahahahaha :P

my dearrrr brother ehem-ehem.
bluek! ahahaha :P

We were singing Acha & Irwansyah's My Heart.
Imagine that haha.

available in Toys R Us now!
collect all 4 :P

After the karaoke session, we had a nice chatting session at Mcd heh.
I ate lotsa lotsa fries with chilli & mayo! yum-yum :D
it was nice catching up on our childhood memories plus gossip hehe.

IES Birthday Surprise.

It all started with matty tricking me into accompanying her to the toilet, change of project meeting venue yada yada haha.
Then when I came to the canteen, saw the bunch crowding around a table & the flicker of a flame from the candle haha.

thanks for the Stitch prezzie IES! hehe.
Ooh, tijah gave me a separate prezzie.
She gave me a cotton on bra! kinky or whaattt. ahahahaha.
it's the 2nd time I'm receiving lingerie for my birthday lol.

Ooh! the cake was delicious!
blueberry with cream :]

I really had a gr8 19th birthday.
thank you so much for those who made it happen, really.
& thanks for all the bday wishes!

I shall end here for now.
much love (:

2009-01-08T00:09:00.009+08:00

Sweet misery.

I'm sorry for being an emotional wreck lately.
I've been crying every night.
I couldn't take it today either.
In the bus, in school.
All I wanted to do was to hide away from everyone.
I know I don't smile or laugh like I used to anymore.
I haven't been myself lately.
I promise I'll be back soon.

It's like there's this constant stabbing feeling goin' on in my heart everywhere I go.
STAB. STAB. STAB.
It really hurts. a lot.
It sucks that I can't do anything about it.
I don't know what to say anymore.
Nothing can make it all better.

why must everything fall apart?
why must life be so unfair?

I just want everything to be ok again.
I want to be happy again.
I'm not even looking forward to my birthday.
),:

PS: I'll really appreciate it if people don't rub it in.
thank you.

2009-01-05T23:12:00.002+08:00

Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same.

All At Once
by The Fray

There are certain people you just keep coming back to
She is right in front of you
You begin to wonder could you find a better one
Compared to her now she's in question

And all at once the crowd begins to sing
Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same

Maybe you want her, maybe you need her
Maybe you started to compare to someone not there

Looking for the right one you line up the world to find
Where no questions cross your mind
But she won't keep on waiting for you without a doubt
Much longer for you to sort it out

And all at once the crowd begins to sing
Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same

Maybe you want her, maybe you need her
Maybe you started to compare to someone not there
Maybe you want it, maybe you need it
Maybe it's all you're running from
Perfection will not come

And all at once the crowd begins to sing
Sometimes
We'd never know what's wrong without the pain
Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same

Maybe you want her, maybe you need her
Maybe you had her, maybe you lost her to another

To another

2008-12-30T21:14:00.002+08:00

Don't think too much.
You'll think your entire life away.
Just close your eyes and follow your heart.
I promise it knows the way.

Beautiful Mess
by Jason Mraz

You've got the best of both worlds
You're the kind of girl who can take down a man,
And lift him back up again
You are strong but you're needy,
Humble but you're greedy
And based on your body language,
your shouted cursive I've been reading
Your style is quite selective,
Though your mind is rather reckless
Well I guess it just suggests
That this is just what happiness is

And what a beautiful mess this is
It's like picking up trash in dresses

Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you write
Kind of turn themselves into knives
And don't mind my nerve you could call it fiction
But I like being submerged in your contradictions dear
'Cause here we are, here we are

Although you were biased I love your advice
Your comebacks they're quick
And probably have to do with your insecurities
There's no shame in being crazy,
Depending on how you take these
Words I'm paraphrasing this relationship we're staging

And what a beautiful mess this is
It's like picking up trash in dresses

Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you say
Kind of turn themselves into blades
And kind and courteous is a life I've heard
But it's nice to say that we played in the dirt oh dear
Cause here we are, Here we are
Here we are [x7]
We're still here
What a beautiful mess this is
It's like taking a guess when the only answer is yes

Through timeless words, and priceless pictures
We'll fly like birds, out of this earth
And times they turn, and hearts disfigure
But that's no concern when we're wounded together
And we tore our dresses, and stained our shirts
But it's nice today, oh the wait was so worth it

2008-12-28T14:47:00.011+08:00

One of the toughest parts of life is deciding when to give up and when to try harder.

Yesterday night I was lying on my bed, waiting for myself to fall asleep so that I can escape from reality & go to lalaland.
A lot of thoughts were running through my head which actually happens most of the time.
Sometimes I wished I didn't think too much; it's not good for me sometimes.

I was on the verge of giving up on something that really meant a lot to me.
Because it seemed like no matter how hard I try, it seemed like I was goin' nowhere with it.
I felt like I was in it...alone.
Everyday I wished & hoped with all my heart that nothing would go wrong; that everything was goin' to be alright.
Sometimes the things that make you happy the most also have the power to make you feel so down when it goes wrong.
Strange how these things work, no?

It's amazing how sleeping can make it all go away and make you feel so much better the next day.
And indeed today, things are so much better it seems.
I just wished things can go back the way it was, just like the first time.
But you can't have everything I guess.
So I'm just very grateful with how it is right now.
All I can do now is to hope for the best.

Moving on...
Things haven't being goin' well at home.
It's been shaky I guess.
I don't like the tension.
I hope it'll be alright soon.

I hate the insecurities I have.
Sometimes it has the tendency to take control over my thoughts.
Then I'll come up with some stupid scenarios in my head.
It stays in my head & then when things get better, I'll forget about it.
I need more positivity right now cos situations haven't been that good lately.
Thank god I have two extremes; one, my very sunny optimistic self & the other, my very dark pessimistic self.
Usually my pessimistic thoughts, I keep it to myself.
So nobody really knows about 'em except when I really need to let it out to somebody.

I don't ask for much.
I just want support, assurance, tender loving care & attention.

On a happier note, I'm very thankful & grateful for the opportunities that I've been receiving.
I've been busy practicing for the upcoming performances that are coming next year.
I also received other opportunities which I have to reconsider because of commitment & time.
I promise I'll try to be more confident of myself, believe in myself more & aim higher.
I will give everything my all. (:

Wow, this has been a very personal entry.
I feel much lighter now hehe! :]

Anyways, I'm gonna do a special entry soon heh.
(:

Ooh! I got lucky & won tixs to the Marina Bay 08/09 countdown @ The Float!
Gonna go & collect it tmr before my vocal practice.
I'm gonna spent my last day 0f 2008 with him!
It's really been awhile since I spent some alone time with him, just the two of us.
It really means a lot to me that he's gonna spent it with me.
I think he knows how badly I wanted him to go cos I told him about it immediately when he was still in Sydney hehe.

I shall end here before this gets too long haha.
take care & much love.
(:

2008-12-22T00:30:00.011+08:00

"Anyone can be passionate, but it takes real lovers to be silly."
-Rose Franken.

I haven't seen him for 2 weeks already.
He's in Sydney, busy with the kangaroos & koalas hmph :P
booooo. faster come back laaa ):

I miss talking to you on the phone.
I miss hearing your voice, your laugh.
I miss you putting up with my rantings.
I miss our little squabbles.
I miss our inside jokes.
I miss being around you.
I miss your squeezy hugs.
I miss singing with you.
I miss your face.
I miss the way you rant on & stumble on your words.
I miss listening to you sing your version of Soulmate,
emphasizing on mrs lovable.
I miss telling you about my day.
I miss the way you always end up making my day.
I miss my soulmate, mr lovable.

bottomline:
I miss you.

