Maybe no one told you there was strength in your tears, so you fight to keep from pouring out.
-Kelly Clarkson.

Since I'm free now, waiting for the clock to strike 10 (Ghost Whisperer!), I shall do a quick update.

I don't know why I've been feeling a bit low lately.
Hormones. The weather. Or maybe I'm just plain tired cos too much's been happening this week. Had a lot of juggling to do.
Oh wells, it's just a phase.
I think I'll be alright tmr :]

You can't change the past but you can ruin the present by worrying about your future.

Silly me.
I must remind myself not to think too much & worry about something that hasn't even happened yet.

Oh ya! I apologize if I haven't been replying anyone's texts.
Yes, the bitch fits are back.
My phone is having the same problem again. pffffft.
I really need to get a new phone.
So if you need to contact me, call instead alrighty.
You probably missed hearing my voice anyways.
lalalala :D

anyways, my group, Ravvivi, is currently organizing a charitable cultural arts event.
It's still in the planning process but I'll post up an update about it once we've made solid plans about it alrighty.
I'll really appreciate your support! heh :]

My brother & mom's birthday is coming.
Yes, I'm the Capricorn that's stuck with the two Geminis haha.
Can't wait for the Ohana movie outing & clubbing @ Butter Factory!
wheeee :]

Somebody's gna serve the nation soooon~ hehe.
my boy's gna be a man! ahahaha :D
But the part I hate is lesser time to see each other.
BOOOOOOOOO ):
And it doesn't help I have a tendency to miss you a little too much, a little too often heh.
But absence makes the heart grow fonder right.
lalalalala :P

Ok, I'm done.
Till my next update, love love!


You make me crazier, crazier, crazier.

Crazier
by Taylor Swift

I've never gone with the wind
Just let it flow, let it take me
Where it wants to go
'Til you opened the door
There's so much more
I'd never seen it before
I was trying to fly, but I couldn't find wings
Then you came along and you changed everything

You lift my feet off the ground, spin me around
You make me crazier, crazier
Feels like I'm falling and I am lost in your eyes
You make me crazier, crazier, crazier

I watched from a distance as you
Made life your own, every sky was
Your own kind of blue
And I wanted to know
How that would feel and you made it so real
You showed me something that I couldn't see
You opened my eyes and you made me believe

You lift my feet off the ground, spin me around
You make me crazier, crazier
Feels like I'm falling and I am lost in your eyes
You make me crazier, crazier, crazier

Baby, you showed me what living is for
I don't want to hide anymore

You lift my feet off the ground, spin me around
You make me crazier, crazier
Feels like I'm falling and I am lost in your eyes
You make me crazier, crazier, crazier

Crazier, Crazier

To understand the heart and mind of a person, look not at what he has already achieved, but at what he aspires to do.
-Khalil Jibran.

LINKS
Relinked: Fahmy. Tasha. Nat. Chin Ying. Matthew.

1 month later...
(think Spongebob)

sorry for the late update!
Been busy ever since school started.
Can't blog as much as I did during the holidays heh.

I have a cough & it's been with me for a few days, I think a week already.
It doesn't want to leave me!
BOOOOOO.
I've been staying away from chocs, fizzy drinks.
Have been only drinking stuff like green tea, honey, water.
I guess oily food is hard to avoid cos mostly all the food here is oily, fatty bleh.
But it's getting better I guess.
If you have any other fast ways to get rid of cough please do tell.
I hope it's not a permanent thing ):

My mom just got a cough tday too.
More honey & lemon Strepsils for us!
AHAHAHAHA

Have I mentioned that my timetable this semester sucks?
Seriously. I only end early on Wednesdays.
And now my Fridays start late, end late.
It clashes with dance so now I can't attend dance for the whole semester ):
I can't dance with my kuzzie also who also just joined Soul'd Out.
BOOOOOOO.
anyways, Dapheny left us already cos currently another instructor's taking over for ISS for the time being.
I hope by da time I can attend dance again Dapheny will be our instructor again hehe.


