Don't think too much.
You'll think your entire life away.
Just close your eyes and follow your heart.
I promise it knows the way.

Beautiful Mess
by Jason Mraz

You've got the best of both worlds
You're the kind of girl who can take down a man,
And lift him back up again
You are strong but you're needy,
Humble but you're greedy
And based on your body language,
your shouted cursive I've been reading
Your style is quite selective,
Though your mind is rather reckless
Well I guess it just suggests
That this is just what happiness is

And what a beautiful mess this is
It's like picking up trash in dresses

Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you write
Kind of turn themselves into knives
And don't mind my nerve you could call it fiction
But I like being submerged in your contradictions dear
'Cause here we are, here we are

Although you were biased I love your advice
Your comebacks they're quick
And probably have to do with your insecurities
There's no shame in being crazy,
Depending on how you take these
Words I'm paraphrasing this relationship we're staging

And what a beautiful mess this is
It's like picking up trash in dresses

Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you say
Kind of turn themselves into blades
And kind and courteous is a life I've heard
But it's nice to say that we played in the dirt oh dear
Cause here we are, Here we are
Here we are [x7]
We're still here
What a beautiful mess this is
It's like taking a guess when the only answer is yes

Through timeless words, and priceless pictures
We'll fly like birds, out of this earth
And times they turn, and hearts disfigure
But that's no concern when we're wounded together
And we tore our dresses, and stained our shirts
But it's nice today, oh the wait was so worth it

One of the toughest parts of life is deciding when to give up and when to try harder.

Yesterday night I was lying on my bed, waiting for myself to fall asleep so that I can escape from reality & go to lalaland.
A lot of thoughts were running through my head which actually happens most of the time.
Sometimes I wished I didn't think too much; it's not good for me sometimes.

I was on the verge of giving up on something that really meant a lot to me.
Because it seemed like no matter how hard I try, it seemed like I was goin' nowhere with it.
I felt like I was in it...alone.
Everyday I wished & hoped with all my heart that nothing would go wrong; that everything was goin' to be alright.
Sometimes the things that make you happy the most also have the power to make you feel so down when it goes wrong.
Strange how these things work, no?

It's amazing how sleeping can make it all go away and make you feel so much better the next day.
And indeed today, things are so much better it seems.
I just wished things can go back the way it was, just like the first time.
But you can't have everything I guess.
So I'm just very grateful with how it is right now.
All I can do now is to hope for the best.

Moving on...
Things haven't being goin' well at home.
It's been shaky I guess.
I don't like the tension.
I hope it'll be alright soon.

I hate the insecurities I have.
Sometimes it has the tendency to take control over my thoughts.
Then I'll come up with some stupid scenarios in my head.
It stays in my head & then when things get better, I'll forget about it.
I need more positivity right now cos situations haven't been that good lately.
Thank god I have two extremes; one, my very sunny optimistic self & the other, my very dark pessimistic self.
Usually my pessimistic thoughts, I keep it to myself.
So nobody really knows about 'em except when I really need to let it out to somebody.

I don't ask for much.
I just want support, assurance, tender loving care & attention.

On a happier note, I'm very thankful & grateful for the opportunities that I've been receiving.
I've been busy practicing for the upcoming performances that are coming next year.
I also received other opportunities which I have to reconsider because of commitment & time.
I promise I'll try to be more confident of myself, believe in myself more & aim higher.
I will give everything my all. (:

Wow, this has been a very personal entry.
I feel much lighter now hehe! :]

Anyways, I'm gonna do a special entry soon heh.
(:

Ooh! I got lucky & won tixs to the Marina Bay 08/09 countdown @ The Float!
Gonna go & collect it tmr before my vocal practice.
I'm gonna spent my last day 0f 2008 with him!
It's really been awhile since I spent some alone time with him, just the two of us.
It really means a lot to me that he's gonna spent it with me.
I think he knows how badly I wanted him to go cos I told him about it immediately when he was still in Sydney hehe.

I shall end here before this gets too long haha.
take care & much love.
(:

"Anyone can be passionate, but it takes real lovers to be silly."
-Rose Franken.

