Hmm.
Firstly, i want to apologise if i have been replying anyone's testimonials, texts, tags etc. more l8er than usual now...
cos i've been busy. school started already rmb?
so sawree alrighty.
but i always do get back to you eventually ryte?
heh. (:

Wah.
Normal acad. students who do well in their studies, conduct, yada yada dont hafta take their N-lvls.
They can straightaway proceed to sec 5.
so goooooood.
But this is only starting in 2007.
hmph..not fair. :/
oh wells. life's lyke that isn't it?

I dont know why.
But i'm starting to have doubts in some friendships.
yes, with a s.
It's lyke i dont feel da love as much as before.
Maybe i'm just being cynical.
maybe it's just a pessimistic feeling that will go away soon..

Oh yeah, i'm so glad i had lunch tday with kelly, ningzhi, jo & sin mei.
So long never hanged out with them.
Although we never really get to spend a lot of time together,
my friendship with kelly and ning zhi hasn't changed at all.
it's still going strong. and i hope it stays that way.
da two of you never fail to be there for me always.
i love y'all :]

Mr eyecandy.
Although i dont like like him anymore,
but i dont know why i'm still interested to be his friend.
Cos he seems lyke..a fun person?
someone worth getting to know..

But it's like i'm expected to make da first move?
Cos there was a moment where he turned to me,
expecting me to say hi..
but i..wasnt ready?
duno laa. but at least i smiled.
LOL

We've texted before.
But i guess it's just abt somethin' general..
but i dont dare to add him in msn.
hmm..we'll see yeah?
HEH.

High School Musical!
you gotta love da movie.
it so freaking coooool :D

my fave choreography is da basketball one.
Wow, obviously it's really thought out.
So challenging.
Oh oh. i love da songs :D
and that love story.

There was this scene where before they exhanged numbers,
they took their pic first.
I dont know why but i find that so COOL!
people should do that more often heh. :DD

dont forget to catch the encore telecast on
Disney channel, 7.30pm this sunday alrighty. :]

Singapore Idol.
The only reason i watched it this week was because of Gayle.
And guess whad?
She's IN !

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
I LOVE GAYLE :D



ain't she pretty? :]

i love her voice.
her personality.
her style.
there's so much to love about her!

And she's another living proof that
small people RULE ! :D
hehe.

She sang Beautiful Disaster.
One of my fave kelly clarkson songs (:

I shall leave you with da lyrics alrighty.
takecare :]

Beautiful Disaster - Kelly Clarkson

He drowns in his dreams
An exquisite extreme I know
He’s as damned as he seems
And more heaven than a heart could hold
And if I try to save him
My whole world would cave in
It just ain't right, Lord it just ain't right

[Chorus]
Oh and I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
He's such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful
Or just a beautiful disaster

He's magic and myth
As strong as what I believe
A tragedy with
More damage than a soul should see
But do I try to change him
So hard not to blame him
Hold on tight, baby hold me tight

[Chorus]

I'm longing for love and the logical
But he's only happy, hysterical
I'm waiting for some kind of miracle
Waiting so long
I've waited so long

He’s soft to the touch
But frayed at the end, he breaks
He’s never enough
And still he's more than I can take

[chorus]

He’s beautiful
Lord, he's so beautiful
He's beautiful

:]

Second love.
end.

yes, i'm not in love anymore.

Although it's over,
dont ask who or why.
cos i wont tell.

Only three people knew about it.
And it shall be my dirty little secret.
hee :]

But for the record..

Liked. crushed. infatuated. yada yada :p :
dont wanna bother counting that.
doesnt really matter does it?
(:

Fallen in love:
only twice.

Go figure :D

yays!
now i feel so light & free.
such a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders.
heavy heart no more :]

Now, i'm a happy happy girl :D

WHEEEEEEEE
all smiles ! :]

Second Love.

Like is.
crushes. infatuations.
nothing serious, just for fun.
it makes you blush.
cheeky.

Love?
is a whole different story.
it's something more real.
perhaps something that can only be identified with time & maturity.
something much more deeper. meaningful.
worthwhile.
true.