Dapheny

Anyways, guess what?!
I went for an interview for the ITE Arts Excellence Award...
and I got it!
WHEEEEE :D

I'm very thankful for the opportunities I've been getting lately.
I'm also very grateful for all things good in my life right now.
*sings* someone's watching over me :]

I wna learn hwta play the guitar!
I tried last time but stopped halfway.
I guess I was too young then to have the patience & interest haha.
But now I'm planning to try to pick it up slowly this year or go learn it for real next year when I'm gna graduate soon, which means I think I'll have more free time.
Aishah, my vocal instructor, always said it's not enough to just know hwta sing.
A singer must at least know hwta play an instrument too.
I have a guitar & keyboard at home that's been untouched for a long time haha.
Shall put 'em to good use one day heh.

Anyways, Im gna have a solo performance coming up!
will be accompanied by Sharil, my guitarist heh :]
Gna be performing Miley Cyrus's The Climb.


After listening to some of the songs from Miley Cyrus's movie,
I think I wna watch Hannah Montana: The Movie.
HAHA.
*sings* boom clap. boom de clap de clap.

American Idol.
It's the battle between the 3 dudes now.
Adam Lambert. Kris Allen. Danny Gokey.
*jeng jeng jeng jeng*


I'm an Adam Fanbert!
ahahahaha.
Isn't he amazing? hehe :D

cut the chase already!
we know who's gna be the winner lol :P


I was hoping Allison stayed instead of Kris Allen cos she did really well while he wasn't performing well for some reason.
I love her new hairstyle!
She changed it during Rock Week.
redhead with purple highlights.
cool or whatttt haha.
Of cos it's nice, it's done by Adam Lambert's hairstylist haha :]


Have you listened to The Saturdays?
I think their music's awesome.
And I love their style.
Plus, there's not much girl bands in the music industry now.
The only other girl group I can think of at the top of my head right now is The Pussycat Dolls.

go check 'em out!
They did a remake of Depeche Mode's Just Can't get Enough.
The vid has this cheeky calender girl style goin' on haha.
And their song Issues is really nice.
click click!

Just Can't Get Enough

Issues


Transformers: Revenge Of The Fallen.
it's coming out in june!
WHEEEEE :D

One of the things I look forward to in Transformers:
Megan Fox.



She's fiiiine mann.
I'm sure everyone agrees with me hehe.
Brian Austin Green (boyfriend) better know what he's got! ahahaha.


check out her latest interview with Elle magazine.
click click!

Megan Fox

okie dokie, I'm done.
take care people!
don't get swine flu ok, pigs can fly now.
AHAHAHAHA
love love :D


In your eyes I'd like to stay.

Make You Feel My Love
by Adele

When the rain is blowing in your face
And the whole world is on your case
I could offer you a warm embrace
To make you feel my love

When the evening shadows and the stars appear
And there is no one there to dry your tears
I could hold you for a million years
To make you feel my love

I know you haven't made your mind up yet
But I would never do you wrong
I've known it from the moment that we met
No doubt in my mind where you belong

I'd go hungry, I'd go black and blue
I'd go crawling down the avenue
No, there's nothing that I wouldn't do
To make you feel my love

The storms are raging on the rolling sea
And on the highway of regret
Though winds of change are throwing wild and free
You ain't seen nothing like me yet

I could make you happy, make your dreams come true
Nothing that I wouldn't do
Go to the ends of the Earth for you
To make you feel my love

To make you feel my love

Happiness is the secret to all beauty. There is no beauty that is attractive without happiness.
-Christian Dior.

I Will Be
by Leona Lewis

There's nothing I could say to you
Nothing I could ever do to make you see
What you mean to me

All the pain, the tears I cried
Still you never said goodbye and now I know
How far you'd go

I know I let you down
But it's not like that now
This time I'll never let you go

I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart

All my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay

I thought that I had everything
I didn't know what life could bring
But now I see, honestly

You're the one thing I got right
The only one I let inside
Now I can breathe, cause you're here with me

And if I let you down
I'll turn it all around
Cause I would never let you go

I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart

All my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay

Cause without you I cant sleep
I'm not gonna ever, ever let you leave
You're all I've got, you're all I want

And without you I don't know what I'd do
I can never, ever live a day without you
Here with me, do you see,
You're all I need

And I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart

All my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay

I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart

And all my life, you know I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay

Specially for Nyayi.

