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What Hurts The Most

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The day I told myself I was over you,
I soon realised...



that it was too good to be true.

so close.

What Hurts The Most
by Rascal Flatts.

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

[Chorus]
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ it
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

[Chorus x2]

Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do.

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Looking back at my latest 2 entries,
they sort of..contradict each other.
hmm.

anyways, shall do a quick update.
:]

27 NOV 06
BBQ :D

Wenta da girls chalet @ Pasir Ris.
There was..
ning zhi, kelly, bibi, pei ling, jophillien, mei wei, peini & yvonne.
yepp, i think that's abt it haha.

thank you girls :D
I was definitely full that day.
Ate hotdogs (especially love da CHEESE ones :D), chicken chop, agar-agar..
& more! haha.

Got to drink sparkling juice too!
-white grape ^^

Played UNO.
at least i had a UNO game haha.
=P

Oh ya, I was drenched twice that day lol.
T.T

28 NOV 06
Scorpion Comm. Pizza Hut Treat :D

thank you Scorpion King :D
hehe.

Whoo, definitely full.
We ate lyke duno how many pieces of pizza.
After that, hanged around CP awhile with a grp of 'em.
Ooh, & we're planning somethin'..
HEHE.
=X

my lips are sealed.
LALALALAAA~

XD

Now that some of da star athletes have graduated,
let's see how next year is gna turn out for all da houses.
HEH HEH.
*evil smirk*

=P

Ooh, i rarely do this..
but since i'm blogging,
& i love her alot :D
i wanna wish..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SITI :D

(btw, i was da 3rd person to wish her! -WHEEEE :D)

*sings*
i'm bringin' sexy back.

XD

okie dokie.
& finally, CHEESE :D

be prepared..
cos there's alot lol.
O.O

Class Chalet :D


Sherlyn :D




MICHELLE! :DD


Euphoria Rush :]


Chin Ying (:




@ Mdm Ida's hse:
Siti & Mdm Ida :]


@ Hazmi's hse:
Hazmi, Siti, Hafiz & Daud :D


@ home.

Grandparents' house :]


Mommy :D
Was trying hard to cover da background, you see..
success? lol.




My bro. =P


kuzzie Nurul :]


my aunt, Yati.




my monster, Zurah :D


tutt-twan XD


Zurah again hehe :D


my most adorable aunt (:


Cousins :]


Candid shot ;)







McCafe, Orchard.









Off I go to watch Wish Upon A Star!
Hady, here I come ^^

singing a new tune.
(:

Cos I'm tired of waiting & standing still..

Wild Horses
by Natasha Bedingfield.

I feel these four walls closing in
My face up against the glass
I'm looking out...
Is this my life I'm wondering
It happened so fast
How do I turn this thing around
Is this the bed I chose to make
Its greener pastures i'm thinking about..
Wide open spaces far away

All I want is the wind in my hair
To face the fear but, not feel scared

[Chorus]
Wild horses I wanna be like you
Throwing caution to the wind
I'll run free too
Wish I could recklessly love, like I'm longing too
Run with the wild horses, run with the wild horses

I see the girl I wanna be
Riding bare back, care free along the shore
If only that someone was me
Jumping head first headlong without a thought
To act and damn the consequence
I wish it could be that easy
But fear surrounds me like a fence
I wanna break free

All I want is the wind in my hair
To face the fear but, not feel scared

[Chorus]

I wanna run too

Breaklessly abandoning my self before you
I wanna open up my heart tell him how I feel

[Chorus]

I wanna run with the wild horses.

:D
I'm a very happy girl tday.
HEHE.

=X

never thought they would actually rmb & do it too.
Thank you my psychopaths for fulfilling my request.
HEH :D

Psychopaths Rule.
XP

beating hearts baby (:

Added Links: Tingxuan. Yunting. BlogThings.
Relinked: Beverly :]

19 Nov 06;
Holland Village.
Helped my mom, aunt & her bf at da flea market.
It's fun :D
cos it's lyke reliving your childhood again.
Y'know when you're a child you play masak-masak, doctor, pretend to sell stuff & all that.
Yeah, hopefully you catch my drift lol. (:
ooh, & you'll never know whad you can find dere!
heh.

I was so glad I tagged along..
cos at nite, there was this Hari Raya concert dere.
Guess who was dere?
Alias Kadir..
Kharil Yusoff :D
& more!