I may not be the one you love.
And it hurts to love you silently the way i do.

But what breaks my heart even more is to see you so down.
Even though you don't really show,
but i know.

Because i know you so well.
And the same goes for you too.

But my mission isn't to get you to love me back.
Because that's something only you can do.
My mission is to make you happy.

So i'll settle for less instead.
I shall not turn to isolation as a solution.
Because keeping myself away from you won't stop this feeling.
Because what kind of friend would i be if i walk away from you in your time of need?

I'll be the greatest friend i can ever be.
I'll be there for you,
with every step you take.
I'll put up with my heavy heart just to make you happy.
I'll be guiding you through your battles.
I'm not gonna leave your side.
I won't let you face this tide alone.

I will always be here.
I promise.

School started.
downside?
homework. tests. deadlines.
upside?
at least i get to see my friends regularly now.
HEH :D

Monday, 26 JUNE.

First day of school.
it was okay. nothing big.
i was kinda having a mood.
with myself that is. depressed? dont know.
Which was weird cos i'm not da kinda person to have moods.
I guess it was because i was dragging myself around with a heavy heart attached.
dont want to elaborate on that.
All i know is that i wanted to get everything over with.
I just wanted to make it through the day.

But there was a moment where i was a bit cheered up.
Thanks to jac & siti, that infectious laugher.
XD

your phonecall really made my day.
:]

Tuesday, 27 JUNE.

today was definitely better.
I was really cheered up by the antics of BFL & darhling during physics.
:DD

and my day was pretty much good after that.
heh.

Was tested for picture discussion.
feedback?
good use of vocab. discussed well.
everything GOOD :D
the only expectation left?
more organization.

I dont know why but i was pretty nervous than usual during the picture discussion.
maybe i felt..unprepared? hmm.
but i did well anyways.
so YAY ME ! :DD
hehe.

friendship problem resolved.
(:

a burden lightened.
only one more to go.

What Women Want.
It has become one of my fave movies !
it's soooo sweeet (:

If only men really knew.
heh.

I've realised somethin'.
Usually when i have a crush, infatuation yada yada,
it doesn't really matter to me who i tell it to.
Cos it's just like.

I've only been in love once.
And maybe now..
ha, i shall not finish that sentence.
LALALALAAAAA. x)

I've been keeping somethin' to myself the past few days.
a secret.
It's been eating me up inside slowly..
day by day.

I tried to figure out who i could turn to cos..
sometimes secrets has consequences.
And i couldnt really turn to the person i tell everything to.
It's so strange cos i can tell that person everything,
even down to my deepest thoughts..
except one secret.
just one.
It's like..
i needed another escape.
or somethin.

I'm so glad i had that much-needed talk with a friend today.
i realised somethin'.
Although she's not the first to know when i like someone...
but she's always the first to know whom i've fallen in love with.
And that happened only once and..

full-stop. (:

lucky you, friend.
HAHA :D

oh yeah, she also mentioned somethin' which made sense to me.
" I treasure only those who treasure me. "

Never really thought of that.
heh.

I shall leave you with some lyrics.
It's a very slow song..
hence, the lyrics instead of da song.
to me, it's simple yet meaningful and deep?
i guess cos it makes you think.
hmm.
anyways,

*splat*
NAH ! :D

Life Is Wonderful - Jason Mraz

It takes a crane to build a crane
It takes two floors to make a story
It takes an egg to make a hen
It takes a hen to make an egg
There is no end to what I'm saying

It takes a thought to make a word
And it takes some words to make an action
It takes some work to make it work
It takes some good to make it hurt
It takes some bad for satisfaction

La la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Al la la la la

It takes a night to make it dawn
And it takes a day to make you yawn brother
And it takes some old to make you young
It takes some cold to know the sun
It takes the one to have the other

And it takes no time to fall in love
But it takes you years to know what love is
It takes some fears to make you trust
It takes those tears to make it rust
It takes the dust to have it polished

life is wonderful
life goes full circle
life is so full of..
life is so rough
life is wonderful
life goes full circle
life is our love

It takes some silence to make sound
It takes a loss before you found it
And it takes a road to go nowhere
It takes a toll to make you care
It takes a hole to make a mountain

life is wonderful
life goes full circle
life is wonderful
life is meaningful
life is wonderful
life it is...so... wonderful
It is so meaningful
It is so wonderful
It is meaningful
It is wonderful
It is meaningful
It goes full circle
Wonderful
Meaningful
Full circle
Wonderful.