Thank god for Facebook & bumper stickers.
hehe.

2008-12-20T12:19:00.018+08:00

Cracks in the concrete are just reminders that you fall apart no matter how strong you are.

LINKS
Added: Shahira. Erika.
Relinked: Tasha. Nat. Fiona.

Dear bloggie, sorry I've been neglecting you.
Although I've haven't been blogging, you know I try my best to make time & take care of you by changing the blog song, updating the countdown etc.
Which shows that I really love you.
& you never left my mind :]

Sorry, must apologize to my dear bloggie first before I officially start blogging fo' real.
hehe :P

hello hello hellll-loooo!~
Sorry I hvn't been updating.
I know, more than one month alr.
guilty as charged heh.

Altho' it's actually da school holidays already, I hvn't really had my holiday yet.
Been having commitments back-to-back this week everyday.
Broke down da last two days cos I had too much stuff goin' on.
But I'm alright now.
Everyone has their breaking point at some point ryte? heh.

I'm waiting for a weekday whereby I have nothing to do at all!~
So that I can stay @ home da whole day, relax, don't need to think too much, watch movies, tv etc.
I hope that'll be next week.
I need at least one weekday-off badly ):

Ok, enough of me ranting.
Shall get to other stuff now heh.

What I've been up to lately:
Vocal classes
Dance sessions
School Projects

The reason I'm free for the first half of tday is bcos vocal class was cancelled.
boooooo. bummer. I love vocal d class.
I always have lotsa fun there heh.
Ooh, we have a new vocal instructor alr!
Shall elaborate on that l8er :]

Anyways, we're currently busy practicing for our upcoming performances.
There's a lot to come next year!
wheeeeeee!~ can't wait :DDDDD

Oh yeah, another thing is whenever I go to class with make-up or dress up really nice, they never fail to question me.
-.-'' lol.

Hannah Montana got the best of both worlds whattt!
ahahahahaha :P

Dance sessions.
Dapheny is overseas so she won't be around this year.
it's not da same without her ):

School projects.
So far, I think my group's been progressing a lot heh.
I love Ravvivi!
we work hard & play hard together :D
Now I thinking about the masala meal I had with Reshi & Tijah @ Komala's ytd...
yum-yum lol :P

Let's talk about Marketing!
Have you noticed Ikea ads lately?
One of 'em was somethin' lyke...

"Do men walk around their bedroom naked more than women?

Find out this thursday."

Somethin' liddat laa haha.
I love this kinda ads.
Those which keeps you guessing.
& especially those who are not afraid to talk about such stuff openly.

Their ads are based on their everyday life at home survey.
check out their survey findings!
It's v. interesting.
click click!

Ikea Survey

Ooh, there's another one!
Did you noticed there's stickers pasted at some bus-stops?
The ones with the pac-man lyke character on it.
"Change Creates" & "Create Change"
check it out here!
click click!

U Create Change

oh yeah, I had some sort of rashes for arnd 2 1/2 days.
My mom says maybe I'm allergic to somethin' I ate.
I was trying to recall whad I've been eating that time...
it was down to either LJS's breakfast meals or school food.
I suspect it's LJS, maybe.
My worst nightmare would be that I'm allergic to...

CHESSE!

AAAAHHHHHHH :O
choy choy choy! lol :P

Speaking of cheese,
it's time for CHEESE :D

Saturday, 13 December 2008.

3 Es In 1 D... Again!

Another Saturday that was gr8 from start to finish.
Vocal Class. Movie d8 with bestie. Clubbing @ Le Baroque.

Dalilah :D

After my vocal class, straightaway wenta Vivo & met up with bestie for our movie d8.
We watched Nick & Norah's Infinite Playlist!
I love the movie cos it's about music soulmates.
The movie seemed long probably cos of their journey to the diff. places.
It's a bumpy ride indeed haha.
It's quite funny too.
& the gays are super hott & cute!!! seriously.
You should go check it out.

Altho' we were kinda in a rush,
I had a nice time with bestie.
Short but sweet heh :]

Tasha bestie :D

Met up with chin ying & wenta Admiralty to meet my mom @ Fifi's birthday party.

Chin ying. Lil. Fifi. Lily. Ros.

Then we made our way to Chijmes's Le Baroque!

This is my vocal instructor, Aishah.
She works there as a singer for True Colours.
She's awesome! :D
Whenever I sing Soulmate, I'll think of how she sings it so I can hit all the right notes.
it's an inspiration thing heh :]

Ooh, & on that day she sang Soulmate & dedicated it to me! hehe.
& she also didn't forget to mention da Hannah Montana part
-.-'' lol.

Saturday, 6 December 2008.

Xmas Deco @ Orchard

Went out with the vocal peeps after class cos we wanted to support Shah @ the Asianbeats competition.
Since we had to wait for his turn, we wenta eat KFC first.
But we ended up missing him anyways. ahahahaha!
Nvm luhh, we were in the vicinity so...can feel our support in your heart or somethin' yeah.
LOL :P

Took pictures but I'll post 'em up when I get it from dalilah heh.
*hint hint* hehe :P

I was really fascinated by the xmas deco @ Orchard!
They're so amazing & pretty.
Go check 'em out before it's too late!

Chicken Dallas

Received a forwarded email regarding this restaurant.
It was said to be nicer, cheaper than KFC blah blah blah.
So we decided to check it out.
It's alright luhh...not bad haha.
But I still prefer KFC's chicken :]
& this restaurant still needs a lot of improvements to be done heh.
Forgot when was this.
But I remember the people I went with :]
Lily. Ros. Syahmir...Syahmir's dad haha.

supposedly I'm a cowboy with the mask on my mouth here or somethin' lol.

this is where syahmir kpo-kpo enter frame hmph.
but turned out to be a nice candid shot haha.

candid! the importance of booking lol.

I was pushing syahmir away at the same time here.
So that explains the face lol.

Edward Cullen, I've yet to discover & experience the effect you have on girls.

which kitty do you want? meow!~

Bandung @ Serangoon.
Pretty, no?

Since he wants to enter frame so much,
took him also lol.

See, still not enough, want to enter frame again lol.

Too pretty to be sipped.
Of cos I drank it anyways haha.

Random Cheese.

School Life

Stomp aids!

Silhoutte Shots

pass me the bottle or I'll burst your bubble!

Ohmmm~ guess who?

IES Shots

Small feet. Big feet.
Happy feets! :D

*angelic music plays in background*
haaaaaa~

Khairi. Ismail. Poo.

Vonnie! birthday girl :]

check out her behind...

up there one lah!

Reshi. Matilda.

Lil. Tijah. Fiqah.
apple pies!

okie dokie, I'm done.
Hopefully my next update is not next year hehe.
much lurrrrrve!~
muack muack muack :D

2008-11-13T23:27:00.012+08:00

When life gives you a hundred reasons to cry, show life a thousand reasons to smile (:

LINKS
Added: Joanne. Yanti.
Relinked: Elaine S.

I had a really nice day tday.