My grandma (father's side) passed away yesterday.
Immediately went to attend her funeral when we got to know about it.
Cried silently while we were cabbing there.
The driver got curious & asked where we were heading to, what occasion.

When I entered the room, I can't help but to cry again when I saw her lying on the bed, covered.
She was so small, so fragile.
My aunt then lifted the cloth to let me see her face.
And immediately the waterworks started again.

It was like my first time attending a funeral actually tho' it was my 2nd.
My 1st was my grandpa's funeral, also my father's side.
But back then I was still a little girl so I couldn't really remember much about it.
Of cos I do have memories of him.

My nyayi & yayi looked so cute together.
It was like they were meant for each other, so compatible.
I still remember I used to visit them a lot when I was little.

I'm lucky I got to kiss her, say goodbye & see her again for one last time.
I wished I could've hugged her tho'.
I'll definitely miss her.

I'm sure she's at a better place now & God will take good care of her.
Maybe she's reunited with my grandpa now in heaven, who knows.
But I like to think she is. :]

It was nice to see my relatives again.
I never got to visit them last Hari Raya.
So many of my cousins have children now, either were married or getting married soon.
My father was there too, he brought along my step-sister.
Yes, I'm slowly accepting the fact now that I have one.
Her name's Lydia.

It helped that they were all those happy-go-lucky kinda people.
No matter what, laughter & smiles were always present.
It made yesterday easier.
I forgot how much of a clown my father was, in a good way of course.
It's lyke he will always slot in a joke in everything he says haha.




Hari Raya 2007

I think I'm done for now.
I don't really know hwta end this entry.
I think I'll leave you with lyrics of the song Love Me by Colin Raye.
For some reason it was suddenly in my head yesterday.
Maybe because it has to do with a grandparents love story heh.
It's a beautiful old love song.
give it a listen. click click!

Love Me

I actually have a lot of updating to do.
I'll try to find time soon alrighty.
much love :]

And between now and then, till I see you again,
I'll be loving you.

Love, me.

Love Me
by Colin Raye

I read a note my grandma wrote back in nineteen twenty-three.
Grandpa kept it in his coat, and he showed it once to me. He said,
"Boy, you might not understand, but a long, long time ago,
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none, but I loved your Grandma so."

We had this crazy plan to meet and run away together.
Get married in the first town we came to, and live forever.
But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet, instead of her
I found this letter, and this is what it said:

If you get there before I do, don't give up on me.
I'll meet you when my chores are through;
I don't know how long I'll be.
But I'm not gonna let you down, darling wait and see.
And between now and then, till I see you again,
I'll be loving you. Love, me.

I read those words just hours before my Grandma passed away,
In the doorway of a church where me and Grandpa stopped to pray.
I know I'd never seen him cry in all my fifteen years;
But as he said these words to her, his eyes filled up with tears.

If you get there before I do, don't give up on me.
I'll meet you when my chores are through;
I don't know how long I'll be.
But I'm not gonna let you down, darling wait and see.
And between now and then, till I see you again,
I'll be loving you. Love, me.
Between now and then, till I see you again,
I'll be loving you. Love, me.

When life offers you a dream so far beyond any of your expectations, it's not reasonable to grieve when it comes to an end.
-Twilight.

LINKS
Added: Ashahry.

Saturday

I've never been stuck in a train for soooo long before.
What a way to start my morning too pfft.
I was stuck at Hougang, Kovan, Potong Pasir, Boon Keng, Serangoon.
For each stop I was stuck for arnd 10 mins or more.
I was stuck at some of the other stations too but only for awhile.
Imagine how long I had to wait to get myself to Outram Park.
I think if I was stuck any longer, I would've memorised the NEL lol :P

I was so glad I had a storybook in hand to keep me company & help me pass time.
(I'm currently reading The Juliet Club by Suzanne Harper btw hehe.)
The cause was the train before mine which broke dwn or somethin' I think.
The announcement was so muffled I couldn't comprehend what the woman was saying.
In da end, I also had trouble tapping out cos I spent too much time in da mrt lol.
And I was late for vocal class. bleh.