:]

WHEEEEEEEEEEEE !




High School Musical.
-can't wait to watch it !

there's so much hype about it.
On tv, radio & in da Lime mag..

It's on Disney Channel, Ch 33.
Sunday, 7.30 pm .
Go watch it ! :]

cant wait cant wait!
x)

Now i'm off to watch What Women Want.
HEH !

Ok. This shall be the very last time i'm blogging abt this.
Cos i wish to put this all behind.

Reasons why i think it wouldn't be the same anymore...
1. you blogged abt me.
-yes, freedom of speech i understand.
but in terms of respect, i dont.

2. you said i betrayed you.
-i dont understand in which part of this situation does the meaning betrayed comes in.

3. you said now you know who your true friends are.
-you said i'm untrue. if i'm not one of your true friends anymore, then how can it be the same as before?

4. i value love more than friendship.
- i think i've made my point clear in the previous entry.
And you've understood it.

If you had known me well enough as a friend,
you'll know that you've touched on the very things that are very particular to me.

1. respect.
2, 3 ,4. accusing me of things i never did.

there. that's why.

the date.
it never did clash with 18 june.
it was originally on da 17.

And about me sharing my secrets with about maybe four friends only,
Before four, it was five.
you were one of 'em.
you used to be.

I don't want you to be sad or anything.
we're just not that close anymore.
you haven't lose me yet.
Cos i'm definitely still your friend.
Maybe with time, this will all change.
who knows.
anything is possible okie?

(:

Wenta da dentist tday.
guess whad?
it's da most pleasant dental visit ever!
yes, EVER ! :D

know why?
Cos the dentists are young ppl.
and their advice doesnt sound lyke a lecture.
y'know that typical naggy kind you wud hear from someone way older.

It actually sounds lyke advice.
yes, real advice.
Who agrees for having younger dentists
- say I !

*hears background chorus*
I !

XD

And it was faster than usual too.
the dentist said my teeth was clean.
it's just a matter of whether i want to clean it thoroughly or not.
LOL

after sucha visit,
duh -of cos i will :D

LALALALALAAAAA.

LOVE.
- on hold.

I wont lie to myself.
thats why i see & say it as it is.
and i just think it wouldn't be the same anymore.

"perhaps you value love more than friendship."
perhaps not?
it had nothing to do with love at all.
The thing just happened to be planned way before your date.
I guess you're connecting it to love bcos mr eyecandy was coming along too.
But I never went out with him.
i'm not even in love right now.
maybe. i dont know.
I dont expect people to know if i like someone now,
my status etc...
Cos things are not always constant.
And I usually share this sort of thing with maybe about four of my friends only.

but everyone is entitled to their own opinions.
so you're free to judge me however you want.
Maybe with time, you'll know me better.
And yes, i hope for the better too.

:]

UPDATED:
Profile ;
5th Star.
Wishlist.
Love List. [disclaimer? added. and hint: cy & sab. (:]

How appropriate.
Chin Ying & Sabrina are small too..
oops.
Read the following to know what i'm talking abt heh.

When I grow up, i wanna be like them.
:]

AUNDREA.







from Making The Band 3.

MELODY.

from So You Think You Can Dance.

Why?
They're small.
But when they dance & perform,
they're lyke dynamite.

Not convinced?
See one of 'em in action then.
Click da following link:

Aundrea Mix.

They're living proof that
small people rule.
HEH :D

here's another example:


grr. that 1 hour wait.










peek-ka -boo! x)





Now, dont cha wish you were small?
HAHA :D

CHANGES:
photography section -removed.
SHIFTED & UPDATED:
5th star.
Love List. [hint: xue'e, michelle. dudes -sj, jt, daud.]
Wishlist.

