It's been a while since i last blogged about somethin' personal,
somethin' close to my heart..

This seemingly never-ending fairytale that I keep fallin' in & out of...
now i'm in it. again.
& perhaps this thing is much deeper than i thought.
Perhaps there's a reason why I keep turning back,
why I can't seem to walk away.

It all started in March this year.
I remember the reasons why i fell out of it..
the case of the ex. the fog that came back & made it all unclear.

& why i keep fallin' in..
my weakness for super-talented guys..
or perhaps it's just how you manage to captivate me every single time.

Now, you already know.
& all i can hope for is that it's for the better..
or worse.

Everyday the fear in me builds up..
& I can't help but to think of the possibilities..
& the consequences.

As i wait for an answer, a sign,
I'm feeling so scared. afraid.

Now, I dont even dare to look at you when you're around..
although I know I really want to.

With all my heart, I wish this will turn out how i want it to be.

If it doesn't..

This fairytale can end in two ways.
Just like the fairytales found in storybooks..
happy endings.

Or also just like the fairytales found in storybooks..
happy endings that are only found on paper.
something that's just made up from one's imagination,
endings that cease to exist in reality.

Now the question is..
Will you dance to this beat?

AAAAHHHHHHHHHHH.
i have too many photos to upload lol.
BLEH.
Shall dive straight away into blogging (:

25 OCT 06;
Wenta Vivocity with my mom :D
I LOVE that place!
it's my new fave shopping paradise cos all my fave shops are there heh :D
Ate at Banquet & then went into some shops.
(there's too many of 'em btw)
My mom bought some tops.
They have everything.
& when i say everything i mean EVERYTHING.
LOL

After that, wenta Funan IT Mall to collect my Soccer Bean Bag!
yayness ^^
now i have a pod in a corner of my room where i can rest, read a book yada yada..
=P

27 OCT 06;
Wenta Vivocity again!
oops, i mean vivo-SITI hehe :D
went with daud, siti, hazmi, david & eugene.
Had to wait for david & eugene for so long -.-''
so we entertained ourselves by goin' into Toys R Us lol.
After that, all of us ate at Long John's.
Bumped into Mdm Ida & her family at both places heh.

Played at E-Zone. (or should i say Eugene-zone? lol.)
Some of 'em played at da wading pool or wadever it's called lol.
Saw Nurul Aini dere, so pretty (:

After all that, all of us with wei chong & ben wenta suntec city for elaine's burfdae :]
Ate at NYDC.
I splurged can =x
it was kinda impromptu to start with.
Joined jello-mee, wei qiang & jolin.
I ate Spaghetti..but I definitely still prefer Pastamania heh.
Most of us couldnt finish our meals lol.
Then more people came lol. (roger, alfred, alan, jia hao..)
Went back home with jello-mee, wei qiang, elaine & jolin.
Phew, it was definitely a loooong day lol.

oh yeah..jello-mee did somethin'..
GRR.
2 times over da same thing alrdy.
BLEH.
Kept pinching him till he actually bleed a little lol.
=X

My reaction?

"I did that meh?"
lol, cos i really didnt know & i didnt know i was capable of that either lol.

His reply?
"Wah..you Chin Ying No.2 ah"

LOL XD

28 OCT 06;
Had a fever for one day T.T
but the next day, i was okay alrdy.
but now i'm having a cough & dry throat.
BLEH. :/

okie dokie;
now for more CHEESE :D

Vivocity -25OCT06.


Grilled Prawns -yummy :D





Vivo-SITI :D -27OCT06.











Slumberland :D


So rare of me to go girly (:
Spongebob said I looked Jap lol.


taken with wei qiang's Sony Ericsson Cybershot :]






In greyscale :]




Click to see whad it says ^^

END :D

BOO!
my blog hasnt been active huhs.
bt my tagboard is hehe.
thank you :D

Okie dokie.
shall do a quick update.

11 OCT 06;
Wenta da library with my weiyi (:
Suffered from laughing fits there lol.
Oh yeah, weiyi was so fascinated with a book.
Somethin' abt wonders of the world.
Hmm..is it any wonder?
XD

13 OCT 06;
OVERDRIVE.
one word:
Hot Hot Hot!

When Wade Robson danced,
i swear i went completely breathless can.
i was asphyxiated lol.