Had fun auditioning for Bishan's Got Talent.
Sang a short solo; Stacie Orrico's There Gotta Be More To Life.
Did a duet with Aizat; Lucky by Jason Mraz feat. Colbie Caillat.
Finally I'll get to perform that song!
I've been wanting to sing that song so badly.
I'm soooo in love with the song right now.
It makes me happy! heh :D

I also loved it even more cos I got inspired by Alyssa Bernal (vanessa hudgens lookalike) & Kris Mark (*swoons & melts*) hahaha.
Their rendition of the song is the best in youtube so far.
& I find it uber cool that it's two vids in one;
Kris recorded it first then Alyssa sang on top of it.
edit2 then BAM! haha :D

check 'em out, click click!

Lucky

check out their youtube channels too:

Alyssa Bernal

Kris Mark

Ooh, I realised a lot of the peeps in our sch knw hwta play the guitar.
& there's a lot of hidden talents waiting to be showcased heh.
:]

I did two silly things tday:

- During my 1st attempt at Lucky, I accidentally sang:
Lucky I'm in love with your best friend~

LMAO.
I straightaway covered my mouth then burst out laughing & everyone that got it laughed lol.
Miss Nair told me to decide who was I in love with ahahaha. :P

- Accidentally called Aizat Izzat haha x:
*smacks head*

all this has to do with E'zzati!
ROARRRRRRRR :O
ahahahaha.

Then to end off my day nicely, he made my day.
you never fail to make me laugh heh :D
can't wait for tomorrow! hehe (:

okie dokie, I'm done.
here's the quiz I've been tagged with.
I'm not gna tag anyone but if you wna do it,
be my guest alrighty :]

take care & love love!

Tagged By:
Diyana.

RULE #1 People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

RULE #2 Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by continuing this game by sending it to other people.

1. Do you have secrets?
Yes.

2. Would you fall in love with a boy younger than you?
nope.

3. Do you enjoy going to school?
yes (:

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
spent on myself & the people I love, save & donate.

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
I already have. (:

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
Being loved by someone.

7. List out your 15 favourite songs:

1) Lucky - Jason Mraz feat. Colbie Caillat
2) The Great Escape - Boys Like Girls
3) You & I Both - Jason Mraz
4) Daughters - John Mayer
5) Superhuman - Chris Brown feat. Keri Hilson
6) With You - Chris Brown
7) I Kissed A Girl - Katy Perry
8) What A Girl Wants - Christina Aguilera
9) Shawty Get Loose - Chris Brown feat. Lil Mama
10) Miss Independent - Ne-yo
11) Can I Have This Dance? - HSM 3
12) Far Away - Nickelback
13) The Man That Can't Be Moved - The Script
14) If You See Kay - The Script
15) Won't Go Home Without You - Maroon 5

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
Nothing. Cos it's just a crush anyways haha.

9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
If recently today, him. heh :D

10. What makes you angry?
when everything just doesn't go right for a whole day.

11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
28 years old. Hmm...I'll most probably would have made a career out of doin' somethin' I love heh :]

12. Who is currently the most important people to you?
ohana, him & my close friends.

13. What is the most important thing in life?
To be true to yourself.

14. Single or attached?
err...not available :P

15. What is your favourite colour?
Orange :D

16. Would you give your all in a relationship?
yes.

17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
I think it's possible to like two people at the same time but fall in love, nah.

18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing someone has done?
Forgive yes, but unfortunately I don't think I'll forget it.

19. What do you really want now?
I just wanna smile & be happy all the time! lalalala :D

20. any random lyrics in mind?
*sings* lucky I'm in love with my best friend~ ahahahaha :D

2008-11-05T15:14:00.017+08:00

Sometimes the dreams that come true are dreams you never even knew you had.

LINKS
Added: Vocal D. Class.

WHEEEEEEEEEEEE!~
Finally I have the time to blog hehe.
I've been wanting to blog since Monday but I've been so caught up with school so yeah.
anws, HELLO HELLO HELLO :D
ok random heh :P

Life's been gr8.
Altho' I've been v. busy but still, I'm doin' things I love so it's all good (:

School.
There's 2 projects to be completed; EPL & Marketing.
Then there's upcoming events lyke Christmas @ Bishan, Chingay & more which I dnt wna bother typing here cos they have long names lol :P
I can't wait for all of it to happen! woot woot :D
*sings* I'll be anticipating~
(Think Britney heh.)

I still remember during one OFA lesson, everyone had to share their 2-year goals.
Mine was:

graduate & go to poly.
get into courses I love which, to be specific is:

Digital Media (SP).
Interactive Media Informatics (TP).
Integrated Events & Project Management (SP).

be a seasoned performer in ITE.
a driving license.
excel in both studies & CCAs.
good GPA.

I'm happy cos some of 'em I've already achieved or either on da way there already heh.
*sings* ooooh, we're halfway there!~
(Think Living On A Prayer lol.)

Anyways, anyone who knows me well know I've always wanted to be in Mass Comm. right?
Well, I was out with my weiyi, Sabrina one day.
If I'm not wrong we were updating each other on our lives.
Then she encouraged me to try out for Mass Comm. again cos she thought I had a v. good chance bcos of my portfolio which is getting thicker now heh :P

In my goals list, as you can see mostly is Media courses & one events course.
I remember saying in class that time that I wanted to get into a Media course.
then I also said that but maybe I'll fall in love with events more & change my direction.
Well guess what?
I'm in love with events already.
Events rock! heh :D

anyways, my point is now I got two main places where I wanna be at.
Mass Comm. Events.
Plus the other two media courses.
It's too early to say anything but who knows where this life will take me.
Either or, as long as I get to where I wanna be, I'll be happy (:

Here's to da future!
WHEEEEEEEEEEEEE :D

Saturday: Singapore Biennale Race.
Sunday: Singapore Biennale -AM shift.

okie dokie.
I shall blog about my awesome weekends!
heh :D

Saturday, 1 November 2008.

3 Es in 1 D!

Saturday was a gr8 day.
From start to finish :]

Wenta Vocal d. class.
Class was extra fun cos there was Hussein with his theatrics haha.
& Ash-bro is back! heh :D
ooh, & at the end of the class, I got talked into singing 3 songs in front of everyone -.-'' lol.
Sang What A Girl Wants & Beautiful by Christina Aguilera & Everywhere by Michelle Branch.
Then we had our after-sessions talk.
I love this part; cos we can totally be open, random & say anything we want heh.

Afterwards, a few of us went to a nearby coffeeshop to have drinks & a chit-chatting session.
Then I left for Tampines to meet him.

wenta watch High School Musical 3 :D
It's a reaaally awesome movie!
I love the songs, choreography, storyline, sets...
basically EVERYTHING. lol.
I was especially wowed with the choreography.
I couldn't stop gushing when there was one part where the focus was on Ryan, Chad & Troy dancing...*melts* lol :P

A gr8 ending for HSM.
def. MUST-WATCH.
gogogo!

click click! to watch the video of my fave song in HSM 3 :]

Can I Have This Dance?

Afterwards, met up with Lily, Ruby & Fifi.
Went clubbing @ Chijmes's Le Baroque!
There were live bands; Shaggy & True Colours.
When we were done, wenta eat at Cafeela.
Then home sweet home at arnd 4am lol.

Fifi. Ruby. Lil. Lily.