Earth Hour
28 March, Saturday.
8.30 - 9.30pm
vote Earth :D
*sings* turn off the lights!
(think Nelly Furtado hehe.)

Life is a maze and Love is a riddle.

I've been in deep contemplation these past few days...
thinking over about some stuff.

To err is human.
I know we're supposed to live life with no regrets but sometimes, you can't help but wish you could turn back time and change a situation or prevented something from happening.
But we're supposed to make mistakes so we live & learn.

I just wished I knew back then what I know now.
Perhaps things would've been different now.
Perhaps things wouldn't have changed.
But everything happens for a reason.
Eventually, it's for the best.

It's good to be in control of your life; to choose the paths you take.
But there are just some things that are better left to fate, such as love.
If it's meant to be, it will work out perfectly.
And some things are better left unsaid.
Whatever happens, happens.
Let nature take it's course.
Let it be.

Emotions can be dangerous at times.
It can make you do irrational stuff.
That's why you should always keep your emotions in check & never act on impulse.
Never let your heart rule your head.

There's also no point denying what my heart feels.
I can't change how I feel about someone & how much someone means to me.

If you have no idea what I'm goin' on about, it's alright.
just enjoy the show :]


Check out Lenka!
She's so pretty & da vid's cute :]
Especially the birds & tomatoes haha.
click click!

The Show



can't wait for the weekends!
wheeeeee :D

The Show
by Lenka

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
i don't know where to go, can't do it alone
I've tried, and i don't know why...

Slow it down, make it stop
Or else my heart is going to pop
'Cause it's too much, yeah it's a lot
To be something i'm not
I'm a fool out of love
'Cause i just can't get enough...

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
i don't know where to go, can't do it alone
I've tried, and i don't know why
I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but i don't show it
I can't figure it out, it's bringing me down
I know i've got to let it go...
And just enjoy the show

The sun is hot in the sky
Just like a giant spotlight
The people follow the signs
And synchronise in time
It's a joke, nobody knows
They've got a ticket to the show....

(i want my money back, just enjoy the show)

The truth always comes out is one of the fundamental rules of time and when it comes out, it can set you free or end everything you fought so hard for.
- Gossip Girl.

LINKS
Added: B2B. Dyla. Amsyar.

Friday
IES Sheesha Outing

Mosi Cafe @ Arab St.
rooftop!






I love my classmates :]


TIJAHHHHHH!~ *boobsy hug*
ahahaha. I miss her already :]

Le Baroque
wrong day to drop by there.
Aishah wasnt there...her dad passed away ):
it wasn't happening that day anyway for some reason.
So we stayed until Shaggies finished performing and wenta Boat Quay.
Ate at Shah Alam instead.
Ended up having a nice time :]

Saturday

Had dance practice in da morning @ RP with Nisa, Vern & Aisyah :]
Afterwards, met up with my Ohana.




He's Just Not That Into You.
this is def. a must-watch movie, I swear.
it's a great movie, v. meaningful.
recommended for BOTH men & women.
it taught me a lot more about love...
or rather, reminded me more of what I already know. hmm.
anyways, it has a superb cast too.
Jennifer Aniston, Ben Affleck etc.

somethin' from the movie:

Girls are taught a lot of stuff growing up. If a guy punches you he likes you. Never try to trim your own bangs and someday you will meet a wonderful guy and get your very own happy ending. Every movie we see, Every story we're told implores us to wait for it, the third act twist, the unexpected declaration of love, the exception to the rule. But sometimes we're so focused on finding our happy ending we don't learn how to read the signs. How to tell from the ones who want us and the ones who don't, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave. And maybe a happy ending doesn't include a guy, maybe... it's you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. Maybe the happy ending is... just... moving on. Or maybe the happy ending is this, knowing after all the unreturned phone calls, broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment you never gave up hope.
- Gigi in He's Just Not That Into You.

I wanna watch 17 Again!
hehe.

Spot The Difference...







In case you didn't noticed,
I got a new haircut :D

I love my hair but I'm always fussing about my fringe.
Decided to do somethin' abt it once my mom had an idea on hwta change it heh.