O-Crew did a gr8 job;
especially Carol heh :D
Guess who won for da grp category?
another one of my faves;
Fantastic Four :DD
*swoons*

their name says it all heh :D

For da solo,
weiyi's fave won;
Daniel :]

It was gr8 to see Kath, Yunting & Ting xuan again. (:
ooh, & Soul too heh.
(minus Alfred bleh =P)
lol.

24 OCT 06;
Selamat Hari Raya :D

It was so gr8 to meet my relatives again.
especially da lil' ones heh.
Amirah loves me too much :D
hehe.
she went everywhere i go lol.
Took loads of pics.
shall post 'em up soon ;D

Okie dokie. I guess i'm done for now.
shall update more reaaal soon heh.
Still not done with my new temp yet;
only da design bleh.

Ooh, Juz-B & Taufik Batisah were on Suria :D
Juz-B sang in malay of cos heh.
veh nice :D
Taufik's new malay song is so nice can!
i love da lyrics :D

mwahahaha.
shall end here.
love ya people :D

HELLO
HELLO
HELLO :DD

First & foremost,

I'm gna wish happy birthday to da only person I'll most probably ever wish on my blog heh.

Happy Birthday To..

my G.F., my love, snugglepuss sugaplum's mmm-bop bubblebop
& last but definitely not the least..

my bestie Tasha :D



Altho' you're still M.I.A.
but still, i miss you. alot.
love you to bits. & heaps. (:

Sawree I haven't been blogging.
been a busy bumblebee heh =P

anyways,
i actually have lotsa stuff to blog abt.
but perhaps, when i have more time? heh.
But i shall blog somethin' short for now. :]

I was so lookin' forward to completing the fasting month completely..
(since last month my red light came early =P)
Then sekali, today come.
GRRRRRRR.

You know why?
Cos ytd i was super duper euphoric.
Had so much fun dancing.
( i guess i was "inspired" after watchin' So You Think You Can Dance ytd lol.)
& red light comes either when you're either super stress or super happy,
varies for diff ppl i guess lol.

BOOOOOOOO. stoopid.
Ran out of resources so had to rush & go buy 'em myself jst now.
I was so frantic can lol. XD

Oh yeah, then I saw this guy who works at Cheers heh.
Sometimes i see him, sometimes i dont.

ANYWAYS XD ;
He's good-lookin' i guess hehe. =X
(if not most prob. i wdnt notice/rmb him in da first plc ryte? bleh. xP)
I also remember him cos he once sold me da wrong batteries.
yepp, i wanted triple A bt he gave me a double.
I only realised when i was home but didnt bother to go back & change it heh.
I only remembered his last name..cos it's cute, in malay, with a H.
LOL (dont ask meeee =x)

but too bad, i threw away the receipt. dang.
XD

okok enough abt guy talk haha.
So went back home & read my Teens magazine.
& to my delight..you know who are on da posters this month?
Wang Lee Hom & Justin Timberlake.
I love Wang Lee Hom but i love Justin more :DD
*beams*


Justin Timberlake,
the ultimate hottie.
haaaaaaaaaaa :D

XD

Ooh yeah, heard of Panic! At The Disco's latest song?
Lying is the most fun a girl can have without taking her clothes off.
hmm..interesting o.O

Effing haze.
Just now i saw this two kids wearing masks;
so poor thing.
& i'm not talking abt da power rangers, pokemon type hor. =P

okay, i'm done lol.
will blog more soon alrighty heh.
take care people :D

2nd entry of da day :D

Hmm..my mom addressed an issue recently.
We were back from ntuc & we were waiting for da lift.
At that moment, there was this teen couple at the stairs nearby.
bleh =P

ANYWAYS XD ;
the couple sorta sparked a convo. btw me & my mom.
when my mom & I were already in the lift,
she said:

"I bet if you have a boyfriend, you want someone matured. Cos you cannot tolerate childishness."

"Ya. Childish for fun never mine laa..but thinking, cannot. Most probably I'll take it as stupidity."

"Then i think it should be someone whose age is far from yours..like around 10 years older.."

My reaction?

"o.O waa, so far. why?"

"Cos you understand how men think already."

Then she left me pondering for the whole day lol.

GAH.
How can I look so young & yet be paired with an adult mind at the same time?
Hmm..a gift & curse at da same time huhs?
At this rate, i'm never gna find a boyfriend anymore. :/
Perhaps till i'm like 18? where it's more acceptable to be with someone waaay older then me lol.

But still, it's all good.
I'll take it as a blessing (:

I'll wait forever till the right one comes.
If not?
oh wells, I'll end up just being a spinster then.
hur hur :D

But of cos, it doesnt hurt to take chances too ryte?
HEHE. =x

XD

Went out with Slumberland ytd :D
walked arnd Marina Sq & Suntec City.
found two pairs of earrings that was sold as a pack.
So decided to half the price with jac.
She got purple, i got turqoise :]
it's been so long since i bought somethin' for myself heh.

& yes! i finally found a black locket that i want.
At first, i saw this gothic black key necklace while I was out with jello-mee.
But someone bought it already :/
Since then, i've been searching for a replacement.

but now, i've found a suitable one heh.
I was super happy can. :D
it has a key & a black heart locket!
But i was bummed cos I decided not to purchase it first.
Wanted to save up more so i have extra cash, just in case.

Oooh, i really want that black locket!
someone get it for me pretty pleaaaaaaaase.
HEH :D
*bats eyelashes*

Haha, lyke real. =P
Hopefully by da time I wna buy it, it's still there.
AAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
*gushes* lol.

Black Locket.
You'd probably be thinking why do I want a black locket so badly huhs?
Hmm..symbolism.
See my browser's title & da status bar?
go figure it out yourself alrighty hehe ;D

Oh yeah, since it's da holidays now,
hopefully i have time to make a new temp!
HEH :D

AAHHHHHHHHHH.
i wna go to da library.
it's been long since I last read a good book.
All bcos of da Ns, pfft. =P

Wenta Hg mall tday to complete that mission.
but we were released early & da library wasnt opened yet bleh.
anyone want a library outing? hehe.

Okie dokie.
I shall leave you with more CHEESE! :D






Euphoria Rush :D
or is it Pepsi Twist? lol.


ROFL XD









With exams, comes stress.
& a way to de-stress?
Cam-whoring :D









Long-overdue photos.
waaaaay overdue heh.
=X



mei wei :]








Hazar's last day in sch.
I'm gna miss her :(







Finally! i'm done.
hmm..shall post Slumberland pics next time.
till then, ciao! ;D

HELLO !
i'm baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaack.
anybody missed me? hehe. :D

WOO HOO!
da Ns are finally OVER.
*gyrates*

Uh-huh Uh-huh.
*boogies*
XD

Shall devote my computer time to my dearest blog tday.
:]

1st entry for tday :D
Okie dokie, firstly da Ns.

English - A1 please :D *beams*
Maths - hmm..paper 1 was okay but i think paper 2 was more manageable.
Malay - expected to get an A1. *grits teeth* lol =P
SS & Geog. - must pass.
Science - Chem. was okay..Physics was easy -phew :]
P.O.A. - hoping to pass heh. =x

That's all right? haha.
Yes, hopefully i get a pass for every subject.
*fingers crossed*

WHEEEEEEE (:
cant wait to get back da results.

anyways, holidays.
Till next wednesday.
haaaaaaa :D

that shall give me enough time to take care of myself heh.
okie dokie, cya at da 2nd entry ;D

The looks.
I know. You know. People know too.

How does it feel?
To see me walking away from you..
without uttering a single word, a smile or to look at you in the eye,
where you can only admire me from afar..

Everytime i ask myself,
"Why are you so afraid?
Am I so intimidating?"

As the door behind me closes..
I leave without saying goodbye.
see you on the other side.

Conversations, texts.
That's all there is to it.
it never even started with a hello,
or ended with a goodbye.
Just like that.

I wished you tried harder.

too little, too late.

Added Links: Helmi.

Everytime I need motivation,
all i have to do is to look at my mobile's wallpaper. :D


" Muaaaak! Lots of kisses! "

Sent by my aunt.
so sweet ryte?

I miss wawan & zurah,
my tutt-twan & monster.
:DD

My Yahoo! Horoscope for today:

Working hard or hardly working? Kidding! Yours, out of all the signs, is the one that knows the value of consistent labor. Just make sure you recognize when you need rest. Overwork is detrimental in the long run.

Da return of the Ns,
which is tomorrow.
*jeng jeng jeng jeng*

XD

Thanks to everyone for da gd luck wishes!

All da best people & gd luck!
Give it your best shot & jiayou alrighty ;D
vroom vroom vroooooooom.

XD