i'm still trying to figure out who my real friends are.
yea, still.
pfft.

Of cos there are people who i know are definitely friends with me bcos of true friendship.
lyke kelly dearie (:
(must list only one if not must list everyone than if dont have their name y'know whad happens heh.)
but that list is lyke only a few y'know.
=X

maybe i'm being cynical.
maybe i'm not.
sometimes I dont know whad to believe anymore.

AAAAHHHHHH
when am I going to get my new specs mommy?
=/

far away (:

went out with sab, xue and chin ying.
(:

yay!
took neoprints with xue'e fer da first time heh.
:D

got to eat my fave ice-cream ;
Brownie Temptation ! :DD

Bumped into my kuzzie and kelly dearie.
(dont think i dont know whad you were up to ar hahaha XD )

yesterday ;

dont know why people think i dread my photography duties.
thats not me, it's sab laa.
Cos it's interesting.
And sometimes I get to witness an event which other students dont.
plus, it's free (:
(yea even free FOOOD! :DD)

ANYWAYS XD ;
ytd was da vball competition held at Toa Payoh Stadium.
Air-conditioned mann.

Our B Boys were so macho, so shuai.
I was practically swooning can.
*faints*
XD

they emerged as da champs.
woo hoo.
congrats! :D

wrote a letter to someone.
and i cried.
but it helps; letting it all out
(:

beyond understandable .

dont rain on my parade.

somethin's coming back.
it comes and goes whenever it lykes.
it's somethin' i dont usually tell anyone cos i think it's stupid.
But it's bothering me.
alot.

Bottling it up to myself is a torture.
I'm stuck in this suckfest.
which seems never-ending.

i was doin just fine.
picking up the pieces and finding myself again.
till someone said somethin today.
now i'm back to square one.
:(



where's tasha?
:(

WISHLIST UPDATED.

yes yes.
my long-awaited entry.
XD

i apologise fer the tardiness heh.
busy busy bumblebee
>.<''

15 FEB 06; Wed
belated vday date with fiona darling (:
Cathay Cineleisure.
ate Pasta Mania and was forced to eat ALOT.
XD

played Air Hockey.
never underestimate me cos that will be your biggest mistake.
MWAHAHAHA XD

Got to eat my all-time favourite ice-cream;
Dairy Queen's Brownie Temptation ! :DD

18 FEB 06; Sat
went out with my mom, ella and nana.
took ALOT of pics cos nana kept snapping and snapping non-stop lol.
yepp, it isnt me haha! :D
went to suntec but cdnt find a suitable specs frame fer me.
intend to go out again with ella and my mom on wed (:

19 FEB 06; Sun
went to an appointment with a management agency.
a guy called me, got my no. from da Sg Idol auditions.
imagined the euphoria rush i experienced when i received his call!
XD

Basically he explained to my mom and I whad it was all about.
really hope my mom will consider it.
thinking of asking my dad to pay half of da fees.
there'll be professional photoshoots, call you up for auditions, plus the various courses provided.
they work very closely with Mediacorp.
I REALLY want it.
hope i can get it.
*fingers crossed*
>.<''

oh yea, i miraculously passed my maths test.
uh-huh.
yes gasp people, gasp.
XD

blah.
so many controversies revolving around me.
=/

i'm still trying to find the cheerful girl i knew back then.
the one frequently mistaken to be carefree.
it's better that way.
yes, nowadays things have definitely taken a new turn.
i'm still smiling and all that.
but it's not enough.
there's still somethin' holding me back.
hope i'll go back to my cheerful and confident ways
(:

OH OH OH!
and guess whad?
i'm going to da Fort Minor Concert!
AAAHHHHHHHH
*boogies*
XD

Mike Shinoda, here i come! :DD

WISHLIST STATUS:
ONE DOWN! :DD

okay.
i'm a day late fer this post but whad da heck.

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY! :D



thanks for all da gifts!
so sweetttt-
HEH (:

ate all da chocs alrdy.
hehe
=X

oh yea, when i first came to school
i was greeted by....