I wna go to the library soon.
It's been awhile since I read a good book (& have time to complete it heh.)

take care!
love love :]

Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius and it's better to be absolutely ridiculous than to be absolutely boring.
-Marilyn Monroe.

*screams*
MOMMY, IT'S O-VERRRRR! :O
bye-bye school, hello HOLIDAYS!
uh-huh uh-huh.
*boogies*

Tday didn't started out well actually.
I OVERSLEPT!

My first thought when I woke up:
why is it blue instead of pitch black?

When I realised it was 7 plus, I freaked out.
Quickly speed-shower, got ready, bing bang boom.
I had no choice but to cab to school.
Booooo, there's goes the moolah I've been saving ):
Maybe I'm not meant to save, that's why lol :P

Okok, back to da story.
On da way, got a pep talk call from Reshi lol.
I thought I was gna be late for an exam.
If not, it'd be my first.
But actually I had nothing to worry about bcos I was cabbing.
but yknw me, worrywart lol.
Then Tijah texted me cos she reached earlier than usual ahahaha.

There was da daily traffic watch report on da radio.
The driver said it's always da same everyday.
Really? lol.

Then when I reached school, straightaway wenta class.
no winter melon morning tday ):

straightaway texted Reshi & Tijah:
"Ok ive reach! Merdeka! AHAHAHA"

LMAO!

And that was my morning haha :]

Friday: IES Sheesha Outing. Le Baroque.
Saturday: Movie day with Ohana.
Sunday: Weiyi's birthday celebration.

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEE!~
can't wait! can't wait!
lalalala :D

I think I haven't been dancing for 2 weeks already.
tsk tsk.
This shawty needs to get loose!
ahahahaha

I love Kelly Clarkson's new song!
especially the video.
I have my reasons hehe :]

click click!

My Life Would Suck Without You

Ooh ooh, she's gna be on American Idol tday too!
go watch it alrighty!
This season's awesome btw heh :D

Happy holidays people!
MUACK :D

My Life Would Suck Without You
by Kelly Clarkson

Guess this means you're sorry
You're standing at my door
Guess this means you take back
All you said before
Like how much you wanted
Anyone but me
Said you'd never come back
But here you are again

[Chorus]
'Cause we belong together now
Forever united here somehow
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life would suck without you

Maybe I was stupid for telling you goodbye
Maybe I was wrong for trying to pick a fight
I know that I've got issues
But you're pretty messed up too
Either way, I found out I'm nothing without you

[Chorus]

Being with you
Is so dysfunctional
I really shouldn't miss you
But I can’t let you go

[Chorus]

'Cause we belong together now
Forever united here somehow
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life would suck without you

Laugh your heart out. Dance in the rain. Cherish the moment, ignore the pain. Live, laugh and love. Forgive and forget. Life's too short to be living with regrets.

WHEEEEEE!
2 papers down, 1 more to go.
mwahahahaha :D \m/

I've got a new habit recently.
An exam have-to to be exact.
It all started on Monday.
I felt lyke vomiting throughout my journey to school in the morning.
Maybe it was the nerves or somethin'.
So before I wenta class I bought myself a winter melon tea and after drinking it, I felt better.
I don't know, maybe it has the power to calm me down?
ahahahaha.

Today I did da same thing too.
Now, it's a MUST haha :D

I've been listening to Perfect 10 more than the songs on my playlist lately on my journeys.
It's a bit dangerous to listen to Morning Madness by yourself tho'.
Cos there'd be moments you'd just hafta laugh at their jokes but you can't cos you're alone in public so....maintain maintain!
ahahaha :P

Holidays holidays!
I can't wait!
lalalala :D

Someday, everything will make perfect sense.
So for now, laugh at the confusion, smile through the tears.
And keep reminding yourself everything happens for a reason.