*sings* I got it from my mama :P

Shirley Temple!

Def. a day well-spent to da max heh :D

Saturday, 2 November 2008.

Windmills Of Wonder

Hours later...lol.
Woke up early to do AM shift @ South Beach Development.

Today was special cos it was the Kids Biennale's Windmills of Wonder Day!
There were a lot of free stuff given out;
Andersen's ice-cream, popcorn, candy floss.
& there were a lot of cute little people everywhere!
by this, i mean the babies, kids heh.

but if you wna count me also can laa.
AHAHAHAHAHAHA :D

windmills made by children.

what's left of September Sweetness.

so there you go.
my gr8 weekends heh :]

okie dokie, I shall do my blast-all-in-one update soon lol.
tata :D

Together we learn, from mistakes of others & ourselves.
As long as we're on the same page & running along the same lines, we'll be alright.
At this moment where everything's happening so fast, I have this love to hold on to, to remind me to slow down, don't rush.
Because love is a journey, not a destination.
So we'll take our own sweet time & enjoy this ride.
I'm loving where we're at & I don't care how long it takes,
as long as this path we're taking, takes me to wherever you're at.

Can I Have This Dance
by Zac Efron & Vanessa Hudgens.

Take my hand, take a breath
Pull me close and take one step
Keep your eyes locked on mine,
And let the music be your guide.

Won't you promise me (now won't you promise me, that you'll never forget)
We'll keep dancing (to keep dancing) wherever we go next

[Chorus]
It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you
It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do
And with every step together, we just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance?

Take my hand, I'll take the lead
And every turn will be safe with me
Don't be afraid, afraid to fall
You know I'll catch you through it all

And you can't keep us apart (even a thousand miles, can't keep us apart)
'Cause my heart is (cause my heart is) wherever you are

[Chorus]

Oh no mountains too high enough, oceans too wide
'Cause together or not, our dance won't stop
Let it rain, let it pour
What we have is worth fighting for
You know I believe, that we were meant to be

[Chorus]

Can I have this dance,
Can I have this dance?

2008-10-23T23:13:00.004+08:00

You've only got three choices in life:
give up , give in or give it all you've got.

These past few days have been hard...
playing pretend.

Pretending I'm ok...
when I'm so broken up inside.
Pretending I don't care about you...
when I really do.
Pretending to ignore you...
when all I wanna do is to talk to you.

I've been contemplating & today,
I suddenly had a change of mind.

I don't know what's happening to us.
I don't know why it even started.
But what I know is that I miss you,
I wanna be there for you.
And all I want is for you to be happy.

As long as you're alright & happy,
I'm happy (:

Thank you Tijah & Aimi for always checkin' up on me.
hehe :]

P.S. my cellphone's fixed!
So you can text, call, whatever you like heh :D
& I think there's a need for me to use my calender function already lol.

2008-10-18T21:48:00.010+08:00

"A wise girl kisses but doesn't love, listens but never believes, and leaves before she is left."
-Marilyn Monroe.

LINKS
Added: Syafiq. Chin Ying.
Relinked: Imran Ajmain. Dove Women.

I realise nowadays I blog after I'm ok when I'm supposed to blog about it when I'm not.
Cos this is supposed to be the place where I can let anything go here.

Well, tonight, I'm doin' just that.

I was so happy to call you at the stroke of midnight today.
To be the first to wish you on your birthday.
I was so tired out from dance practice that I kept falling asleep.
But I forced myself to stay awake, just for you.
But then now, I realised somethin'...

& I'm not gonna stay around for it.
I'm not gonna let history repeat itself.

It's not up to me anymore.
If you want me in your life,
you'll find a way to put me there.

Happy birthday.
I hope you have fun clubbing tonight.

And you will be the last to know.
Cos you're always too late.

I can't wait to go out & have fun with IES tomorrow.
Spending time with IES always makes me happy & forget all my troubles (:
love love.

If I Were A Boy
by Beyonce

If I were a boy
even just for a day,
I'd roll out of bed in the morning
and throw on what I wanted and go
drink beer with the guys
and chase after girls,
I'd kick it with who I wanted
and I’d never get confronted for it
cause they'd stick up for me

[Chorus]
If I were a boy
I think I could understand
how it feels to love a girl,
I swear I'd be a better man
I'd listen to her
'cause I know how it hurts
when you lose the one you wanted
'cause he's taking you for granted
and everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
tell everyone it's broken
so they think
that I was sleeping alone
I’d put myself first
and make the rules as I go
'cause I know that she’d be faithful,
waiting for me to come home
(to come home)

[Chorus]

It's a little too late for you to come back
Say it's just a mistake,
think I'd forgive you like that?
If you thought I would wait for you, you thought wrong

But you're just a boy,
you don't understand
how it feels to love a girl
someday you'll wish you were a better man...
You don't listen to her,
you don't care how it hurts
until you lose the one you wanted
'cause you taken her for granted
and everything you had got destroyed

but you're just a boy...

2008-10-08T20:29:00.007+08:00

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they go right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart, so that better things can fall together."
- Marilyn Monroe.

LINKS
Added: Dalilah. Jeremy.
Relinked: Natasha.

First & foremost...

SELAMAT HARI RAYA :D

love love!
hehe.

Guess what?
My laptop's fixed!
thank you Ridz :D

It looks lyke everything's still here...
except for my songs & some programs.
oh wells, at least it's ok now & my pics are still here!
phew.
& I finally read my offline MSN messages haha.
Ouhh, I'm also using Firefox more now rather than IE.
Cos it's supposedly safer heh.

Previously my laptop was down bcos of a virus.
I couldn't log in into it cos it would auto log out.
Then at da corner instead of "Turn Off My Computer" it said "Turn Off My Room".
Weird :S haha.

Now that da laptop's ok...
here's da story about my phone. lol.

My phone's having bitchfits.
I cannot receive or sent texts now.
It keeps prompting "Error: Memory Full" even though I deleted all my texts.
Yes, I deleted some but then I got frustrated so I deleted everything & it still doesn't work.
Grr.
Anyways, main pt of this story is if you need to contact me, please call. don't text alrighty.
& so sorry if I haven't been replying any of your texts.

I've been emo elmo for da past few days...
had some issues to deal with, been contemplating a lot & crying myself to sleep.
Woke up with puffy eyes tday.
But everything's alright now (:
Just hope da same stuff doesn't come up anymore...

or at least not so soon. please.
sigh.

I really wished you could have been there for me.
I've been bottling up & had so much to let go.
But you were too busy to make time for me...

Lucky you, I cannot stay mad at you for long.
(:

I badly needed to escape from the tension.
Go out, catch a movie, have fun.

So I rang up Sabrina tday.
& my call was answered with an immediate loud "Yanaaaa!!!!"
LMAO.
Cos she was just about to dial my no. when I got to her first.
Telepathy or whatttt! hahaha.
I don't know why it always happens to us lol.
So tomorrow I have a date with my weiyi!
yay :D

After tomorrow...

Friday: SG Biennale -PM Shift.
Saturday: VDG Raya Outing.

