Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius and it's better to be absolutely ridiculous than to be absolutely boring.
-Marilyn Monroe.

*screams*
MOMMY, IT'S O-VERRRRR! :O
bye-bye school, hello HOLIDAYS!
uh-huh uh-huh.
*boogies*

Tday didn't started out well actually.
I OVERSLEPT!

My first thought when I woke up:
why is it blue instead of pitch black?

When I realised it was 7 plus, I freaked out.
Quickly speed-shower, got ready, bing bang boom.
I had no choice but to cab to school.
Booooo, there's goes the moolah I've been saving ):
Maybe I'm not meant to save, that's why lol :P

Okok, back to da story.
On da way, got a pep talk call from Reshi lol.
I thought I was gna be late for an exam.
If not, it'd be my first.
But actually I had nothing to worry about bcos I was cabbing.
but yknw me, worrywart lol.
Then Tijah texted me cos she reached earlier than usual ahahaha.

There was da daily traffic watch report on da radio.
The driver said it's always da same everyday.
Really? lol.

Then when I reached school, straightaway wenta class.
no winter melon morning tday ):

straightaway texted Reshi & Tijah:
"Ok ive reach! Merdeka! AHAHAHA"

LMAO!

And that was my morning haha :]

Friday: IES Sheesha Outing. Le Baroque.
Saturday: Movie day with Ohana.
Sunday: Weiyi's birthday celebration.

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEE!~
can't wait! can't wait!
lalalala :D

I think I haven't been dancing for 2 weeks already.
tsk tsk.
This shawty needs to get loose!
ahahahaha

I love Kelly Clarkson's new song!
especially the video.
I have my reasons hehe :]

click click!

My Life Would Suck Without You

Ooh ooh, she's gna be on American Idol tday too!
go watch it alrighty!
This season's awesome btw heh :D

Happy holidays people!
MUACK :D

My Life Would Suck Without You
by Kelly Clarkson

Guess this means you're sorry
You're standing at my door
Guess this means you take back
All you said before
Like how much you wanted
Anyone but me
Said you'd never come back
But here you are again

[Chorus]
'Cause we belong together now
Forever united here somehow
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life would suck without you

Maybe I was stupid for telling you goodbye
Maybe I was wrong for trying to pick a fight
I know that I've got issues
But you're pretty messed up too
Either way, I found out I'm nothing without you

[Chorus]

Being with you
Is so dysfunctional
I really shouldn't miss you
But I can’t let you go

[Chorus]

'Cause we belong together now
Forever united here somehow
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life would suck without you

Laugh your heart out. Dance in the rain. Cherish the moment, ignore the pain. Live, laugh and love. Forgive and forget. Life's too short to be living with regrets.

WHEEEEEE!
2 papers down, 1 more to go.
mwahahahaha :D \m/

I've got a new habit recently.
An exam have-to to be exact.
It all started on Monday.
I felt lyke vomiting throughout my journey to school in the morning.
Maybe it was the nerves or somethin'.
So before I wenta class I bought myself a winter melon tea and after drinking it, I felt better.
I don't know, maybe it has the power to calm me down?
ahahahaha.

Today I did da same thing too.
Now, it's a MUST haha :D

I've been listening to Perfect 10 more than the songs on my playlist lately on my journeys.
It's a bit dangerous to listen to Morning Madness by yourself tho'.
Cos there'd be moments you'd just hafta laugh at their jokes but you can't cos you're alone in public so....maintain maintain!
ahahaha :P

Holidays holidays!
I can't wait!
lalalala :D

Someday, everything will make perfect sense.
So for now, laugh at the confusion, smile through the tears.
And keep reminding yourself everything happens for a reason.





