Black Locket

"The quality of your life is in direct proportion with the amount of uncertainty that you can live with."
-Anthony Robbins.

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I shall blog before I lose the feeling.
haha.

My Saturday; 12 July 08.
definitely somethin' to blog about.
I felt that it was an emotional & impactful day for me.
All because of two situations.
A day of full of tears...

I actually left my house, in tears.
due to some personal reasons.
& it was embarassing. It didn't help that I was alone.
Cos from Seng Kang all da way to Jurong East (which is lyke a 1 hour plus journey right?), my tears kept flowing, flowing & flowing non-stop.
Even music, my bestest companion in life, couldn't console me.
I tried to hide it by sitting & walking most of the time with my head down.
I seriously didn't want people to notice me at that point of time.
I'm so glad I had tissues with me.
I almost used up the whole packet.
Left with a piece unused.

I'm not sure if I've cried this much before.
But I swear I've never cried in public lyke this before.
so embarassing ):

I see you standing there, wanting more from me.
And all I can do is...try.

I just want you to know I'm really trying my best to be the best that I can be.
There's only so much I can take, do & I hope you understand.
I'm sorry if I'm too busy sometimes, I'm too caught up with a lot of things, I'm not around that much, I don't do things on time, I'm not able to help you or fulfill all your wishes.
But just so you know, I'm trying.
I just want you to be happy & proud of me.

Thanks bibi for you-know-what (:

After I was ok, I met up with Amanda, Apple & Mr Baron to pick up the outfits for our performence.
Then we proceeded to ITE Clementi for Vocalist Training.
After that, we had a gathering for Mr Baron.
I'm so glad I was there.

Mr Baron is a very inspiring man.
A chinese muslim.
He's leaving cos he's gonna help out people in Bangladesh.
It's a pity I only got to know him for a short period of time.
I'm forever grateful to him for giving me so much opportunities even when I just joined the class.
The gathering was filled with fun, laughter & tears.
From there, I saw how much he had done for the seniors & juniors.
How much he meant to them, how much he did for them.
He's definitely a great man.
& I hope he'll find his soulmate.
If not in this life now, then in heaven. (:

I also can't believe that day I even had a thought to quit Vocalist Training.
That was sorta one of the reasons why I cried earlier on.
Because I just wanted to solve everything. I seriously didn't want to resort to that tho'.
I just can't imagine quitting the class when I've received opportunities from it & it really improved my singing ability a lot.
I just can't imagine my life without singing.

It's sad tho' that Mr Baron won't get to see us girls perform on 29 July.
The first-ever slot I received from him.
But I promise to give it my all.
& I'll stay in Vocalist Training class for as long as I can (:

I think I need to write him a letter heh.

Anyways, so there.
My Saturday.
It started with tears and ended with tears too, but the sorta good kind heh.

My immune system hasn't been good lately.
Had flu previously. Vomitted two times in the morning today.
(which I think is due to stomach flu; my stomach keeps doin' backflips, turns or whatever you call it from time to time)
And now, I'm having a fever. Go figure.
Blehhhhh.

That's also why I have time to blog today.
skipped NDP choir which meant I could finally watch an episode of So You Think You Can Dance heh :P

But no worries, I'll be well by tomorrow, hopefully.
(:

Positivity. Optimism. Lots of plain water.
Food. Sleep. my favourite ITE Bishan's mango juice!
the ingredients to me getting well.
heh :D

Oh yeah, I've been feeling so lousy lately.
But somethin' really cheered me up today.
I did really well for my TPS test! hehe :D
I expected to pass but didn't expect to do very well.
I'm relieved that my schedule & the state that I've been lately is not affecting my grades.
heh.

My mom now has a macbook.
& she got it at a really good price, it's ridiculous. lol.
boooo. I want my own notebook.
Shall add that to my wishlist haha :P

I'll update with some CHEESE :D & a video soon.
It's a dance battle between Asyraf, Aidil & Zul during the gathering for Mr Baron.
hilarious haha.

Okie dokie. Take care everyone!
all smiles & much lurrrrrrve (:

P.S. After discovering my RoKr phone, Mr Baron wants to change his phone to E8 too!
haha :D