Took a vid while Khairil Yusoff sanged.
so close yet so far..
LOL

Heng it wasnt Fauzie Laily instead.
cos if not, i would've gone bonkers lol.

ANYWAYS XD ;
Khairil sang only a portion of Nadya cos he was supposed to sing a hari raya song only.
He also did a duet with with his sis, Hairah.
Alias Kadir was as usual, hilarious lol.
Although it kept drizzling on-off,
it still didnt dampened da spirits of da people dere heh.
Shall post up da photos soon :]

21-22 Nov 06;
Class Chalet :D

Met up with sabrina & chin ying @ CP.
After that, we proceeded to jac's hse at changi.
Hanged around dere awhile..
which was when i realised i forgot my towel & toothbrush.
Heng jac had xtra heh.

Cabbed to Aloha Changi.
I liked how da place looked..
a house to ourselves. Then dere was nothing around except leaves, bushes..
like in a horror movie liddat.
-cool :D
LOL.

Totally had fun dancing in da room with jac.
-Party! haha.
Fran & Mich was lyke our audience lol.

After that, BBQ!
I think I only ate one marshmellow dere.
=x

But managed to try da hotdog, stingray & corn..
with da use of da microwave, that is lol.
da stingray was delicious :D

Then in da wee hours of da morning,
met up with da rest who went to OCH.
Ate at a coffee shop.
There were three dogs there.
Big dogs, mind you lol.
I was expecting roger to protect me or somethin' but in da end..

he was more scared then me can?
He used a chair as a shield lol.
XD

On our way back,
passed by some transvesitites.
(however you spell it lol.)
One of 'em said:

"The singlet one so cute!"

Samuel ran after that.
XD

Shared a room with alot of people lol.
Some had to sleep on da floor..
so poor thing =x
me & jac shared a cushion & made it as our pillow.
but still shiok laa lol.

Was awaken by a commotion happening outside our room at one pt.
All i have to say is..
I was scared at how hideous that scene was.
& this was why alcohol wasnt allowed in da first place.
Just dont let it happen again alrighty.

2nd Day
Didnt continue my stay dere..
cos not alot of ppl were staying luhh.
So took a bus to TM.
& cabbed to CP with mich, fran & syakir.
Thank you fran! heh :D

Hanged out with mich, soon chye & jellomee at CP.
soon chye was shopping for his prom nite stuff.
Tempted mich to eat lemon chicken w/o even trying hehe.
:]

After that, went to soon chye's hse.
Wanted to see how da tie looked with da shirt.
Jellomee kept wanting to take my fone away T.T
but didnt succeed lol.

After that,
home sweet home :D

Only took three pics during da chalet.
Wasnt allowed to bring da cam cos scared lost bleh.
So here are da pics taken dere & other random ones :]


Jac. Sab. Lil. (:





Michelle! :D

& for my tooth fairy :D





I've yet to find a tooth fairy logo.
Heh.

BOO.
aint my new temp pretty? hehe.
Yours truly made it herself heh.
Credits to my weiyi for helping me take my photo (:
Html almost drove me nuts.
(not that I'm not already am.)
LOL XP

13 NOV 06;
Finally I got my haircut!
Thanks bibi for accompanying me :]
The hairdresser was listenin' to our convo lol.
=x

Cos there was thunder so bibi asked me..

"You think which one comes first,
Lighting or Thunder?"

"Lighting. Cos light travels faster than sound. Physics got teach right.."

Then the hairdresser,
*coughs*
"You are right."

Then she proceeded with talkin' to me abt Mass Comm.
Bcos i was talkin' to bibi abt it earlier.

It's not abt da grades.
It's all abt da interview & good english.
(:

*beams*
I WANT MASS. COMM. !
LOL.
*fingers crossed*


After that,
met up with sabrina & sin mei.
Wenta chinatown cos dey wanted to buy beads.
Then sabrina & I wenta CP for a bite.
Haha, we always end up having private "weiyi" moments together.
HEH :D

love love ^^

oh yeah..that day i did somethin too.
But..
oh wells.

so much for trying :(

14 NOV 06;
MTV: My Chemical Romance $2 bill concert.
whoo, gerard is much much cuter now.
Mikey is so shuai!
*beams*
:DDD



There's this one particular sad song which is...
very sad but nice.
Go give it a listen yeah;
it's Cancer by MCR. (:

15 NOV 06;
Wenta Vivocity with my mom & bro.
Tried da Chicken rice @ Banquet.
Hmm..find it much nicer then da one at CP.
or is it da chilli? heh.