You always have a knack for sensing whenever I'm not ok.
Even whenever I refuse to let it all out, you never give up.
You always persist and when I'm not ready, you try your very best to make me happy instead.
Thank you for always being there.
Thank you for being my mother, best friend and girlfriend all in one.
(plus make-up artist, image consultant, photographer...yada yada :P)

Although I don't always say or show it,
you know I love you :]

You know you love me too! XOXO.
AHAHAHAHAHA!
(inside joke :P)







I really miss my favourite babygirl.
a.k.a. my little monster zu-rahhhh! :O
ahahahaha.
& I think she knows.
Cos she called me up recently without even a proper greeting & just rambled on & on about everything under the sun lol.
I had to guess who was on the other line haha.
Hearing her voice is enough to turn my day around & make my day.
clever orchid hehe :]

Sometimes I wished I was born in the olden times.
Where everything was so simple.
Sure, people go through a matchmaking process & they had to marry someone they didn't know or perhaps maybe even someone they don't wanna be with at the beginning.
But because of this, they had learn to love each other & slowly, they do.
Most importantly, they stay together.
Love was everlasting and separation was rare back then.

Now, divorces are nothing new.
"it's complicated" is a status.
geez.

Sometimes, it gets a little scary to see how much the world is changing.
The crazy stuff people do to get attention.
Global warming. Octuplets.
Did you know that a woman in America called up 911 just bcos Mcd ran out of nuggets?
LOL.

See, we live in a crazy world.
So I guess it helps that I'm a crazy person too mwahahaha!
ok random lol :P

I think I have a bedtime now.
Cos nowadays my body switches off automatically around 11-12plus.
Which is good for me I guess cos I used to have a habit of staying up late heh.

Current Celebrity Crushes:
Jesse McCartney.
James Morrison.

(& they happen to have the same initials, JM! haha :D)



haaaaa :D
hehe.
check out his new vid!
click click!

How Do You Sleep



I love his voice :]
plus he has really meaningful songs, love the lyrics.

check him out.
click click!

You Make It Real


I miss Ghost Whisperer!
They keep showing American Idol instead of GW...
not that I'm complaining heh.
But still, I miss it laa!
boooo.

I can't wait for exams to finish..
then holidays!
I got so much catching up to do with my loved ones :D
plus more me time hehe.

okie dokie, I think I'm done for now.
take care & much love :]

You Make It Real
by James Morrison

There's so much craziness surrounding me,
There's so much going on it gets hard to breath
When all my faith has gone, you bring it back to me,
You make it real for me

Well I'm not sure of my priorities,
I've lost sight of where I´m meant to be
And like holy water washing over me,
You make it real for me

And I am running to you baby,
You are the only one who saves me
That's why I've been missing you lately,
'Cause you make it real for me

When my head is strong, but my heart is weak,
I'm full of arrogance and uncertainty
When I can't find the words, you
teach my heart to speak,
You make it real for me

And I am running to you baby,
You are the only one who saves me
That's why I've been missing you lately,
'Cause you make it real for me

Everybody's talking in words I don't understand,
You got to be the only one, who knows just who I am
And you're shining in the distance,
I hope I can make it through
Cause the only place that I want to be
is right back home with you

I guess there's so much more I have to learn,
But if you're here with me, I know which way to turn
You always give me somewhere, somewhere I can learn,
You make it real for me

And I am running to you baby,
Cause you are the only one who saves me
That's why I've been missing you lately,
'Cause you make it real for me
You make it real for me

I've never felt this way before.
I always know what I want.
I always know what to do.
Now, I'm confused...
and perhaps a little bit lost.

I don't want to hurt anyone.
I don't want to end up hating anyone either.
So it's better I just keep this to myself.
I guess this is somethin' I have to figure out on my own.

Now, I just need to be around all things that make me happy.
All things familiar, real & true.

Details In The Fabric
by Jason Mraz feat. James Morrison

Calm down
Deep breaths
And get yourself dressed instead
Of running around
And pulling on your threads and
Breaking yourself up

If it's a broken part, replace it
If it's a broken arm then brace it
If it's a broken heart then face it

And hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
And everything will be fine

Hang on
Help is on the way
Stay strong
I'm doing everything

Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way

And everything
Everything will be fine
Everything

Are the details in the fabric
Are the things that make you panic
Are your thoughts results of static cling

Are the things that make you blow
Hell, no reason, go on and scream
If you're shocked it's just the fault
Of faulty manufacturing

