Black Locket: December 2008

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Don't think too much.
You'll think your entire life away.
Just close your eyes and follow your heart.
I promise it knows the way.

Beautiful Mess
by Jason Mraz

You've got the best of both worlds
You're the kind of girl who can take down a man,
And lift him back up again
You are strong but you're needy,
Humble but you're greedy
And based on your body language,
your shouted cursive I've been reading
Your style is quite selective,
Though your mind is rather reckless
Well I guess it just suggests
That this is just what happiness is

And what a beautiful mess this is
It's like picking up trash in dresses

Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you write
Kind of turn themselves into knives
And don't mind my nerve you could call it fiction
But I like being submerged in your contradictions dear
'Cause here we are, here we are

Although you were biased I love your advice
Your comebacks they're quick
And probably have to do with your insecurities
There's no shame in being crazy,
Depending on how you take these
Words I'm paraphrasing this relationship we're staging

And what a beautiful mess this is
It's like picking up trash in dresses

Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you say
Kind of turn themselves into blades
And kind and courteous is a life I've heard
But it's nice to say that we played in the dirt oh dear
Cause here we are, Here we are
Here we are [x7]
We're still here
What a beautiful mess this is
It's like taking a guess when the only answer is yes

Through timeless words, and priceless pictures
We'll fly like birds, out of this earth
And times they turn, and hearts disfigure
But that's no concern when we're wounded together
And we tore our dresses, and stained our shirts
But it's nice today, oh the wait was so worth it

Sunday, December 28, 2008

One of the toughest parts of life is deciding when to give up and when to try harder.

Yesterday night I was lying on my bed, waiting for myself to fall asleep so that I can escape from reality & go to lalaland.
A lot of thoughts were running through my head which actually happens most of the time.
Sometimes I wished I didn't think too much; it's not good for me sometimes.

I was on the verge of giving up on something that really meant a lot to me.
Because it seemed like no matter how hard I try, it seemed like I was goin' nowhere with it.
I felt like I was in it...alone.
Everyday I wished & hoped with all my heart that nothing would go wrong; that everything was goin' to be alright.
Sometimes the things that make you happy the most also have the power to make you feel so down when it goes wrong.
Strange how these things work, no?

It's amazing how sleeping can make it all go away and make you feel so much better the next day.
And indeed today, things are so much better it seems.
I just wished things can go back the way it was, just like the first time.
But you can't have everything I guess.
So I'm just very grateful with how it is right now.
All I can do now is to hope for the best.

Moving on...
Things haven't being goin' well at home.
It's been shaky I guess.
I don't like the tension.
I hope it'll be alright soon.

I hate the insecurities I have.
Sometimes it has the tendency to take control over my thoughts.
Then I'll come up with some stupid scenarios in my head.
It stays in my head & then when things get better, I'll forget about it.
I need more positivity right now cos situations haven't been that good lately.
Thank god I have two extremes; one, my very sunny optimistic self & the other, my very dark pessimistic self.
Usually my pessimistic thoughts, I keep it to myself.
So nobody really knows about 'em except when I really need to let it out to somebody.

I don't ask for much.
I just want support, assurance, tender loving care & attention.

On a happier note, I'm very thankful & grateful for the opportunities that I've been receiving.
I've been busy practicing for the upcoming performances that are coming next year.
I also received other opportunities which I have to reconsider because of commitment & time.
I promise I'll try to be more confident of myself, believe in myself more & aim higher.
I will give everything my all. (:

Wow, this has been a very personal entry.
I feel much lighter now hehe! :]

Anyways, I'm gonna do a special entry soon heh.
(:

Ooh! I got lucky & won tixs to the Marina Bay 08/09 countdown @ The Float!
Gonna go & collect it tmr before my vocal practice.
I'm gonna spent my last day 0f 2008 with him!
It's really been awhile since I spent some alone time with him, just the two of us.
It really means a lot to me that he's gonna spent it with me.
I think he knows how badly I wanted him to go cos I told him about it immediately when he was still in Sydney hehe.

I shall end here before this gets too long haha.
take care & much love.
(:

Monday, December 22, 2008

"Anyone can be passionate, but it takes real lovers to be silly."
-Rose Franken.

I haven't seen him for 2 weeks already.
He's in Sydney, busy with the kangaroos & koalas hmph :P
booooo. faster come back laaa ):

I miss talking to you on the phone.
I miss hearing your voice, your laugh.
I miss you putting up with my rantings.
I miss our little squabbles.
I miss our inside jokes.
I miss being around you.
I miss your squeezy hugs.
I miss singing with you.
I miss your face.
I miss the way you rant on & stumble on your words.
I miss listening to you sing your version of Soulmate,
emphasizing on mrs lovable.
I miss telling you about my day.
I miss the way you always end up making my day.
I miss my soulmate, mr lovable.

bottomline:
I miss you.

Thank god for Facebook & bumper stickers.
hehe.

Saturday, December 20, 2008

Cracks in the concrete are just reminders that you fall apart no matter how strong you are.

LINKS
Added: Shahira. Erika.
Relinked: Tasha. Nat. Fiona.