You always have a knack for sensing whenever I'm not ok.
Even whenever I refuse to let it all out, you never give up.
You always persist and when I'm not ready, you try your very best to make me happy instead.
Thank you for always being there.
Thank you for being my mother, best friend and girlfriend all in one.
(plus make-up artist, image consultant, photographer...yada yada :P)

Although I don't always say or show it,
you know I love you :]

You know you love me too! XOXO.
AHAHAHAHAHA!
(inside joke :P)







I really miss my favourite babygirl.
a.k.a. my little monster zu-rahhhh! :O
ahahahaha.
& I think she knows.
Cos she called me up recently without even a proper greeting & just rambled on & on about everything under the sun lol.
I had to guess who was on the other line haha.
Hearing her voice is enough to turn my day around & make my day.
clever orchid hehe :]

Sometimes I wished I was born in the olden times.
Where everything was so simple.
Sure, people go through a matchmaking process & they had to marry someone they didn't know or perhaps maybe even someone they don't wanna be with at the beginning.
But because of this, they had learn to love each other & slowly, they do.
Most importantly, they stay together.
Love was everlasting and separation was rare back then.

Now, divorces are nothing new.
"it's complicated" is a status.
geez.

Sometimes, it gets a little scary to see how much the world is changing.
The crazy stuff people do to get attention.
Global warming. Octuplets.
Did you know that a woman in America called up 911 just bcos Mcd ran out of nuggets?
LOL.

See, we live in a crazy world.
So I guess it helps that I'm a crazy person too mwahahaha!
ok random lol :P

I think I have a bedtime now.
Cos nowadays my body switches off automatically around 11-12plus.
Which is good for me I guess cos I used to have a habit of staying up late heh.

Current Celebrity Crushes:
Jesse McCartney.
James Morrison.

(& they happen to have the same initials, JM! haha :D)



haaaaa :D
hehe.
check out his new vid!
click click!

How Do You Sleep



I love his voice :]
plus he has really meaningful songs, love the lyrics.

check him out.
click click!

You Make It Real


I miss Ghost Whisperer!
They keep showing American Idol instead of GW...
not that I'm complaining heh.
But still, I miss it laa!
boooo.

I can't wait for exams to finish..
then holidays!
I got so much catching up to do with my loved ones :D
plus more me time hehe.

okie dokie, I think I'm done for now.
take care & much love :]

You Make It Real
by James Morrison

There's so much craziness surrounding me,
There's so much going on it gets hard to breath
When all my faith has gone, you bring it back to me,
You make it real for me

Well I'm not sure of my priorities,
I've lost sight of where I´m meant to be
And like holy water washing over me,
You make it real for me

And I am running to you baby,
You are the only one who saves me
That's why I've been missing you lately,
'Cause you make it real for me

When my head is strong, but my heart is weak,
I'm full of arrogance and uncertainty
When I can't find the words, you
teach my heart to speak,
You make it real for me

And I am running to you baby,
You are the only one who saves me
That's why I've been missing you lately,
'Cause you make it real for me

Everybody's talking in words I don't understand,
You got to be the only one, who knows just who I am
And you're shining in the distance,
I hope I can make it through
Cause the only place that I want to be
is right back home with you

I guess there's so much more I have to learn,
But if you're here with me, I know which way to turn
You always give me somewhere, somewhere I can learn,
You make it real for me

And I am running to you baby,
Cause you are the only one who saves me
That's why I've been missing you lately,
'Cause you make it real for me
You make it real for me

I've never felt this way before.
I always know what I want.
I always know what to do.
Now, I'm confused...
and perhaps a little bit lost.

I don't want to hurt anyone.
I don't want to end up hating anyone either.
So it's better I just keep this to myself.
I guess this is somethin' I have to figure out on my own.

Now, I just need to be around all things that make me happy.
All things familiar, real & true.