I haven't seen him for 2 weeks already.
He's in Sydney, busy with the kangaroos & koalas hmph :P
booooo. faster come back laaa ):

I miss talking to you on the phone.
I miss hearing your voice, your laugh.
I miss you putting up with my rantings.
I miss our little squabbles.
I miss our inside jokes.
I miss being around you.
I miss your squeezy hugs.
I miss singing with you.
I miss your face.
I miss the way you rant on & stumble on your words.
I miss listening to you sing your version of Soulmate,
emphasizing on mrs lovable.
I miss telling you about my day.
I miss the way you always end up making my day.
I miss my soulmate, mr lovable.

bottomline:
I miss you.

Thank god for Facebook & bumper stickers.
hehe.

Cracks in the concrete are just reminders that you fall apart no matter how strong you are.

LINKS
Added: Shahira. Erika.
Relinked: Tasha. Nat. Fiona.

Dear bloggie, sorry I've been neglecting you.
Although I've haven't been blogging, you know I try my best to make time & take care of you by changing the blog song, updating the countdown etc.
Which shows that I really love you.
& you never left my mind :]

Sorry, must apologize to my dear bloggie first before I officially start blogging fo' real.
hehe :P

hello hello hellll-loooo!~
Sorry I hvn't been updating.
I know, more than one month alr.
guilty as charged heh.

Altho' it's actually da school holidays already, I hvn't really had my holiday yet.
Been having commitments back-to-back this week everyday.
Broke down da last two days cos I had too much stuff goin' on.
But I'm alright now.
Everyone has their breaking point at some point ryte? heh.

I'm waiting for a weekday whereby I have nothing to do at all!~
So that I can stay @ home da whole day, relax, don't need to think too much, watch movies, tv etc.
I hope that'll be next week.
I need at least one weekday-off badly ):

Ok, enough of me ranting.
Shall get to other stuff now heh.

What I've been up to lately:
Vocal classes
Dance sessions
School Projects

The reason I'm free for the first half of tday is bcos vocal class was cancelled.
boooooo. bummer. I love vocal d class.
I always have lotsa fun there heh.
Ooh, we have a new vocal instructor alr!
Shall elaborate on that l8er :]

Anyways, we're currently busy practicing for our upcoming performances.
There's a lot to come next year!
wheeeeeee!~ can't wait :DDDDD

Oh yeah, another thing is whenever I go to class with make-up or dress up really nice, they never fail to question me.
-.-'' lol.

Hannah Montana got the best of both worlds whattt!
ahahahahaha :P

Dance sessions.
Dapheny is overseas so she won't be around this year.
it's not da same without her ):

School projects.
So far, I think my group's been progressing a lot heh.
I love Ravvivi!
we work hard & play hard together :D
Now I thinking about the masala meal I had with Reshi & Tijah @ Komala's ytd...
yum-yum lol :P

Let's talk about Marketing!
Have you noticed Ikea ads lately?
One of 'em was somethin' lyke...

"Do men walk around their bedroom naked more than women?

Find out this thursday."

Somethin' liddat laa haha.
I love this kinda ads.
Those which keeps you guessing.
& especially those who are not afraid to talk about such stuff openly.

Their ads are based on their everyday life at home survey.
check out their survey findings!
It's v. interesting.
click click!

Ikea Survey

Ooh, there's another one!
Did you noticed there's stickers pasted at some bus-stops?
The ones with the pac-man lyke character on it.
"Change Creates" & "Create Change"
check it out here!
click click!

U Create Change

oh yeah, I had some sort of rashes for arnd 2 1/2 days.
My mom says maybe I'm allergic to somethin' I ate.
I was trying to recall whad I've been eating that time...
it was down to either LJS's breakfast meals or school food.
I suspect it's LJS, maybe.
My worst nightmare would be that I'm allergic to...

CHESSE!

AAAAHHHHHHH :O
choy choy choy! lol :P

Speaking of cheese,
it's time for CHEESE :D

Saturday, 13 December 2008.

3 Es In 1 D... Again!

Another Saturday that was gr8 from start to finish.
Vocal Class. Movie d8 with bestie. Clubbing @ Le Baroque.


Dalilah :D



After my vocal class, straightaway wenta Vivo & met up with bestie for our movie d8.
We watched Nick & Norah's Infinite Playlist!
I love the movie cos it's about music soulmates.
The movie seemed long probably cos of their journey to the diff. places.
It's a bumpy ride indeed haha.
It's quite funny too.
& the gays are super hott & cute!!! seriously.
You should go check it out.

Altho' we were kinda in a rush,
I had a nice time with bestie.
Short but sweet heh :]


Tasha bestie :D



Met up with chin ying & wenta Admiralty to meet my mom @ Fifi's birthday party.




Chin ying. Lil. Fifi. Lily. Ros.



Then we made our way to Chijmes's Le Baroque!








This is my vocal instructor, Aishah.
She works there as a singer for True Colours.
She's awesome! :D
Whenever I sing Soulmate, I'll think of how she sings it so I can hit all the right notes.
it's an inspiration thing heh :]

Ooh, & on that day she sang Soulmate & dedicated it to me! hehe.
& she also didn't forget to mention da Hannah Montana part
-.-'' lol.







Saturday, 6 December 2008.

Xmas Deco @ Orchard

Went out with the vocal peeps after class cos we wanted to support Shah @ the Asianbeats competition.
Since we had to wait for his turn, we wenta eat KFC first.
But we ended up missing him anyways. ahahahaha!
Nvm luhh, we were in the vicinity so...can feel our support in your heart or somethin' yeah.
LOL :P

Took pictures but I'll post 'em up when I get it from dalilah heh.
*hint hint* hehe :P

I was really fascinated by the xmas deco @ Orchard!
They're so amazing & pretty.
Go check 'em out before it's too late!











Chicken Dallas

Received a forwarded email regarding this restaurant.
It was said to be nicer, cheaper than KFC blah blah blah.
So we decided to check it out.
It's alright luhh...not bad haha.
But I still prefer KFC's chicken :]
& this restaurant still needs a lot of improvements to be done heh.
Forgot when was this.
But I remember the people I went with :]
Lily. Ros. Syahmir...Syahmir's dad haha.


supposedly I'm a cowboy with the mask on my mouth here or somethin' lol.


this is where syahmir kpo-kpo enter frame hmph.
but turned out to be a nice candid shot haha.


candid! the importance of booking lol.








I was pushing syahmir away at the same time here.
So that explains the face lol.




Edward Cullen, I've yet to discover & experience the effect you have on girls.


which kitty do you want? meow!~


Bandung @ Serangoon.
Pretty, no?


Since he wants to enter frame so much,
took him also lol.


See, still not enough, want to enter frame again lol.


Too pretty to be sipped.
Of cos I drank it anyways haha.

Random Cheese.

School Life


Stomp aids!

Silhoutte Shots


pass me the bottle or I'll burst your bubble!


Ohmmm~ guess who?



IES Shots


Small feet. Big feet.
Happy feets! :D


*angelic music plays in background*
haaaaaa~


Khairi. Ismail. Poo.


Vonnie! birthday girl :]

check out her behind...


up there one lah!


Reshi. Matilda.


Lil. Tijah. Fiqah.
apple pies!

okie dokie, I'm done.
Hopefully my next update is not next year hehe.
much lurrrrrve!~
muack muack muack :D

When life gives you a hundred reasons to cry, show life a thousand reasons to smile (:

LINKS
Added: Joanne. Yanti.
Relinked: Elaine S.

I had a really nice day tday.

Had fun auditioning for Bishan's Got Talent.
Sang a short solo; Stacie Orrico's There Gotta Be More To Life.
Did a duet with Aizat; Lucky by Jason Mraz feat. Colbie Caillat.
Finally I'll get to perform that song!
I've been wanting to sing that song so badly.
I'm soooo in love with the song right now.
It makes me happy! heh :D

I also loved it even more cos I got inspired by Alyssa Bernal (vanessa hudgens lookalike) & Kris Mark (*swoons & melts*) hahaha.
Their rendition of the song is the best in youtube so far.
& I find it uber cool that it's two vids in one;
Kris recorded it first then Alyssa sang on top of it.
edit2 then BAM! haha :D

check 'em out, click click!