Wow.
haven't been blogging for quite awhile.
i duno where to start haha.

Let's see...

Wednesday; 14 JUNE 06.
Went out with Jeremy. Jac. Jason. Nick.
Notice there's 3 Js? haha.
I'm was so glad jt came along for some reason..

We wenta lots of places.
Areas around town.
Esplanade, Marina Square..
cant rmb the rest :p

Esplanade's roof-top.
hmm...interesting.
almost made out there.
HAHA :D
shan't elaborate on that lol.

Marina Square.
Love da place mann.
So many sports shops! :DD
While Jac, Jason & Nick went to Carl's Jr,
me & jt went shopping! LOL XD

went around to look for handbags & shirts.
Jt bought a red & black puma shirt.
Oh yea, we saw this killer top.
It's so damn nice -but expensive?
Jt's first reaction upon seeing the top:
wow.
XD

After that,we went inside this restricted place...
the pier near there or somethin'?
duno why they closed it down.
but it's so eerie & dark.

We also went into this place...
it seemed deserted.
a bit scary...i felt lyke i was in a resident evil movie haha.

I guess i could say that day was an adventure.
so much exploring done heh.

Oh yea, before we met up with the others
There was a woman who approached jt & me.
I thought she was asking for directions..
but as it turns out, she's a modelling agent.
She gave a name card & took down our numbers..
Got a call back audition but we never went..
Cos most likely you must pay for portfolio yada yada ryte?
so yea.
HEH.

Friday; 16 JUNE 06.
Went out with Jeremy. Jac. Xue'e. Zhan Yi.
For some reason, we were super duper high that day lol.
kept laughing & laughing non-stop.
And we really did practically ROFL XD
Zhan Yi started it! haha.
His head made contact with da floor.
Next was jt.

My turn only came when we took neos.
Jt kept teasing xue'e.
I really cdnt take it, i was laughing on da floor lol.
Basically jt was da joker of da day laa.
He really made everyone laugh XD

Oh yea, the neoprints.
There's only one sane picture unfortunely lol.
But it's not that sane afterall..

cos jt had his foot up & he puckered his lips XD

X-MEN 3.
definitely a must-watch movie.
it's so freaking cool :DD
Rogue seems to have put on weight tho =X
And we stayed backed after da credits for da extra scene miss kuck told us abt.
it was very short but..yea, there's definitely another sequel.
go watch it ! :]



ICE-MAN ! *faints*
haaaa, my hero :D
eh wait. spiderman's my hero.
so i guess he's my scandal laa lol ;D
he's so cool. (pun intended.)
XD

everytime arc angel's on screen,
jac wud nudge me.
everytime ice-man's on screen,
I made kissy sounds. XD

Sunday; 18 JUNE 06.
went shopping :]
yay! got myself a new billabong handbag.
straightaway used it after my purchase haha.
thanks to Nana for da $20 voucher!
paid at a cheaper price :D
Got to eat Brownie Temptation! - my favourite ice-cream.
And my favourite kway teow at Far East! :D
Watched X-Men 3 again.
accompanied my bro x)

Okie dokie.
i having problems uploading pics ryte nw..
so i'll upload them asap okie?
takecare! loves :D

UPDATED:
Love List. [hint: Siti & Kelly]
Links. [hint: Kelly & Qiao Li]
:]

i've never really been a big fan of change.
oh wells.
for better. or worse.

JUZ-B !
omg, i cant believe they're out.
It really was a tough decision.
Both qinobe and juz-b are good.
but i lyke juz-b better -duh ;D

At least they left us with a rendition of Kiss Goodbye ! :DD
When they sang, i squealed.
Okay, screamed actually.
1st scream; my bro told me to shut up.
2nd scream; he screamed back.
XD

Gosh, i miss so many people.
but i cant list it out cos then i might miss some names heh.

So...
I miss you!
yes, the one reading now.
you you you.
must miss me too okie?
heh (:

IssimHIM.

HEH.
>.<''

i'm not online for one day.
just ONE friggin' day.
and this sorta thing happens.