Dear bloggie, sorry I've been neglecting you.
Although I've haven't been blogging, you know I try my best to make time & take care of you by changing the blog song, updating the countdown etc.
Which shows that I really love you.
& you never left my mind :]

Sorry, must apologize to my dear bloggie first before I officially start blogging fo' real.
hehe :P

hello hello hellll-loooo!~
Sorry I hvn't been updating.
I know, more than one month alr.
guilty as charged heh.

Altho' it's actually da school holidays already, I hvn't really had my holiday yet.
Been having commitments back-to-back this week everyday.
Broke down da last two days cos I had too much stuff goin' on.
But I'm alright now.
Everyone has their breaking point at some point ryte? heh.

I'm waiting for a weekday whereby I have nothing to do at all!~
So that I can stay @ home da whole day, relax, don't need to think too much, watch movies, tv etc.
I hope that'll be next week.
I need at least one weekday-off badly ):

Ok, enough of me ranting.
Shall get to other stuff now heh.

What I've been up to lately:
Vocal classes
Dance sessions
School Projects

The reason I'm free for the first half of tday is bcos vocal class was cancelled.
boooooo. bummer. I love vocal d class.
I always have lotsa fun there heh.
Ooh, we have a new vocal instructor alr!
Shall elaborate on that l8er :]

Anyways, we're currently busy practicing for our upcoming performances.
There's a lot to come next year!
wheeeeeee!~ can't wait :DDDDD

Oh yeah, another thing is whenever I go to class with make-up or dress up really nice, they never fail to question me.
-.-'' lol.

Hannah Montana got the best of both worlds whattt!
ahahahahaha :P

Dance sessions.
Dapheny is overseas so she won't be around this year.
it's not da same without her ):

School projects.
So far, I think my group's been progressing a lot heh.
I love Ravvivi!
we work hard & play hard together :D
Now I thinking about the masala meal I had with Reshi & Tijah @ Komala's ytd...
yum-yum lol :P

Let's talk about Marketing!
Have you noticed Ikea ads lately?
One of 'em was somethin' lyke...

"Do men walk around their bedroom naked more than women?

Find out this thursday."

Somethin' liddat laa haha.
I love this kinda ads.
Those which keeps you guessing.
& especially those who are not afraid to talk about such stuff openly.

Their ads are based on their everyday life at home survey.
check out their survey findings!
It's v. interesting.
click click!

Ikea Survey

Ooh, there's another one!
Did you noticed there's stickers pasted at some bus-stops?
The ones with the pac-man lyke character on it.
"Change Creates" & "Create Change"
check it out here!
click click!

U Create Change

oh yeah, I had some sort of rashes for arnd 2 1/2 days.
My mom says maybe I'm allergic to somethin' I ate.
I was trying to recall whad I've been eating that time...
it was down to either LJS's breakfast meals or school food.
I suspect it's LJS, maybe.
My worst nightmare would be that I'm allergic to...

CHESSE!

AAAAHHHHHHH :O
choy choy choy! lol :P

Speaking of cheese,
it's time for CHEESE :D

Saturday, 13 December 2008.

3 Es In 1 D... Again!

Another Saturday that was gr8 from start to finish.
Vocal Class. Movie d8 with bestie. Clubbing @ Le Baroque.

Dalilah :D

After my vocal class, straightaway wenta Vivo & met up with bestie for our movie d8.
We watched Nick & Norah's Infinite Playlist!
I love the movie cos it's about music soulmates.
The movie seemed long probably cos of their journey to the diff. places.
It's a bumpy ride indeed haha.
It's quite funny too.
& the gays are super hott & cute!!! seriously.
You should go check it out.

Altho' we were kinda in a rush,
I had a nice time with bestie.
Short but sweet heh :]

Tasha bestie :D

Met up with chin ying & wenta Admiralty to meet my mom @ Fifi's birthday party.

Chin ying. Lil. Fifi. Lily. Ros.

Then we made our way to Chijmes's Le Baroque!

This is my vocal instructor, Aishah.
She works there as a singer for True Colours.
She's awesome! :D
Whenever I sing Soulmate, I'll think of how she sings it so I can hit all the right notes.
it's an inspiration thing heh :]

Ooh, & on that day she sang Soulmate & dedicated it to me! hehe.
& she also didn't forget to mention da Hannah Montana part
-.-'' lol.

Saturday, 6 December 2008.

Xmas Deco @ Orchard

Went out with the vocal peeps after class cos we wanted to support Shah @ the Asianbeats competition.
Since we had to wait for his turn, we wenta eat KFC first.
But we ended up missing him anyways. ahahahaha!
Nvm luhh, we were in the vicinity so...can feel our support in your heart or somethin' yeah.
LOL :P

Took pictures but I'll post 'em up when I get it from dalilah heh.
*hint hint* hehe :P

I was really fascinated by the xmas deco @ Orchard!
They're so amazing & pretty.
Go check 'em out before it's too late!

Chicken Dallas

Received a forwarded email regarding this restaurant.
It was said to be nicer, cheaper than KFC blah blah blah.
So we decided to check it out.
It's alright luhh...not bad haha.
But I still prefer KFC's chicken :]
& this restaurant still needs a lot of improvements to be done heh.
Forgot when was this.
But I remember the people I went with :]
Lily. Ros. Syahmir...Syahmir's dad haha.