A RELIENT K CD ! :DD

AAAAHHHHHHH
my belated belated belated belated belated belated belated belated belated burfdae prezzie.
thank you kelly dearie, ning zhi, jo & bibi.
:D

LALALALALA
XD

oh yea, here's somethin' which i think is sweet
(:

Give 11 real roses and 1 fake rose to your girlfriend.
And tell her that your love will only end when the last rose withers.

geddit?
so sweet can.
anyways, shall end here.
till then, sayonara (:

The red extinguishes the hope that the green ignites.

BGM: Beautifully Broken - Ashlee Simpson

should have let go of my hair.
should have worn make-up.
should have, should have.
It's too late.

I guess i looked too young for it.
oh wells.
at least an interviewer adored me.
heh.

"so cute!"
>.<''

But why should i make the effort to make myself look matured for others?
When others WANT to look YOUNGER.
yea?
(:

And at least i know i'm strong enough to stand in line from 8.30am to 8pm.
That's lyke around around 11 hours and 30 freaking mins.
I only sat down twice.
And ate 1 meal wich was at 5 plus in da afternoon.
And never wenta da loo.
XD

i was so bummed.
tears kept streaming down my cheeks.
even when i was in da mrt.
i was alone some more.
all i could do was look down and hoped that people didn't noticed.

i've never cried when i don't pass an audition before.
but i guess this was somethin' big and i really wanted it...

but i'm gna be okay.
thanks fer all da support and encouragement.
(:

it seems like yesterday i didn't know how hard i could cry.
it feels like tomorrow i will not get back
but i will try; wipe the tears from my eyes.
every moment i'm filled with hope cos i get another chance.

and i believe i will.

p.s: thanks to the girl who consoled me after the audition.
see you in two years! :DD

Changed Links: beverly .

HELLLOO ! :D

hvnt been updating lately.
i'm quite okay now but still busy busy busy.
>.<''

luckily, there isn't homework today.
fell asleep just now.
nowadays, i fall asleep so easily.
been so dead beat i guess.

anyways, good luck to
-tasha (bestie :D)
-shi jie (carebear XD)
-samantha (my dancing ou xiang! :D)

& also to my fellow seniors who are taking their O lvl results tmr!
:DD

SATURDAY .
-TWO days more.

AAAAHHHHHHHHH

p.s: heys to you-know-whos. if you can come on sat, pls do alrighty.
hope i dont get the nerves >.<''
wish me luck! :D <333333

Been feeling lousy lately.
VERY.

I was late fer school tday.
!#$@&*^
the last thing i need is another problem.

so many things to do,
so little time.
>.<''

but i guess cheerleading tday perked me up a bit.
yea, it sorta helped.
My face was burning hot from all da shouting.
XD

i forgot that i didn't ate for my break tday.
-.-''

yes.
that's how blah i am right now.
help!
=X

get myself together;
or i shall watch me fall apart .

Suffocation;
it's getting harder to breath.

I'm reallllllly feeling da pressure to perform.
There's so much to be done.
The expections to live up to.

And the audition's on 11 feb.
which is lyke really soon.
next week to be precise.
hope i'll have the time to practice.
not to mention da tests nxt week.
oh yea, and i hate deadlines.
=/

grr.
i wanna scream my lungs out.


AAAAAHHHHHHHHH
save me.
pretty please.

i'm glad it's gna be da weekends.
i need a break.
:(

Added Links: Weiqi :DD

i thought to myself tday that i had to blog.
but i kinda forgot on whad.
=X
heh.

oh yea.
thanks sab fer da belated, belated, belated, belated, belated, belated burfdae prezzie! :D
XD

i'm so happie fer somebody.
and i'm HORNET that i'm da first in xms to know abt it.
HEH (:

i guessed myself one lehs.
so clever ryte.

approve approve!

XD

BLEH.
i'm stuck with so much stuff to do.
i'm lyke swarmed.
busy busy bumblebee.
=/

WHEEE
gna do my new specs during da weekends.
yay! lyke finally.
cant wait!
haha :D

There's America's Next Top Model and The Simple Life tday.
shall not fall asleep and miss out on da episodes lyke i did last week.
=P