Candy Empire!
bought sweets.
My fave, da long-long one..dont know whad it's called.
XD
Cadbury Milk Triple Decker :D
Cadbury Milk chocs are always nice heh.
Oooh, & also tried Licorice.
(pronounced as: li-ke-rish.)
Been searching for it cos I always see ppl on American tv eatin' it.
So, i got curious lol.

Hmm..not as tasteful as i thot it wud be.
But not bad either, I kept biting & biting it lol.
There's lotsa types (:
I've yet to find da sweets darrich got for me at Australia lol.

28 nov.
Scorpion Comm. Treat,
from Mr Singh.
Pizza Hut, here I come ^^
LOL.

Oh ya..I've decided to be da cheer coordinater again nxt yr.
Cos Jasper kinda..begged? lol. =x
he said Scorpion needed me..
rightt-
XP

Sometimes, I wonder if i'm a fool to be in this waiting game.
Boy, you got me doin' things I wouldn't normally do.
Things that make me even more daring & brave,
different from that shy girl that I know of.
Things that need me to muster up my courage.

Because I'm not the type of person to sit & wait for things to happen.
I want to take control of what's ahead.
I've learned that you can't always leave it up to fate.

I swear, when I see your name on the screen,
my heart skips a beat.
My pulse races.
I don't know what to do;
afraid of making a wrong move.

This love is taking it's toll on me.
Now, you've left me confused.
I dont know what to do anymore.
At least I can say I've tried.
But I'm not sure about you..

I'm not ready to give up.
Because I wanna make sure that if i do give up,
it'll be my last.
I can't keep falling in again;
cast under your spell.

Now, all I can do is wait.
Till I get tired of this waiting game..

All Good Things (Come To An End)
by Nelly Furtado.

Honestly what will become of me
don't like reality
It's way too clear to me
But really life is daily
We are what we don't see
Missed everything daydreaming

[Chorus]
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?

Traveling I only stop at exits
Wondering if I'll stay
Young and restless
Living this way I stress less
I want to pull away when the dream dies
The pain sets in and I don't cry
I only feel gravity and I wonder why

[Chorus]

Well the dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could
Dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could
Die

[Chorus]

Well the dogs were barking at a new moon
Whistling a new tune
Hoping it would come soon
And the sun was wondering if it should stay away for a day 'till the feeling went away
And the sky was falling on the clouds were dropping and
the rain forgot how to bring salvation
the dogs were barking at the new moon
Whistling a new tune
Hoping it would come soon so that they could die.

From my beloved Cupcake :D

Name a fren who's name starts with a "S"?
Siti :D

4TH person on your missed calls?
Umm..my father.

What was the last text message you received?
K... from Bibi lol.

Do you have curly hair?
Nope. But i do have natural waves (:

What is the next concert you are going to?
No plans for any concert anytime soon =P

What was the last thing you ate?
Roti prata.

What was the last thing you said to someone and who was it?
"Jangan kacau laa.." to my bro. =P

Do you watch TV?
Duh.

Have you ever seen the movie donniedarko?
Siao lol.

Ever been hunting?
Nope, hvnt & most probably wont ever.

Is marriage in your future?
Hmm..most probably, yeah heh. (:

When was the last time you said "I love you" and meant it?
said? I cant rmb...=x

What you should be doing right now?
Er..either editing photos or finish up doin' my new temp hehe =x

Do you have a nickname?
alot for diff. people. But da most common one is Lil (:

Do you believe in love at first sight?
Maybe? (:

Who is the youngest in the family?
my bro.

Is drugs free the way to be?
definitely.

Are you a heavy sleeper?
Sometimes heh.

Do you clean up nice?
I dont know..whad do you think? lol.

Last time you used a skateboard?
I think it was some time last year..

Where was the last place you slept besides your house?
Cant rmb =P

Ever run out of gas on the road?
Nope, cos i dont have a car. *hint hint* x)

Best movie you ever seen in the past two weeks?
Hvnt seen any movies for two wks except for Sinking Of Japan lol.

Do you think people who come up with brain dead quizzes are crying for help in some twisted way?
Er..no?

Last person you saw?
My bro, unfortunately bleh x)

Talked to on the phone?
Bibi :]

Hugged?
Jac (:

Person you texted?
Bibi.