Details In The Fabric
by Jason Mraz feat. James Morrison

Calm down
Deep breaths
And get yourself dressed instead
Of running around
And pulling on your threads and
Breaking yourself up

If it's a broken part, replace it
If it's a broken arm then brace it
If it's a broken heart then face it

And hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
And everything will be fine

Hang on
Help is on the way
Stay strong
I'm doing everything

Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way

And everything
Everything will be fine
Everything

Are the details in the fabric
Are the things that make you panic
Are your thoughts results of static cling

Are the things that make you blow
Hell, no reason, go on and scream
If you're shocked it's just the fault
Of faulty manufacturing

Everything will be fine
Everything in no time at all
Everything

Hold your own
And know your name
And go your own way

Are the details in the fabric (Hold your own, know your name)
Are the things that make you panic
Are your thoughts results of static cling (Go your own way)

Are the details in the fabric (Hold your own, know your name)
Are the things that make you panic (Go your own way)
Is it Mother Nature's sewing machine

Are the things that make you blow (Hold your own, know your name)
Hell no reason go on and scream
If you’re shocked it's just the fault (Go your own way)
Of faulty manufacturing

Everything will be fine
Everything in no time at all
Hearts will hold

"Stop talking about love. Every asshole in the world says he loves somebody. It means nothing. It still doesn't mean anything. What you feel only matters to you. It's what you do to the people you say you love, that's what matters. It's the only thing that counts."
-Tom Wilkinson as Stephen in The Last Kiss.

LINKS
Added: Samuel. Dee.

They say the greatest gift you can give to someone is your time.
Because when you give someone your time, you are giving them a portion of your life that you will never get back.

I believe things fall apart so that better things can fall into place.
Sometimes the same thing happens to you again so that you learn & have a chance not to repeat the same mistakes again the next time around.
There are just certain things that you keep coming back to because you know, it'll always be a part of your life. You can't imagine your life without it anymore.
No matter how hard it gets, you'll always stay because it has become a part of you.
It means too much to you for you to let go.
Difficult but real. The curse that is the cure.

Love endures all things.
Nobody said it was gonna be easy, they just promise it'd be worth it.
Unconditional love, no questions asked.

We may not have it all together
but together, we have it all.

Note to self:

Things that cheer me up:
music therapy
cheese
slurpee [latest addition! hehe.]
chocolates

As you can see, this is pretty much a random entry :]
cos everytime I wna do a proper one,
somethin' crops up heh.



I feel much more free now that I'm done with all my presentations except for BZC which is next week.
Must. Think. Asian.
ROARRRR :O

After that, exams.
Then holidays!
which I have no idea when lol.



I love Ravvivi! :D







If yknw peeps that might be interested in this, tell 'em about it alrighty!
spread da word :D
uh-huh uh-huh.

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B2B

I've been listening to a lot of Beyonce & Leona Lewis heh.
Gotta love 'em strong, beautiful, powerful women :]

Broken-Hearted Girl
by Beyonce.

You're everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you could have been
But still, you live inside of me, so tell me how is that?
You're the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I love to not forgive
And though you break my heart, you're the only one
And though there are times when I hate you
'Cause I can't erase
The times that you hurt me and put tears on my face
And even now, while I hate you, it pains me to say
I know I'll be there at the end of the day

[Chorus]
I don't wanna be without you, babe
I don't want a broken heart
Don't wanna take a breath without you, babe
I don't wanna play that part
I know that I love you, but let me just say
I don't wanna love you in no kind of way, no no
I don't want a broken heart
I don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl
No, no, no broken-hearted girl

There's something that I feel I need to say
But up til' now I've always been afraid
that you would never come around
And still I wanna put this out

You say you've got the most respect for me
But, sometimes I feel you're not deserving of me
And still, you're in my heart
But you're the only one
And yes, there are times when I hate
you, but I don't complain
'Cause I've been afraid that you would walk away
Oh, but now I don't hate you
I'm happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day

[Chorus]

Now I'm at a place I thought I'd never be
I'm living in a world that's all about you and me
Ain't gotta be afraid, my broken heart
is free to spread my wings and fly
away, away with you....

I don't wanna be without my baby
I don't want a broken heart
Don't wanna take a breath without my baby
I don't wanna play that part
I know that I love you, but let me just say
I don't wanna love you in no kind of way, no no
I don't want a broken heart
I don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl
No, no, no broken-hearted girl
Broken-hearted girl
No broken-hearted girl

End of randomness.
bye bye! :]

LINKS
Added: Matilda.
Relinked: Khairee. Shahira. Nisa.

Hello :]
here's my long overdue entry hehe.
I was supposed to have a new year's special entry but somethin' happened so yeah, scratched that heh.
but I'm back! If yknw whad I mean.

anyways, as y'all should know,
I turned 19 on 18 January! heh.