And i spent my friday designing this picture of us.
"Love....& Liyana"
And i already had a plan laid out this week.
just you & me.
But i guess my efforts has gone down the drain.
Cos now, i cannot post the picture up anymore.

First time. In my history.
I'm hurt. I'm discreetly blogged abt.
by a FRIEND.

Over such a teeny, weeny thing.
an outing. which is not even planned by me.
that's why i have no right to invite whoever i want.
I'm speechless. I don't know what to say.
I cried straight away when i read it.

Before i was online,
I thought it was done & over with already.
that's optimism.
But my pessimistic side saw this coming, actually.
Still, i believed optimism.

All i know is that I'd never turn my back on anybody.
any friend. even if they've done somethin' to hurt me.
Cos i know people can change.

I just...
darn.

I'm not gonna let this bring me down.
Cos I cannot please everyone.

UPDATED; Designs.
Relinked: Syafiqah. Elaine. :]
Added Links: Samantha ! :D

Got back my report book today.
-lyke finally -.-''
I scored 12 for my best 3 subjects.
So by right we should get below 10 ryte?

Must. Aim. For. 3.
>.<''

Comments?
Liyana is unassuming and polite to her teachers but she needs to put in more effort in her weaker subjects.
HEH :D

I wna aim for p1 for english.
Cos i only gt p2.
And i think i can do sooo much better for combined sciences and poa. Maths, gotta have more confidence in it.

Thought about somethin' today.
Haha, that sounds stoopid.
I mean of cos i have thoughts for da whole day.
We constantly think ryte? haha.
What i meant is lyke reaallly thought abt somethin' today which made me realise somethin'.
But dont' wna blog it; too personal :p

Jac was so mad at me today.
Mad as in funny mad haha XD
I couldn't help laughing at my own behaviour too lol.
All you have to know is that it has somethin' to do with him heh.

I thought he went home already.
Suddenly, he emerges in da canteen.
And then, we bumped into him again.
But second time wasn't really coincidential.
He already saw us from the 3rd floor.
Don't know how he managed to reach 1st floor so fast.
did he actually ran? x)

Fate meh?
i can't help but to be skeptical abt it.
>.<''

WHEEEEEEE
I don't hafta come back to school next week!
no offense and irony intended to others. :]

FINALLY.
i've found the song that's been stuck in my head.
At first i thought it was by Fall-out Boy cos the voice sounds so similiar to theirs.
But i searched for the lyrics.
It's I Write Sins Not Tragedies by PANIC! At The Disco.
yes, with an exclamation.

Watched da vid. it's a bit freaky.
Cos the peeps are lyke circus people.
And i don't lyke clowns. :p

click da link to watch it.

I Write Sins Not Tragedies

Other recommended songs:
Muse - Time Is Running Out
The Kooks - Naive

Singapore Idol.
I actually did voted.
Cos i think the girls really deserve the oppurtunity and they're good.
Gayle and Rahimah.
Gayle didn't went in.
Instead i-don't-know-whats-her-name got in.
But at least she can carry a tune.
(:

Rahimah got in!
yay :D
i really lyke her.
so emo. so punk.
she has her own identity.
Now that's cool :D

Comment on my new design pretty please ! :D
I painstakingly did it.
The colouring part.
Kinda more to da retro side huhs?
Grooovay!

XD

Hear the music before the song is over.

It's been a while since i last turned to someone for advice.
Cos I rarely open up to people.
And I'm so used to bottling up.

Thanks carebear for always being there.
I don't know what I would do without you.
:]

don't rain on my parade.

Everytime I look at you ;
Baby, I see something new.
It takes me higher than before.
It makes me want you more.

- Bon Jovi's All About Lovin' You.

I dont know why.
When you're exactly there,
right in my face.
I turn to silent mode.
I dont know how to react.
And all I can hope for is that my silence is enough to save me from those moments.
That it's enough to show you there's a spark there.

With each passing day,
somehow, i feel that i'm getting closer.
Reaching my destination.
Where I'll drop off at the stop where I've been wanting to be
-you.

So, am I there yet?
(:

don't let today be your first and last goodbye.

seventeen06² :]