Today
Date?
12 Nov 06.

Got any plans?
Nope.

Currently
Missing someone?
Yes? =x

Mood?
Normal.

True or False
I'm a morning person?
True.

I'm a perfectionist?
True.

I'm only a child?
False.

I'm currently in my pyjamas?
False.

I am online 24/7?
definitely false.

I'm very shy about the opposite gender?
Er..it depends heh.

I can be paranoid at times?
sometimes true lol. yeah, i can be a worrywart =P

I currently regret something i have done?
False.

I enjoy talking on the phone?
It depends..LOL =x

I have a lot to learn?
everyone does. Nobody knows enough of everything (:

I have a secret?
Always true.

The next few person to do this?
Anyone that's linked to me (:

HEHE.
once again, i'm late for blogging.
Shall try to reminsce as much as i can lol.
XP

7 NOV 06;
After Bridging, wenta Lido for Sinking Of Japan!
Yay! got to eat Nachos with CHEESE :D
Da movie was okay i guess..but whad I liked da most is da love story in it heh.
Oh ya, Chin Ying & I have this particular fave scene.
Kept acting it out after that lol XD
Da movie was in japanese but it had translations.

"Make love to me."

the guy turns away then says,
"No, not right now."

Is he nuts?!
imagine the look on da girl's face..

priceless. lol XD

I think it takes guts for a girl to say such a thing & then he replied liddat?!
how horrendous & humiliating that can be for any girl lol.

Anyways, i forgot why cannot bcos i was busy chuckling to myself.
Was thinking of da possible reason why..
wanted to tell jac budden had to tell her after da movie cos if not, i would be da only one bursting out in laughing fits in da theatre.
me & my imagination lol.
XD

After da movie,
Went out with Euphoria Rush :D
Me, sabrina, chin ying & jac.
Wenta Far East.
Shared with weiyi my fave kway teow ^^
After that, hanged around at Marina Sq.
& home :]

10 NOV 06;
After sch, went out with weiyi :D
Our mission was to check out for jobs!
Since i have free time, why not? heh (:
Accompanied her to Mystique to get her haircut first.
After that, Far East!
Bought same hairclips but diff colour heh.
Got to eat my fave kway teow again :D
hehe.
I think I saw Pugjelly..cos i recognised one of da guys..
I think only laa lol.
Bumped into daud, wei chong, jia hao, roger & bo en there.
so long nv see astroboi! lol.

Oh ya..& somebody too.
Which made me pissed off for awhile.

geez, da sight of you makes me puke.
disgusting freak, goin' around acting lyke you're some big king kong.
you definitely dont deserve da respect dey give you.

HMPH.

At that time,
da lyrics to Avril Lavinge's Complicated were in my head.
Go figure that one out yourself alrighty.
(:

Then off to Bugis!
Omg, there's so many things i wna get there.
It's getting better, more stuff.
Kept seeing this button-up shirt which kept reminding me of him.
GAH.
bittersweet reminiscent.

victoria concert hall.

11 NOV 06;
Went out for Hari Raya! :D
Met up with daud at CP.
After that, wenta Siti's hse to meet her & hazmi.
Waited for Hafiz for so long can T.T
while waiting for him, ate mee goreng.
delicious! heh :D

Off we went to Mdm Ida's hse.
Had to take two cabs cos five people.
met up at Kembangan mrt.
Walked to cikgu's hse in da rain.
Gah, stepped into puddles.
my poor ballerina shoes! lol.
it didnt help that it was white luhh.
bleh.

After that, wenta hazmi's hse.
Ate Spaghetti with chicken ^^
Then to CP, met up with brandon & wei chong.
hanged around dere awhile..
wei chong went off while all of us decided to go to daud's hse :D

His father bgt for us indian rojak & murtabak heh.
his sister thought i was...
*coughs*
LOL =x

Siti so naughty!
took some *ehem* photos lol XD
definitely wont post up those photos haha..
but will post up da rest soon (:
WHEEEEE, enjoy ytd ^^

20 nov.
sigh.

21-23 nov.
class chalet (:

18 dec.
Release of N-lvl results.
yikes! lol.

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Relinked: Ying Qi. Soul. My Friendster A/C. :]

LALALALALAAA~

:D
hehe.
=x

Because you strum all the right chords.
(:

p.s: thank you my dearest tooth fairy for this pic!
sweeeeet :D


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