Back to school on Monday :D
I can't wait to see IES again!
I really miss all the laughters, jokes, the antics.
Plus, I can't wait to check out the new modules we'll be having heh.
With new modules comes new teachers too I guess? haha.
IES, may we rock even more & have an awesome semester! mwahahaha :D

ouhh, & I'm happy with my GPA.
hehe :]

Gossip Girl!
I still got 2 more episodes to finish before da new one comes out.
Did I mention how awesome Gossip Girl is?
ok, I think umpteen times heh.
I really, really love their wardrobe, the gorgeous cast, the gossip.
haaaaa :D

Ok enough. I shall stop here haha.
I'm almost done with my hari raya pics so will post 'em up real soon.
meanwhile, enjoy your holidays while it's still here!
much love :D

2008-09-27T14:25:00.006+08:00

Since Hari Raya's coming, I might as well intro y'all a song by Imran Ajmain.

It's Tim Burton (think Corpse Bride) inspired so it has this unique sound.

Click below to give it a listen! (:

Tidak Lama Lagi

I realised I know a lot of Libras.

& I know 3 Libras that have their birthdays back-to-back in the same week! :D

16 Oct: Syazwan (Wawan)

17 Oct: Tasha

18 Oct: Izzat

I'm gonna reply my tags in my entries for da time being cos apparently I can't see da texts I type in my textbox for my cbox only if I use macbook.

I'm too lazy to modify da html at da moment..

heh :P

Tagged!
{bestie | farah | nisa| tijah | weiyi} UPDATED! haha :D

{reshi} "everything small." LOL! I'll upload 'em to IES's photobucket soon alrighty (:

{vonnie} yes, Ikea! :D but unfortunately when I was in da midst of a pillow fight hahaha. loves & happy holidays! :]

{nebs} Which you-know-who? You got too many alr lol. Eeeee...all da more I don't wna go online..haha! & I got da counter wayyy before I knew you luhh lol :P

2008-09-27T07:36:00.021+08:00

"However good or bad you feel about your relationship, the person

you are with at this moment is the "right" person, because he or

she is the mirror of who you are inside."

- Deepak Chopra.

Added: Damian. Khai. Imran Ajmain.

Yes, my deaarrr (insert sarcasm here.) brother has a blog now

O.O

Let's see how long it'll last lol.

4 days to Hari Raya!

can you believe it?!

times passes by so fast...& moreover, during fasting month.

ahahahahah.

I hvn't bought my hari raya clothes yet!

booooooo.

anyways, sorry for da v. l8 update.

My 1st entry for the month of September on 27th;

when September is ending haha :P

sorry, dui bu qi, minta maaf (entah-entah nak hari raya...LOL.)

my laptop's down luhh..so I've been using my mom's macbook heh.

If you check by the end of this entry, you'll notice I'm blogging in

the early hours of the morning.

Cos I already slept yesterday & now, I've been awake ever since I woke up & ate in da morning for sahur haha.

I also specifically made blogging my mission today. a must. hahahaha.

Cos if not, I don't know when I can find time to update.

Shall elaborate on that l8er heh.

Plus, got 2nd reminders to update from Nisa & Tasha.

*jengjengjengjeng* LOL.

ouhh yes, currently I have this bump on my lips T.T

But it's healing already phew.

How did I get it?

Well, If I'm not wrong it was on wednesday morning lyke arnd 5am.

After sahur, I switched off da lights.

Most of you know I'm a fast walker right?

Well, it was pitch dark so I walked & suddenly banged into a wall.

I thought it was nothing so I wenta bed but then I got up again to check myself in da mirror just in case.

To my horror, there was blood on my face lol.

But in da end, only my lips were affected.

My mom actually heard the sound of the impact from her bedroom but she presumed I just had a minor fall or somethin', that's why she didn't check on me lol.

So past few days were torture for me.

my lips kept bleeding.

couldn't smile, laugh, sing cos my lips must be stretched & that'd hurt.

Felt self-concious, uneasy but now ok already heh.

& I realised I smile & laugh alot lol.

I bet you are laughing by now right?

Laugh lah, laugh! I give you permission to laugh.

Cos I also laughed at myself LMAO.

Okie dokie. Change subject pls! lol.

Let's see...my holidays started a week early cos my exam papers ended early!

mwahahahaha :D

For da 1st week, I went back to XMS with Sabrina & Chin Ying

& got to see some teachers! heh.

(btw, 502 07's Racial Harmony 07 pic is on one of da school's banners. Awesome or whatttt?! haha :D)

Besides that, most of da time I spent quality time...

with myself. hehe.

ouhh, I'm also having dance practices once a week.

competition coming...gah. O.O

& apparently together with my family, we've been meeting up

with my mom's friend, Ruby & her daughter, Fifi lyke 2 days

every week lol.

Been breaking fast with my family & relatives too.

2nd week onwards, I've been working AM shift as

Customer Relations Officer at Singapore Biennale 08.

& I finally wenta da Central Promontory Site ytd!

But was an Exhibition Site Officer instead heh.

Singapore Biennale 2008.

I'll show you why you should check it out (:

South Beach Development.

In times of boredom, CAMWHORE!

The Dancer.

September Sweetness.

It's a temple made out of sugar!

Teh Tarik

Central Promontory Site

Between You & I

this is my favourite one here!

I was really fascinated by this one.

You can clearly see the light rays.

& there's actually a pattern on the floor but I couldn't capture it on my camera phone heh.

Lil!

Liyana :]

IES!

See, even tho' y'all abandon me here for F1 I still do for y'all mosaic.

ahahahahah :P

brought to you by Club 21! lol.

"When I Smile I Feel Better" :D

For those who fancy all things white...

must wear white slippers for this one!

haha.

all white including me!

haha :D

see-saw!

this one's made out of 4,000 rubber slippers.

& that is why you should go to Singapore Biennale! :D

There's still City Hall! But I hvn't looked at da exhibits there yet heh.

But so far, my fave's da one @ CPS :D

anyways, it's affordable too!

Adults: $10

Students: $5

& this one tix allows you to go to all 3 venues

but for the one at CPS alone is free!

so go, go, go!

haha :D

click below for more info :]

Singapore Biennale

so far, it's been a gr8 experience for me.

Made a lot of friends, especially laselle peeps heh.

okie dokie, I think I'm done for today.

I hope my laptop gets fixed soon.

I have tons of CHEESE more but it's all there bleh.

Happy holidays & Selamat Berpuasa :D

2008-08-29T16:37:00.006+08:00

LINKS
Added: Khairee.
Relinked: Tasha. Soul.

quick update!
quickie quickie :P
hahaha.

wheeeeeeeeeeeeee~
this week flew by v. fast.
Juggled two performances in one week.

First was the one at ITE Bishan on Wednesday.
Unfortunately, things got screwed up.
Then I was v. disappointed.
I didn't had time to regain composure.
In da end, I wasn't satisfied with my performance.
I was wearing this new favourite top some more which looked lyke somethin' from Gossip Girl...wasted ):
-ok that part is girl talk. hahaha.
& while I was singing take a bow, the lyrics made me feel more worst T.T
if yknw whad I mean lol.

anyways, thanks IES for being there.
Love y'all (:

Secondly was the dance performance at ITE Macpherson tday.
Hip-hop meets Soul.
ouhh, currently our group is called Dance Connection heh.
Dance Connection = D.C.
& d.c. usually stands for disconnected in chat lingo.
contradicting? haha.
connection disconnected.
*makes robot sounds*

ok sorry, was crapping for a moment there heh :P

anws, back to Dance Connection.
We had practices everyday this week.
hardcore or whatttt?! lol.

& guess whad?

it was worth it.

We rocked da stage baybeh!
WOOHOO!
It was awesome & I had lotsa fun! haha.
:DDDDD

AGAIN AGAIN AGAIN!
hahaha.

Ms Joanna said she's gna enter us into an inter-school dance competition soon.
can't wait :D

ouhh, Dila was also there performing with her best friend, Hadri.
They sang Hero by Mariah Carey.
They look cute together luhh haha (:

Oh ya, I dnt usually talk about food served during events cos they're all da same to me.
But this one deserves a mention.
It was super delicious :D
If I'm not wrong it was catered by ISS.
no idea what it stands for.
They had this brown rice which you usually serve in a claypot that kind.
Then they had side dishes such as curry chicken, duno-what-fillet.
& the mango pudding was yummy!
I almost wanted a 2nd round. LOL.

oh yes, something else deserves a mention too hehe.
Showcase results ;)

*drumrolllllls*

1st place for Solo category!
Nisa from IES :D

WOOHOO!
congrats Nisa!
dance solo yknw.
don't play play hahaha.
I'm proud of you grrl :D

sorry I couldn't be there tday to witness it tho'.
booooo. haha.

Teachers' Day.
I also couldn't visit my secondary school tday.
But I texted Miss Kuck alr heh.
I miss her :/

ouhh ouhh!
Mr Baron is back! yay :D
But the number of ppl turning up for class is pathetic.
Cos mostly VDG members are alumni peeps.
They're busy with their own stuff alr.
I duno whad happened to da rest lol.

Anws, last week was nice.
We had a chit-chat session with Mr Baron instead of a lesson haha :P

Puasa. Exams. Holidays.
All just around da corner heh.

anyways, I shall update soon with vids & CHEESE :D
I think it's gna be long so be warned.
hahaha.

I wna revamp my blog soon but duno when.
blehhhh.

Can't wait for tomorrow.
hehe (:

okie dokie. take care people!
Happy...

Teachers' Day/ Fasting/ Studying / Holidays!

all in one go haha.

Bottomline:
Be Happy :D

hohoho! :O

2008-08-17T15:59:00.008+08:00

LINKS
Added: Ridhwan.

I just had to buy the September issue of Cleo magazine on da spot when I saw it ytd!
yknw why?

Cos Blake Lively's on da cover :D
(think Gossip Girl.)

Isnt she gorgeous or whattt?
:DDDDD

I can't wait till the complete episodes of GG Season 2 is out.
I got my mom to watch Gossip Girl too lol :P

Gorgeous girls. Hot Hunks.
Addictive Gossip.
This show has EVERYTHING.

oh ya, I didn't realise that Blake Lively was in The Sisterhood of The Travelling Pants movie.
In fact, I didn't really realise who were da actresses in the movie till now.
Lyke there's also Alexis Bledel from Gilmore Girls & America Ferrera from Ugly Betty.
Cos the last time I watched it was when I was in secondary school?
Anyways, No.2 is coming out soon! yay :D

It's a perfect movie for girls to watch with their best friends (:

Teachers' Day!
I'll be performing Take A Bow by Rihanna in school. (:
& there's also the modern dance performance @ ITE Macpherson.
I just hope they don't clash cos I don't know when's the modern dance one.
I don't wanna end up having to choose between the two...
gahhhhh ):

ouhh ouhh!
I found a new cheesy tr8!
It's Breadtalk's Cranberry Cream Cheese Bun :D
I fell in love with it once I tried it lol.
I was goin' to choir rehearsal that time with Zhi Xiang, walking while eating it then suddenly when I came to da cheese part, I exclaimed! LOL.
Cos da cheese is super creamy & rich!
Seriously, it's heavenly. haaaaa :D
Lol!

Btw, did you know that cheese has tryptophan?
It increases our serotonin levels which makes us more rational, happier, calmer & less stressed.
So..eat more CHEESE! haha :D

Okie dokie, I'm gna leave you with more CHEESE!
haha :D

Friday, 15 August 08.

Clubbing @ DXO!

Wenta DXO with my mom, her friend; Yani, Sabrina, Sin Mei & Chin Ying.

I love the dancefloor.
I don't know why but it has a way of getting me lost in the da music & making me dance lyke nobody's watching.
It makes me feel free.
Then there's that side of me which people (& myself, actually) rarely get to see.

Anyways, there was also a band playing there, Passionista.
Gosh, I love their vocals.
So smooth & I love the way they hit da high notes effortlessly.
I asked my mom why their voice was so smooth..
she said most prob. cos they've been doin' it for a long time already.
Aaaahhh I wish I had smoother vocals.
Nevermind, anything's possible...hehe. (:

Sabrina! wo de wei yi (:

Sinmei!

We took a lot of photos actually but all with Yani luhh haha.
Anyways, afterwards wenta Cafeela with my mom, Sabrina & Sinmei.
I ordered Nasi Goreng Ikan Billis & I choked on an ikan billis can T.T
seriously! dont laugh ok lol.
Cos it was those crispy, sharp kind.
After that I only dared to eat da rice lol.

No more DXO!
Next time I wna try another club plsss haha :D

Random Cheese :]

Eddy. Lily. Chin Ying.
Clubbing @ Zouk.
Zouk = trance.
I hate trance so no more Zouk for me lol.

IES

IES clinched da top places for da Inter-Class Tourism Competition!
Wan, Faris & Kok Beng got 1st runner up & Reshi, Matilda & Fir got 1st.
Congratulations :D

Amrit's "papparazzi moment" lol.
Everyone was snapping away while he was presenting bcos of his new haircut haha.

Poo caught playing his "laptop" haha.
It's a keyboard btw, lol.

Couple moment no.1.

Couple moment no.2.

Victims don't kill me plssss.
ahahaha :D

I miss seeing my adorable, cute babygirls ):

my monster!

I freak out whenever she rolls her eyes liddat.
So scary can lol. O.O

Daddy's girl.

my little copycat hehe.

check out Adlina's expression haha.

Paiseh face ahahaha :P

okie dokie, that's all for now.
Exams are coming so study, people! haha.
(Study dates, anyone? :])

take care & eat more CHEESE :D
haha ciao! ;D

2008-08-12T22:56:00.007+08:00

hello hello!
it's that time again for...

*drummmmrolllllls*

the blast-all-in-one update!
HAHAHA :P

CHEESE :D

Saturday, 9 August 08.

HAPPY 43rd BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE! :D

My celebration this year was an exciting one cos I got to be part of the choir @ the Padang!
When I thought of "padang", I was thinking of this padang @ Marina where my relatives used to bring me to.
Totally forgot there's this beeeeg padang near Raffles City Mall there heh.
If I'm not wrong, I've only went there once before haha.
Anyways, remember da tixs I got?
It's for the padang, not da one at da floating stage heh.
But in da end, it wasn't used cos my mom decided to attend her friend's open house instead.
Eeeeeee...haha.

Fadilla.

Kamsani.

My bro, Ashraff!

Babes Conde.

Dyla.

It was heart-warming to see the nation unite together to celebrate SG's birthday.
I find it uber cool when the audience made the national day flag together with the use of paddle-pops & their small torchlights.

Oh ya, Ridhwan was part of the audience! haha.
I guess it helps that he's super tall cos he managed to spot me heh :D

After witnessing the NDP on the big screen & the fireworks,
there was a free concert.
Party time! :D *boogies*
Really had fun rocking out to da performances & dancing lyke nobody's biz haha.

4 minutes by Gani & Sally.
I love this performance da most! :D

Stand By Me / Beautiful Girls.

Love Is Gone.
this dance performance was awesome :D

Friday, 8 August 08.

National Day Celebration @ ITE Bishan.

I'm so happy I got to perform for da school heh.
AGAIN AGAIN AGAIN! hahaha :D

Oh yes, there's somethin' I have to remind myself.
Note to self:

#1 most important thing when performing:
HAVE FUN.

Cos for some previous performances, I was busy making sure I didn't screw up that I forgot to enjoy & have fun.
Which actually should be my main aim.
I guess this all started when I had some standards to live up to when the management is involved in such events.
But whads da point of doin' somethin' you love when you don't have fun while you're at it ryte? heh.

Ouhh, IES!
I heard Colin came super early (even earlier than tijah haha!) so he wouldn't miss my performance.
Those who were mending their SBC booth rushed to the foyer (screaming while they were at it? lol.) just to watch my performance.
Then there were those who were in da audience screaming lyke mad haha.
I'm so touched! y'all so cute laa hehe.
Thank you IES for always being there for support.
Love love! (:

Reshi with his autographed hand hehe.

In da process, I also made new friends in school.
& also got to know people I already know even more heh (:
I really had fun all thanks to da performers & da student councillors.
:]

Ellie!
We always end up performing for da same events haha.
She plays the guzheng. :]

Ouhh, received praises from section heads & the mayor himself.
hehe (:

Mayor of Central Singapore District, Mr Zainudin Nordin.

Lionel Lewis!

The S-League players came to our school to play soccer with our school boys.
Once they were walking past the canteen, all da girls were cheering.
hahaha -.-''
Ohwells, that's what you get in a school mostly populated by girls hur hur :P

Thursday, 31 July 08.

Ms Chia's Farewell.

Miss Chia's last day with IES.
booooo. haha.
So gna miss her & her "cute moments" haha.

There were performances put up by IES peeps.
More Than Words by Matilda & Shima.
Damaged by Sufiyan & E'zzati.
Hero by yours truly heh.
Impromptu performance of Breaking Free by E'zzati & me lol.
& more! haha.
Emcees were Reshi & Stanley ;)

Ms Chia teared up when she saw the ppt show filled with our pictures & wishes.
She said she's not a person who cries easily so yeah...we made her cry...

MISSION ACCOMPLISHED!
ahahaha! :P

We wrapped it up by dedicating Always Be My Baby to her.
But Stanley kept singing "Always by my teacherrrr~" instead lol.
Gr8 job, IES! :D

Thank you Ms Chia for the Canadian Pizza Treat! heh :D

Monday & Tuesday, 28 & 29 July 08.

ITE Graduation Ceremony Performance @ NUS's UCC.

My very first performance slot given by Mr Baron ever since I joined cmTEA's Vocal Training @ Clementi.
Too bad he wasn't around to watch it :/
Together with Apple, Aimee & Amanda, we sang Because You Loved Me by Celine Dion.
Eventually we had to do some changes to our outfits & I ended up wearing my own stuff instead of the outfit that was bought :P

Aimee.

Apple.

Amanda.

I love the dressing room lights! haha :D

all-rounder. haha :P

We had a lot of waiting time to spare so we had nothing left to do except to have a...

cam-whoring session! haha :D

Saturday, 27 July 08.

Outing With IES Peeps! + Chase

I think it was my very first outing with my IES classmates heh.
Met up at Bugis with Reshi, Aishah, Stanley, Fiqah & Khairee then we went to Arab St. to chill at a sheesha place heh.
Chase joined us shortly after.
Had fun sing-along sessions & did a lot of cam-whoring lol.

Reshi Rishi haha.

Fiqah!

Stanley the Sexy! lol.

Stanley angry at Aishah for taking his seat.
Act only haha :P

Stanley & Chase.
I have no idea what they're playin' lol.

Stanley "floor-skating" lol.

Afterwards we went to the Esplanade & Yvonne joined us! heh.

Emo Stanley...

Happy Stanley!

Aww...lol :P

Yvonne.

Wednesday, 23 July 08.

Racial Harmony Day @ ITE Bishan.

The day started out slow cos it was raining cats & dogs.
Had a few performances @ the amphitheatre then classes as usual.
Quite a number of our IES peeps wore our trad. costumes heh.
woohoo!

Ada Cinta.
A duet by Hairul &...I-duno-the-girl's-name x:
sorry! haha.

Tijah.

Zahrina. Nat. E'zzati.

With Ms Chia & Sufiyan.

Fiqah.

Reshi.

Wan.

With Ms Jean Yeo.

IES ladies!~ hehe.

Saturday, 12 July 08.

Mr Baron's Farewell.

I believed I've already blogged about this before heh.
The teary farewell.
We miss you Mr Baron.

Dyla.

Ashraff.

Tuesday, 15 July 08.

Happy Birthday Ning Zhi :D
Oink Oink! :O

Despite it being a weekday,
we managed to do a surprise for ning zhi @ her house! heh.

Kelly & Agnes.

7 years of friendship.
Love ya ah pekkkk! hahaha :D

Ning Zhi's only halal piggy in da middle lol :P

Bibi.

I love my girls (:

Sunday, 22 June 08.

502's Gathering!

Dined at CP's Swensens.
It was nice to see all my classmates again.
Catch up on school stories, gossip & more! haha.

BFL Qiao Li & Sabrina Weiyi.

Spongebob!

With Rong Yi.

Fiona.

Sherlyn sherkyn! haha :P

Chin Ying.

Kok meng. O.O haha.

Random picture with David who was waiting for wei chong after our gathering haha.

Tuesday, 1 July 08.

IES BBQ.

IES's first gathering!
I especially had fun playing games haha.
Played with water bombs.
Sufiyan tricked me & I ended up getting thrown into the water T.T lol.
Reshi wicked, squeezing excess water from the water bombs onto people's heads haha :P

Firdaus.

Shima.

ehem ehem, nice picture ehh.
hehe :P

okie dokie, I'm done!
I'm so sorry no vids for now cos I hvn't uploaded 'em yet.

btw, in da previous entry I typed da wrong info heh.
Catch Camp Rock on Disney Channel on Sep 7, 7.30pm!
haha.

ouhh ouhh, finally got to meet up with weiyi & PC on Thursday after National Day rehearsal!
thank you PC for the Pastamania tr8! :D

Can't wait for Friday!
Modern Dance after school & gna go clubbing @ DXO!
wheeeeee :D
boogie-woogie-oogie all day~
uh-huh uh-huh.

Alrighty I'm gna end here for now.
Till then, take care & smile people!
Much lurrrrrrve :D

2008-08-06T22:01:00.019+08:00

LINKS
Added: Tijah. Diyana.

This week has been an emotional rollercoaster ride for me.
Both ups & downs at the same time.
But all's well now (:
Anyways...

NATIONAL DAY
FEVER

Omg.
You know what...

I've never been this excited for National Day before lol.

Friday
ITE Bishan's National Day Celebration.
I'll be singing Where I Belong by Tanya Chua (:
Must makedamnsure I sing well cos the Guest Of Honour is Mr Zainudin Nordin, Mayor Of Central Singapore District!
& this will be da first time I'm performing for my own school!
wish me luck! heh :D

Saturday
NDP Choir @ Padang.

I got two free tixs for NDP!
giving it to my mom & bro heh (:
They'll get to experience the floating stage while I'll be at da padang.
bleh :P

this week, I shall be a true, patriotic Singaporean!
hahaha :D

And so shall YOU!
Wear Red people!
ROARRR :O
lol.

Sorry for the short update.
But still an update righttt? heh :P
I'll update soon with tons of CHEESE :D okie?
plus vids! haha.

oh ya, I'm aware that many people actually don't know this year's National Day song lol.
So I'm gna leave you with da vid & lyrics alrighty.

btw, if you have Disney Channel,
watch Camp Rock @ 12pm on Saturday!
Tho' my blog song's from it's OST, I've yet to watch the movie heh.
I'm sure it rocks haha.

Happy National Day people! :D

click!

Shine For Singapore by Hady Mirza - The Video

Shine For Singapore by Hady Mirza

Have you seen a star,
One that guides you no matter where you are?
However vast the sky may be
Or dark it seems
You can be sure, it's always there for you and me

Have you heard a song,
One that moved you, one that made you sing along?
Your dreams and hopes will all come true
If you believe that every vision begins with you.

[Chorus]
Shine for Singapore
This is your song
Deep inside your heart where it belongs
It'll always stay, strive for your goals.
You will achieve with visions so bold.

Shine for Singapore
This is our song
Reach out for the sky, far and beyond
As one we'll stand, we're Singapore
It's here that we belong

Have you heard a song,
One that moved you, one that made you sing along?
Your dreams and hopes will all come true
If you believe that every vision begins with you.

Nowhere I'd rather be, this is home to me
This star shines strong and free

2008-07-17T20:35:00.009+08:00

I miss...

my super-cute-&-adorable babygirls
indian food (Thosai! Roti prata!)
italian food (Lasagna! Pizza! Spaghetti!)
spending quality time with my ohana
my girls (despite just meeting them on Tuesday)
being a couchpotato, snacking away, watching tv shows back-to-back
watching a movie in a cinema (I wanna watch Wedding Dates!)
Syafiq (cos he never fails to make me laugh)
playing Guitar Hero (tho' I suck at it lol :P)
being happy & smiley all the time.

Gaaahhhhhhhhh.
I can't wait till the pace of school life slows down or somethin'.
I can't wait till project deadlines & tests are over.
blehhhhh.

Oh ya, last Friday I met up with Syafiq & I wanted to eat my favourite kway teow at Far East's Taman Ros but it was closed down already.
boooooo ):

ouhh, I wanna try to make a lasagna one day.
heh :D

Okie dokie, here's the vid I promised.

click!

Yeah! dance-off battle

sorry for the bad quality tho'.
anyways, enjoy & tata! (:

2008-07-14T22:32:00.019+08:00

"The quality of your life is in direct proportion with the amount of uncertainty that you can live with."
-Anthony Robbins.

Added Links: 502. Sabrina. Ana. Peggie. 98.7 fm.
Relinked: Elicia.
Wishlist Updated.

I shall blog before I lose the feeling.
haha.

My Saturday; 12 July 08.
definitely somethin' to blog about.
I felt that it was an emotional & impactful day for me.
All because of two situations.
A day of full of tears...

I actually left my house, in tears.
due to some personal reasons.
& it was embarassing. It didn't help that I was alone.
Cos from Seng Kang all da way to Jurong East (which is lyke a 1 hour plus journey right?), my tears kept flowing, flowing & flowing non-stop.
Even music, my bestest companion in life, couldn't console me.
I tried to hide it by sitting & walking most of the time with my head down.
I seriously didn't want people to notice me at that point of time.
I'm so glad I had tissues with me.
I almost used up the whole packet.
Left with a piece unused.

I'm not sure if I've cried this much before.
But I swear I've never cried in public lyke this before.
so embarassing ):

I see you standing there, wanting more from me.
And all I can do is...try.

I just want you to know I'm really trying my best to be the best that I can be.
There's only so much I can take, do & I hope you understand.
I'm sorry if I'm too busy sometimes, I'm too caught up with a lot of things, I'm not around that much, I don't do things on time, I'm not able to help you or fulfill all your wishes.
But just so you know, I'm trying.
I just want you to be happy & proud of me.

Thanks bibi for you-know-what (:

After I was ok, I met up with Amanda, Apple & Mr Baron to pick up the outfits for our performence.
Then we proceeded to ITE Clementi for Vocalist Training.
After that, we had a gathering for Mr Baron.
I'm so glad I was there.

Mr Baron is a very inspiring man.
A chinese muslim.
He's leaving cos he's gonna help out people in Bangladesh.
It's a pity I only got to know him for a short period of time.
I'm forever grateful to him for giving me so much opportunities even when I just joined the class.
The gathering was filled with fun, laughter & tears.
From there, I saw how much he had done for the seniors & juniors.
How much he meant to them, how much he did for them.
He's definitely a great man.
& I hope he'll find his soulmate.
If not in this life now, then in heaven. (:

I also can't believe that day I even had a thought to quit Vocalist Training.
That was sorta one of the reasons why I cried earlier on.
Because I just wanted to solve everything. I seriously didn't want to resort to that tho'.
I just can't imagine quitting the class when I've received opportunities from it & it really improved my singing ability a lot.
I just can't imagine my life without singing.

It's sad tho' that Mr Baron won't get to see us girls perform on 29 July.
The first-ever slot I received from him.
But I promise to give it my all.
& I'll stay in Vocalist Training class for as long as I can (:

I think I need to write him a letter heh.

Anyways, so there.
My Saturday.
It started with tears and ended with tears too, but the sorta good kind heh.

My immune system hasn't been good lately.
Had flu previously. Vomitted two times in the morning today.
(which I think is due to stomach flu; my stomach keeps doin' backflips, turns or whatever you call it from time to time)
And now, I'm having a fever. Go figure.
Blehhhhh.

That's also why I have time to blog today.
skipped NDP choir which meant I could finally watch an episode of So You Think You Can Dance heh :P

But no worries, I'll be well by tomorrow, hopefully.
(:

Positivity. Optimism. Lots of plain water.
Food. Sleep. my favourite ITE Bishan's mango juice!
the ingredients to me getting well.
heh :D

Oh yeah, I've been feeling so lousy lately.
But somethin' really cheered me up today.
I did really well for my TPS test! hehe :D
I expected to pass but didn't expect to do very well.
I'm relieved that my schedule & the state that I've been lately is not affecting my grades.
heh.

My mom now has a macbook.
& she got it at a really good price, it's ridiculous. lol.
boooo. I want my own notebook.
Shall add that to my wishlist haha :P

I'll update with some CHEESE :D & a video soon.
It's a dance battle between Asyraf, Aidil & Zul during the gathering for Mr Baron.
hilarious haha.

Okie dokie. Take care everyone!
all smiles & much lurrrrrrve (:

P.S. After discovering my RoKr phone, Mr Baron wants to change his phone to E8 too!
haha :D