Lucky

check out their youtube channels too:

Alyssa Bernal

Kris Mark

Ooh, I realised a lot of the peeps in our sch knw hwta play the guitar.
& there's a lot of hidden talents waiting to be showcased heh.
:]

I did two silly things tday:

- During my 1st attempt at Lucky, I accidentally sang:
Lucky I'm in love with your best friend~

LMAO.
I straightaway covered my mouth then burst out laughing & everyone that got it laughed lol.
Miss Nair told me to decide who was I in love with ahahaha. :P

- Accidentally called Aizat Izzat haha x:
*smacks head*

all this has to do with E'zzati!
ROARRRRRRRR :O
ahahahaha.

Then to end off my day nicely, he made my day.
you never fail to make me laugh heh :D
can't wait for tomorrow! hehe (:

okie dokie, I'm done.
here's the quiz I've been tagged with.
I'm not gna tag anyone but if you wna do it,
be my guest alrighty :]

take care & love love!

Tagged By:
Diyana.

RULE #1 People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

RULE #2 Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by continuing this game by sending it to other people.

1. Do you have secrets?
Yes.

2. Would you fall in love with a boy younger than you?
nope.

3. Do you enjoy going to school?
yes (:

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
spent on myself & the people I love, save & donate.

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
I already have. (:

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
Being loved by someone.

7. List out your 15 favourite songs:

1) Lucky - Jason Mraz feat. Colbie Caillat
2) The Great Escape - Boys Like Girls
3) You & I Both - Jason Mraz
4) Daughters - John Mayer
5) Superhuman - Chris Brown feat. Keri Hilson
6) With You - Chris Brown
7) I Kissed A Girl - Katy Perry
8) What A Girl Wants - Christina Aguilera
9) Shawty Get Loose - Chris Brown feat. Lil Mama
10) Miss Independent - Ne-yo
11) Can I Have This Dance? - HSM 3
12) Far Away - Nickelback
13) The Man That Can't Be Moved - The Script
14) If You See Kay - The Script
15) Won't Go Home Without You - Maroon 5

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
Nothing. Cos it's just a crush anyways haha.

9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
If recently today, him. heh :D

10. What makes you angry?
when everything just doesn't go right for a whole day.

11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
28 years old. Hmm...I'll most probably would have made a career out of doin' somethin' I love heh :]

12. Who is currently the most important people to you?
ohana, him & my close friends.

13. What is the most important thing in life?
To be true to yourself.

14. Single or attached?
err...not available :P

15. What is your favourite colour?
Orange :D

16. Would you give your all in a relationship?
yes.

17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
I think it's possible to like two people at the same time but fall in love, nah.

18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing someone has done?
Forgive yes, but unfortunately I don't think I'll forget it.

19. What do you really want now?
I just wanna smile & be happy all the time! lalalala :D

20. any random lyrics in mind?
*sings* lucky I'm in love with my best friend~ ahahahaha :D

Sometimes the dreams that come true are dreams you never even knew you had.

LINKS
Added: Vocal D. Class.

WHEEEEEEEEEEEE!~
Finally I have the time to blog hehe.
I've been wanting to blog since Monday but I've been so caught up with school so yeah.
anws, HELLO HELLO HELLO :D
ok random heh :P

Life's been gr8.
Altho' I've been v. busy but still, I'm doin' things I love so it's all good (:

School.
There's 2 projects to be completed; EPL & Marketing.
Then there's upcoming events lyke Christmas @ Bishan, Chingay & more which I dnt wna bother typing here cos they have long names lol :P
I can't wait for all of it to happen! woot woot :D
*sings* I'll be anticipating~
(Think Britney heh.)

I still remember during one OFA lesson, everyone had to share their 2-year goals.
Mine was:

• graduate & go to poly.
• get into courses I love which, to be specific is:

1. Digital Media (SP).
2. Interactive Media Informatics (TP).
3. Integrated Events & Project Management (SP).

• be a seasoned performer in ITE.
• a driving license.
• excel in both studies & CCAs.
• good GPA.

I'm happy cos some of 'em I've already achieved or either on da way there already heh.
*sings* ooooh, we're halfway there!~
(Think Living On A Prayer lol.)

Anyways, anyone who knows me well know I've always wanted to be in Mass Comm. right?
Well, I was out with my weiyi, Sabrina one day.
If I'm not wrong we were updating each other on our lives.
Then she encouraged me to try out for Mass Comm. again cos she thought I had a v. good chance bcos of my portfolio which is getting thicker now heh :P

In my goals list, as you can see mostly is Media courses & one events course.
I remember saying in class that time that I wanted to get into a Media course.
then I also said that but maybe I'll fall in love with events more & change my direction.
Well guess what?
I'm in love with events already.
Events rock! heh :D

anyways, my point is now I got two main places where I wanna be at.
Mass Comm. Events.
Plus the other two media courses.
It's too early to say anything but who knows where this life will take me.
Either or, as long as I get to where I wanna be, I'll be happy (:

Here's to da future!
WHEEEEEEEEEEEEE :D

Saturday: Singapore Biennale Race.
Sunday: Singapore Biennale -AM shift.

okie dokie.
I shall blog about my awesome weekends!
heh :D

Saturday, 1 November 2008.

3 Es in 1 D!

Saturday was a gr8 day.
From start to finish :]

Wenta Vocal d. class.
Class was extra fun cos there was Hussein with his theatrics haha.
& Ash-bro is back! heh :D
ooh, & at the end of the class, I got talked into singing 3 songs in front of everyone -.-'' lol.
Sang What A Girl Wants & Beautiful by Christina Aguilera & Everywhere by Michelle Branch.
Then we had our after-sessions talk.
I love this part; cos we can totally be open, random & say anything we want heh.

Afterwards, a few of us went to a nearby coffeeshop to have drinks & a chit-chatting session.
Then I left for Tampines to meet him.



wenta watch High School Musical 3 :D
It's a reaaally awesome movie!
I love the songs, choreography, storyline, sets...
basically EVERYTHING. lol.
I was especially wowed with the choreography.
I couldn't stop gushing when there was one part where the focus was on Ryan, Chad & Troy dancing...*melts* lol :P

A gr8 ending for HSM.
def. MUST-WATCH.
gogogo!

click click! to watch the video of my fave song in HSM 3 :]

Can I Have This Dance?


Afterwards, met up with Lily, Ruby & Fifi.
Went clubbing @ Chijmes's Le Baroque!
There were live bands; Shaggy & True Colours.
When we were done, wenta eat at Cafeela.
Then home sweet home at arnd 4am lol.


Fifi. Ruby. Lil. Lily.


*sings* I got it from my mama :P






Shirley Temple!

Def. a day well-spent to da max heh :D

Saturday, 2 November 2008.

Windmills Of Wonder

Hours later...lol.
Woke up early to do AM shift @ South Beach Development.



Today was special cos it was the Kids Biennale's Windmills of Wonder Day!
There were a lot of free stuff given out;
Andersen's ice-cream, popcorn, candy floss.
& there were a lot of cute little people everywhere!
by this, i mean the babies, kids heh.

but if you wna count me also can laa.
AHAHAHAHAHAHA :D


windmills made by children.






what's left of September Sweetness.

so there you go.
my gr8 weekends heh :]

okie dokie, I shall do my blast-all-in-one update soon lol.
tata :D

Together we learn, from mistakes of others & ourselves.
As long as we're on the same page & running along the same lines, we'll be alright.
At this moment where everything's happening so fast, I have this love to hold on to, to remind me to slow down, don't rush.
Because love is a journey, not a destination.
So we'll take our own sweet time & enjoy this ride.
I'm loving where we're at & I don't care how long it takes,
as long as this path we're taking, takes me to wherever you're at.

Can I Have This Dance
by Zac Efron & Vanessa Hudgens.

Take my hand, take a breath
Pull me close and take one step
Keep your eyes locked on mine,
And let the music be your guide.

Won't you promise me (now won't you promise me, that you'll never forget)
We'll keep dancing (to keep dancing) wherever we go next

[Chorus]
It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you
It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do
And with every step together, we just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance?

Take my hand, I'll take the lead
And every turn will be safe with me
Don't be afraid, afraid to fall
You know I'll catch you through it all

And you can't keep us apart (even a thousand miles, can't keep us apart)
'Cause my heart is (cause my heart is) wherever you are

[Chorus]

Oh no mountains too high enough, oceans too wide
'Cause together or not, our dance won't stop
Let it rain, let it pour
What we have is worth fighting for
You know I believe, that we were meant to be

[Chorus]

Can I have this dance,
Can I have this dance?