Is there a vast difference in the transition of 18 goin' on 19?
Nope. The only thing it made me realized is that I'm gna be 20 soon!
the BIGGGGG TWO-O.
look at me!
twenty & me don't go together at all!
ahahahahaha.

I shall blog the best bits of 1801.
:]

I actually had a mental note of who I wished to spent my birthday with.
Some of the special people in my life.
here it is in random order:

Ohana
mom & bro
kuzzies ana & dian
my fave aunts cik minah & cik aye
my little darlings

my weiyi, Sabrina
Izzat
my girls; bibi kelly ning zhi jo agnes
Tasha bestie
vocal clique
IES
jacinta b.f.

I'm happy I got to spent it with most of 'em.
For the ones whom I didn't get to celebrate with,
wished you were there! heh.
Love love! :]

1801 Part I.



At the stroke of midnight, had a surprise birthday sleepover hehe.
My mom actually went out & pretended to be out with her friends.
Then she quietly entered the house with six boxes of pizza.
After that slowly the rest also entered the house.
There was sabrina, bibi, kelly, jophillien, my kuzzie; dian & my mom's friend; Yannie plus her little ones! heh.

I think they knew I could predict there was gna be surprise that day haha.
I'm so sorry! but I reaaaally appreciate it! hehe.
I didn't expected my kuzzie & my mom's friend to be there tho' heh.
thanks bibi for planning it! :]

we stuffed ourselves with pizzas, ate choco mint cake, watched Sisterhood of The Travelling Pants 2, youtube vids etc haha.

Didn't slept till lyke 4-5 am plus in da morn lol.

Oh ya! there was this v. funny moment.
My mom was asking "Sabrina, why you never bring PC along?"
Then she replied, saying "so heavy laa, l8er got church some more".
LMAO!

My mom & I were laughing while she was still wondering why we were for a min ahahaha.
she thought my mom was refering to her laptop lol.
F.Y.I. PC is our Red Camp mentor, a person.
lol :P




kuzzie dian :]


the busy people!
uh-huh uh-huh.


weiyi's prezzie (a stitch pillow which I hug
to sleep every night now hehe) & the girls' card.
check out the background lol.






the girls' prezzie!
a billabong cap & a personalized pullover.
I really love 'em! thank you lovelies :D


Emo shot...
lyke reaaal only ahahaha :P

1801 Part II.

In da afternoon, met up with my kuzzies.
we wenta Orchard for music therapy!
mwahahahaha :D
wenta Ming Arcade's Cash Studio for karaoke.

I swear I had lotsa fun! lol.
I sang till I couldn't sing anymore.
I laughed until I wanted to pee in my pants! LOL.
plus I was lyke some siao char bor.
I think people would have thought I was intoxicated or somethin' haha.








kuzzie love :]




muack muack muack!




my shorts & her jacket seemed lyke
they came from the same material haha!




I'm crazy lyke that ;)
LOL.






feeling2 or whaaatttt.
ahahahahaha :P






my dearrrr brother ehem-ehem.
bluek! ahahaha :P


We were singing Acha & Irwansyah's My Heart.
Imagine that haha.
















available in Toys R Us now!
collect all 4 :P






After the karaoke session, we had a nice chatting session at Mcd heh.
I ate lotsa lotsa fries with chilli & mayo! yum-yum :D
it was nice catching up on our childhood memories plus gossip hehe.

IES Birthday Surprise.

It all started with matty tricking me into accompanying her to the toilet, change of project meeting venue yada yada haha.
Then when I came to the canteen, saw the bunch crowding around a table & the flicker of a flame from the candle haha.

thanks for the Stitch prezzie IES! hehe.
Ooh, tijah gave me a separate prezzie.
She gave me a cotton on bra! kinky or whaattt. ahahahaha.
it's the 2nd time I'm receiving lingerie for my birthday lol.

Ooh! the cake was delicious!
blueberry with cream :]









I really had a gr8 19th birthday.
thank you so much for those who made it happen, really.
& thanks for all the bday wishes!

I shall end here for now.
much love (: