You've only got three choices in life:
give up , give in or give it all you've got.

These past few days have been hard...
playing pretend.

Pretending I'm ok...
when I'm so broken up inside.
Pretending I don't care about you...
when I really do.
Pretending to ignore you...
when all I wanna do is to talk to you.

I've been contemplating & today,
I suddenly had a change of mind.

I don't know what's happening to us.
I don't know why it even started.
But what I know is that I miss you,
I wanna be there for you.
And all I want is for you to be happy.

As long as you're alright & happy,
I'm happy (:

Thank you Tijah & Aimi for always checkin' up on me.
hehe :]

P.S. my cellphone's fixed!
So you can text, call, whatever you like heh :D
& I think there's a need for me to use my calender function already lol.

"A wise girl kisses but doesn't love, listens but never believes, and leaves before she is left."
-Marilyn Monroe.

LINKS
Added: Syafiq. Chin Ying.
Relinked: Imran Ajmain. Dove Women.

I realise nowadays I blog after I'm ok when I'm supposed to blog about it when I'm not.
Cos this is supposed to be the place where I can let anything go here.

Well, tonight, I'm doin' just that.

I was so happy to call you at the stroke of midnight today.
To be the first to wish you on your birthday.
I was so tired out from dance practice that I kept falling asleep.
But I forced myself to stay awake, just for you.
But then now, I realised somethin'...

& I'm not gonna stay around for it.
I'm not gonna let history repeat itself.

It's not up to me anymore.
If you want me in your life,
you'll find a way to put me there.

Happy birthday.
I hope you have fun clubbing tonight.

And you will be the last to know.
Cos you're always too late.



I can't wait to go out & have fun with IES tomorrow.
Spending time with IES always makes me happy & forget all my troubles (:
love love.

If I Were A Boy
by Beyonce

If I were a boy
even just for a day,
I'd roll out of bed in the morning
and throw on what I wanted and go
drink beer with the guys
and chase after girls,
I'd kick it with who I wanted
and I’d never get confronted for it
cause they'd stick up for me

[Chorus]
If I were a boy
I think I could understand
how it feels to love a girl,
I swear I'd be a better man
I'd listen to her
'cause I know how it hurts
when you lose the one you wanted
'cause he's taking you for granted
and everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
tell everyone it's broken
so they think
that I was sleeping alone
I’d put myself first
and make the rules as I go
'cause I know that she’d be faithful,
waiting for me to come home
(to come home)

[Chorus]

It's a little too late for you to come back
Say it's just a mistake,
think I'd forgive you like that?
If you thought I would wait for you, you thought wrong

But you're just a boy,
you don't understand
how it feels to love a girl
someday you'll wish you were a better man...
You don't listen to her,
you don't care how it hurts
until you lose the one you wanted
'cause you taken her for granted
and everything you had got destroyed

but you're just a boy...

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they go right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart, so that better things can fall together."
- Marilyn Monroe.

LINKS
Added: Dalilah. Jeremy.
Relinked: Natasha.

First & foremost...

SELAMAT HARI RAYA :D

love love!
hehe.

Guess what?
My laptop's fixed!
thank you Ridz :D

It looks lyke everything's still here...
except for my songs & some programs.
oh wells, at least it's ok now & my pics are still here!
phew.
& I finally read my offline MSN messages haha.
Ouhh, I'm also using Firefox more now rather than IE.
Cos it's supposedly safer heh.

Previously my laptop was down bcos of a virus.
I couldn't log in into it cos it would auto log out.
Then at da corner instead of "Turn Off My Computer" it said "Turn Off My Room".
Weird :S haha.

Now that da laptop's ok...
here's da story about my phone. lol.

My phone's having bitchfits.
I cannot receive or sent texts now.
It keeps prompting "Error: Memory Full" even though I deleted all my texts.
Yes, I deleted some but then I got frustrated so I deleted everything & it still doesn't work.
Grr.
Anyways, main pt of this story is if you need to contact me, please call. don't text alrighty.
& so sorry if I haven't been replying any of your texts.

I've been emo elmo for da past few days...
had some issues to deal with, been contemplating a lot & crying myself to sleep.
Woke up with puffy eyes tday.
But everything's alright now (:
Just hope da same stuff doesn't come up anymore...

or at least not so soon. please.
sigh.

I really wished you could have been there for me.
I've been bottling up & had so much to let go.
But you were too busy to make time for me...

Lucky you, I cannot stay mad at you for long.
(:

I badly needed to escape from the tension.
Go out, catch a movie, have fun.

So I rang up Sabrina tday.
& my call was answered with an immediate loud "Yanaaaa!!!!"
LMAO.
Cos she was just about to dial my no. when I got to her first.
Telepathy or whatttt! hahaha.
I don't know why it always happens to us lol.
So tomorrow I have a date with my weiyi!
yay :D

After tomorrow...

Friday: SG Biennale -PM Shift.
Saturday: VDG Raya Outing.

Back to school on Monday :D
I can't wait to see IES again!
I really miss all the laughters, jokes, the antics.
Plus, I can't wait to check out the new modules we'll be having heh.
With new modules comes new teachers too I guess? haha.
IES, may we rock even more & have an awesome semester! mwahahaha :D

ouhh, & I'm happy with my GPA.
hehe :]



Gossip Girl!
I still got 2 more episodes to finish before da new one comes out.
Did I mention how awesome Gossip Girl is?
ok, I think umpteen times heh.
I really, really love their wardrobe, the gorgeous cast, the gossip.
haaaaa :D

Ok enough. I shall stop here haha.
I'm almost done with my hari raya pics so will post 'em up real soon.
meanwhile, enjoy your holidays while it's still here!
much love :D