Everything will be fine
Everything in no time at all
Everything

Hold your own
And know your name
And go your own way

Are the details in the fabric (Hold your own, know your name)
Are the things that make you panic
Are your thoughts results of static cling (Go your own way)

Are the details in the fabric (Hold your own, know your name)
Are the things that make you panic (Go your own way)
Is it Mother Nature's sewing machine

Are the things that make you blow (Hold your own, know your name)
Hell no reason go on and scream
If you’re shocked it's just the fault (Go your own way)
Of faulty manufacturing

Everything will be fine
Everything in no time at all
Hearts will hold

"Stop talking about love. Every asshole in the world says he loves somebody. It means nothing. It still doesn't mean anything. What you feel only matters to you. It's what you do to the people you say you love, that's what matters. It's the only thing that counts."
-Tom Wilkinson as Stephen in The Last Kiss.

LINKS
Added: Samuel. Dee.

They say the greatest gift you can give to someone is your time.
Because when you give someone your time, you are giving them a portion of your life that you will never get back.

I believe things fall apart so that better things can fall into place.
Sometimes the same thing happens to you again so that you learn & have a chance not to repeat the same mistakes again the next time around.
There are just certain things that you keep coming back to because you know, it'll always be a part of your life. You can't imagine your life without it anymore.
No matter how hard it gets, you'll always stay because it has become a part of you.
It means too much to you for you to let go.
Difficult but real. The curse that is the cure.

Love endures all things.
Nobody said it was gonna be easy, they just promise it'd be worth it.
Unconditional love, no questions asked.

We may not have it all together
but together, we have it all.

Note to self:

Things that cheer me up:
music therapy
cheese
slurpee [latest addition! hehe.]
chocolates

As you can see, this is pretty much a random entry :]
cos everytime I wna do a proper one,
somethin' crops up heh.



I feel much more free now that I'm done with all my presentations except for BZC which is next week.
Must. Think. Asian.
ROARRRR :O

After that, exams.
Then holidays!
which I have no idea when lol.



I love Ravvivi! :D







If yknw peeps that might be interested in this, tell 'em about it alrighty!
spread da word :D
uh-huh uh-huh.

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B2B

I've been listening to a lot of Beyonce & Leona Lewis heh.
Gotta love 'em strong, beautiful, powerful women :]

Broken-Hearted Girl
by Beyonce.

You're everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you could have been
But still, you live inside of me, so tell me how is that?
You're the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I love to not forgive
And though you break my heart, you're the only one
And though there are times when I hate you
'Cause I can't erase
The times that you hurt me and put tears on my face
And even now, while I hate you, it pains me to say
I know I'll be there at the end of the day

[Chorus]
I don't wanna be without you, babe
I don't want a broken heart
Don't wanna take a breath without you, babe
I don't wanna play that part
I know that I love you, but let me just say
I don't wanna love you in no kind of way, no no
I don't want a broken heart
I don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl
No, no, no broken-hearted girl

There's something that I feel I need to say
But up til' now I've always been afraid
that you would never come around
And still I wanna put this out

You say you've got the most respect for me
But, sometimes I feel you're not deserving of me
And still, you're in my heart
But you're the only one
And yes, there are times when I hate
you, but I don't complain
'Cause I've been afraid that you would walk away
Oh, but now I don't hate you
I'm happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day

[Chorus]

Now I'm at a place I thought I'd never be
I'm living in a world that's all about you and me
Ain't gotta be afraid, my broken heart
is free to spread my wings and fly
away, away with you....

I don't wanna be without my baby
I don't want a broken heart
Don't wanna take a breath without my baby
I don't wanna play that part
I know that I love you, but let me just say
I don't wanna love you in no kind of way, no no
I don't want a broken heart
I don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl
No, no, no broken-hearted girl
Broken-hearted girl
No broken-hearted girl

End of randomness.
bye bye! :]

LINKS
Added: Matilda.
Relinked: Khairee. Shahira. Nisa.

Hello :]
here's my long overdue entry hehe.
I was supposed to have a new year's special entry but somethin' happened so yeah, scratched that heh.
but I'm back! If yknw whad I mean.

anyways, as y'all should know,
I turned 19 on 18 January! heh.

Is there a vast difference in the transition of 18 goin' on 19?
Nope. The only thing it made me realized is that I'm gna be 20 soon!
the BIGGGGG TWO-O.
look at me!
twenty & me don't go together at all!
ahahahahaha.

I shall blog the best bits of 1801.
:]

I actually had a mental note of who I wished to spent my birthday with.
Some of the special people in my life.
here it is in random order:

Ohana
mom & bro
kuzzies ana & dian
my fave aunts cik minah & cik aye
my little darlings

my weiyi, Sabrina
Izzat
my girls; bibi kelly ning zhi jo agnes
Tasha bestie
vocal clique
IES
jacinta b.f.

I'm happy I got to spent it with most of 'em.
For the ones whom I didn't get to celebrate with,
wished you were there! heh.
Love love! :]

1801 Part I.



At the stroke of midnight, had a surprise birthday sleepover hehe.
My mom actually went out & pretended to be out with her friends.
Then she quietly entered the house with six boxes of pizza.
After that slowly the rest also entered the house.
There was sabrina, bibi, kelly, jophillien, my kuzzie; dian & my mom's friend; Yannie plus her little ones! heh.

I think they knew I could predict there was gna be surprise that day haha.
I'm so sorry! but I reaaaally appreciate it! hehe.
I didn't expected my kuzzie & my mom's friend to be there tho' heh.
thanks bibi for planning it! :]

we stuffed ourselves with pizzas, ate choco mint cake, watched Sisterhood of The Travelling Pants 2, youtube vids etc haha.

Didn't slept till lyke 4-5 am plus in da morn lol.

Oh ya! there was this v. funny moment.
My mom was asking "Sabrina, why you never bring PC along?"
Then she replied, saying "so heavy laa, l8er got church some more".
LMAO!

My mom & I were laughing while she was still wondering why we were for a min ahahaha.
she thought my mom was refering to her laptop lol.
F.Y.I. PC is our Red Camp mentor, a person.
lol :P




kuzzie dian :]


the busy people!
uh-huh uh-huh.


weiyi's prezzie (a stitch pillow which I hug
to sleep every night now hehe) & the girls' card.
check out the background lol.






the girls' prezzie!
a billabong cap & a personalized pullover.
I really love 'em! thank you lovelies :D


Emo shot...
lyke reaaal only ahahaha :P

1801 Part II.

In da afternoon, met up with my kuzzies.
we wenta Orchard for music therapy!
mwahahahaha :D
wenta Ming Arcade's Cash Studio for karaoke.

I swear I had lotsa fun! lol.
I sang till I couldn't sing anymore.
I laughed until I wanted to pee in my pants! LOL.
plus I was lyke some siao char bor.
I think people would have thought I was intoxicated or somethin' haha.








kuzzie love :]




muack muack muack!




my shorts & her jacket seemed lyke
they came from the same material haha!




I'm crazy lyke that ;)
LOL.






feeling2 or whaaatttt.
ahahahahaha :P






my dearrrr brother ehem-ehem.
bluek! ahahaha :P


We were singing Acha & Irwansyah's My Heart.
Imagine that haha.
















available in Toys R Us now!
collect all 4 :P






After the karaoke session, we had a nice chatting session at Mcd heh.
I ate lotsa lotsa fries with chilli & mayo! yum-yum :D
it was nice catching up on our childhood memories plus gossip hehe.

IES Birthday Surprise.

It all started with matty tricking me into accompanying her to the toilet, change of project meeting venue yada yada haha.
Then when I came to the canteen, saw the bunch crowding around a table & the flicker of a flame from the candle haha.

thanks for the Stitch prezzie IES! hehe.
Ooh, tijah gave me a separate prezzie.
She gave me a cotton on bra! kinky or whaattt. ahahahaha.
it's the 2nd time I'm receiving lingerie for my birthday lol.

Ooh! the cake was delicious!
blueberry with cream :]









I really had a gr8 19th birthday.
thank you so much for those who made it happen, really.
& thanks for all the bday wishes!

I shall end here for now.
much love (: