Why the sudden url change?

Hmm..well..
a lot of reasons i guess.
I want my blog to be more private.
Cos it's becoming more personal.

I dont mind ppl finding it out..
but i'd rather they find it out for themselves.
That's why my friends can relink me.

I'm making it known to only my close friends & regular readers.
People who read bcos they care & want to know how i'm doing.
Not bcos they're not part of my everyday life & want to know whatever i'm up to.
In other words, kpo i guess. :p

Popularity, i dont mind.
But when it comes to my personal life,
i rather have it low profile.

My social life, circle..
Which is friendships, outings yada yada..
To me, it's an additional bonus to my life.
And it shouldn't be a distraction,
something that's complicating my life.
Lately, it has been.
That's why i wanna steer clear of anyone who's a source of complication instead of support, fun..
Basically, anyone who makes my life harder.

There's somethin' that's been bugging me.
I dont know why some people just cant leave others alone.
They cant stand to see a person being happy without them.
I'm not refering to anyone specific.
It's somethin that's been a problem for me & some of my friends.

There's this common problem among some of my friends..

If your friend does somethin' you disagree with,
wouldnt you let them go ahead, make their own mistakes?
That way they'll learn.
At least you've done your part by persuading them not to do somethin.

As a friend,
wouldnt you instead support whatever decisions they make?
And if they fall, it's your job to be there for them.
Not to say "i told you so" ,
but as a crying shoulder blah blah blah..
you know the rest.
x)

in other words,
if you have friends lyke these,
you're better off without them.
ditch them.
They should take a hike & get a life.
agreed? :]

another thing is assumptions.
just because they were once associated with you,
they think whatever that's bad,
it has to be about them.
GAH.

nobody can make you inferior without your consent.

Grr.
I'm just sick & tired of taking care of people's feelings.
Or perhaps just a person i guess.
I dont know why i even bothered to take care of your feelings,
have your interests at heart.
Letting myself get hurt instead.
I guess because you're my friend.
At least you were.

But i've had enough of nonsense.
If i were to go on,
I would've reach my limit.
And tell you off straight up.
But i dont want to,
cos i dont want to hurt you.

But instead i bruised myself,
broke down two times just because of this.
Was it worth it?
I dont think so.
I hated myself for letting myself get hurt by the person i face everyday,
me.

Friends are there to be your source of happiness, laughter..
not misery, complication.

Whenever my friends wanna tell you off,
i stop them.
I wonder what would happen if i had let them go on..

Anyways, it doesnt matter now.
I dont wanna dwell on it.
I dont wanna know what you've got to say about me.
Cos i couldn't care less.

I'm not turning my back on you,
cos you're still a friend to me.
Nothing more or less.
I just dont want to be close to you anymore..

Drifted away, yes.
Walk away, no.

there's nothing left to say.

Yahoo! Horoscope; 1 JULY 06.
Capricorn

Voice your real needs and they'll be met in one way or another. Be honest and forthright about what you've kept concealed for far too long. Aren't you through with being nice and quiet for other people's sake?

Decipher this:

1,2,3,4,5.
Once i caught a fish alive.
6,7,8,9,10.
Then i let it go again.
Why did you let it go?
Because it bit my finger so.
Which finger did it bite?
This little finger on my right.

Figure that out.

Sigh.
Puffing ruins everything.
Now, i'm at crossroads once again.

One turn-off is all it takes
to be struck-off the game.

What now?
:/

Today's English lesson.
There was this question from our inferential worksheet.
And the answer was:

Pragmatic. Cynical. Sceptical.

The first thought that came to my mind was that it reminded me of...

Me.

Friendster Horoscope: Capricorn
27 JULY 06.

The Bottom Line
It's a good day to think things over -- your mental clarity is stronger than ever.
In Detail
You may get the sensation that your brain has taken a shower -- there's a fresh, clean energy inside of you that will enable you to cut through any haze and see things as they truly are. Therefore, it's an excellent day for mulling things over. If there's a big decision you've been toying with, sit down and go over the pros and cons. Your emotions are taking a backseat to logic, and you're sure to make a levelheaded conclusion about things.

Someone to look out for.
(:

Wah.
i'm super duper euphoric today.
WHEEEEEEEEEE
:DDDDDDD

I didnt know till kelly dearie told me da good news early in da morning.
I was lyke "are you serious?"
I was ecstatic!
me & jac were lyke jumping non-stop.

English Drama Festival.
Our poster won 1st place.
So far, we've already seen 3 of our posters around sch.
woo hoo!
*boogies*

XD

From all that's been happening,
it really cheered me up.
It really made my day.

Someone's texts made my day even sweeter.
hehe :]

I got to know somethin'.
Which was a bit disappointing..
i thought he quit, but he's back on it.
But i wasnt really bummed out.
Maybe because the feelings were already wearing off a bit..

strike-out.

I asked for clarity yesterday.
And clarity was what i received today.
Go figure? hmm.

anyways, i shall post my poster again.
HEHE :DD



P.S. : Superband photos below!
Wait, just Soul.
HAHA :D

Relinked: Siti :D

whoo.
i havent been blogging huhs.
okay..let's see...

Oh, my new haircut.
It got me a lot of attention.
Which in turn made me so paiseh on monday haha.
most common comment:

CUTE.

tee hee!
XD

23 JULY 06

When I went out with sabrina,
i didnt expect much.
i thought it wud be just to go J8,
take some photos of Superband & have a lunch date at pastamania.
But...

It turn out to be so much more exciting :D

Ah, a memorable day indeed.
After we wenta J8 for da Superband session,
wenta Mediacorp.
Got to take pics with SOUL :D
WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
*melts*

I'm smitten by Awi, especially.
HAHA :D

Alfred veh cute! hehe.
:]

After that,
we went back to J8.
Lunch/Dinner date; Pastamania.
Ate Arrabiata type as usual.
-yummy! :DD

It was one helluva day.
& a starstruck one too.
Thank you weiyi (:
hehe.

you look. you glance. you stare.
Although i've been on your watch for quite some time already,
i still dont know what they mean.

giving me mixed signals makes it even more confusing.
sometimes, i dont know what to conclude.
Or how to react.
Clarity is what i really need right now.

sigh.
anyways,
i'll leave you with da photos.
takecare.






XMS Students! haha :D




X=Q . alamak! wrong side XD


da nicest & bestest Awi photo.
HEHE !







Pepsi Twist Ad :p


muack! :D

WHEEEEEEEEEEEE.
jian BAO le!
HEH :D

haha.
just when i've taken new photos of myself,
i go cut my hair lol :p

Now my fringe's shorter & my hair is thinner.
wheeeeeeee :]

Jac & I got our haircuts tday.
After that, met up with siti at CP for a lil' while.
Wow, i really enjoyed my time dere.
Altho' we spent only a few minutes there,
we laughed A LOT. seriously.
lyke retards liddat XD

you girls really made me happy.
thank you :]

When i reached home,
i was alone in my room.
Then, i found myself crying..
it's lyke when i suddenly think of mr eyecandy,
sadness washed over me.
It really hurt. a lot.
I dont wanna elaborate on the reason..

I was glad that when my mom suddenly came into my room,
she didnt suspected anything.
Cos i was lying on my bed.
i guess she thought i just woke up from a nap or somethin'..hence the tears.

but i'm ok now :]

Three doors.

Door #1.
is wide open.
it's just waiting for me to walk right in.

he's everything i can ever want in a guy;
totally my type. he's been waiting.
but i dont have feelings for him..

Door #2.
is ajar.
it's just waiting for me to show a sign,
give it a push.

no strong feelings yet..
but feelings? yet to be confirmed.

Door #3.
is locked.
And I've yet to find the key.

the reason why i'm standing still.

Out of all the doors,
why do i choose door #3?

Cos i believe there's something.
I keep ending up seeing him everytime..
Maybe there's a reason behind it.
That's why i keep holding on.
But it gets harder everyday..

I hope by the time he realises..
it wont be too late.
Cos there's door #1 and #2.
I might end up giving one of them a chance instead..

all i can do is try.

thank you siti & jac.
i evol you girls. (:

P.S. : Racial Harmony entry & photos below :D

Wishlist: one down.
-slumberland photo;
taken! :DD

HAPPY RACIAL HARMONY DAY!
haha :D

WHEEEEEEEEEE.
most of da upper secs wore their ethnic costumes tday.
so cool.
It's my first time in my secondary sch life heh.

i wore my white one,
the one's that a fusion of chinese & malay.
:]

Those who wore:
me, jac, siti, syakir & hafiz.
we accompanied miss kuck, had an agreement ytd haha.
so pwetty, she wore a pink saree.
but not enough love tenders hehe.

Never got to eat BK tday due to time constrain.
So instead, we settled for less.
Had lunch with my b.f. & weiyi (:
KFC -finger lickin' goooood? LOL
Wah, it's lyke i ate da zinger burger so fast.
sucha rare sight lol.

Yesterday's english lesson was hilarious.
The others had to present their stories.

Samuel, Brandon & Alan.
Whad name did they came up with?
Sambralan.
LOL

hmm..wonder how they got da name huhs? XD
anyways, da ending was..tragic but hilarious? lol.
The girl had aids & was at da hospital.
Sambralan rushed there.
Then he met up with an accident.
The person who found him "happened" to find a note in his pocket.
According to Alan, it said:

If I die, please bury me & my girlfriend together.

-.-''

Spongebob's group was funny but sweet.
All was smooth-sailing till the end;
both boy & girl died in a plane crash.
When their bodies were found,
they were holding hands haha.
:p

Singapore Idol.
darn it.
Gayle is out. ):
she's has so much potential.
maybe she'll end up lyke Jeassea.
rmb her? from da last Sg Idol.
She's was one of da bestest contestants.
But she went out early cos there weren't enough votes.
Sometime that happens when you're too good,
people think everyone else wud be voting so they dont vote.
hmm.

But in da end, see how successful jeassea is now.
A host. performer. even sang with Fort Minor mann.
so cool :D

I cant wait to see whads in store for Gayle.
I'm sure she'll be back in da scene sooner or l8er.
:]

I still have Rahimah &...
HADY! *swoons*

i didnt notice him until he sang Rock Dj.
-hot mann! XD
When he sang Santana's Maria,
i practically melted laa lol.
So sexaye! x)

Image is not enough.
You have to see him perform to know whad i'm talking abt heh.

Oh yeah, i found out that he was from Raw Energy.
No wonder he looked familiar to me.
Cos my mom used to bring me to this club when i was little..
before 10 we were allowed in heh. very privelleged huhs?
I sang with them before.
They're lyke one of da coolest live bands to me.
So much energy.
hence da name huhs? :D

yay!
goin' out with jac tmr.
jian BAO! XD
wanna cut my hair thinner & fringe shorter heh.
cant wait cant wait! :D

Okie dokie.
I shall leave you with...
*drumroll*

Racial Harmony pics! :D
credits to siti's camera.
tee hee.


jello-mee, grr. x)


jac,me & da 5n girls :]


siti. lil. jac. :D


behind: syakir & hafiz.


my BFLs :DD


miss kuck! aint she pretty? :D




I love SLUMBERLAND :DD

Capricorn, 18 JULY 06.

Be the author of your life. Decide what you want to happen -- and, more importantly, what you don't want to happen -- and then make it so. The universe will provide you all the help you need to make this happen -- truly.

{ black&white }
I know fate has been really good to me.
Since the very beginning.
But i guess i always screw up my chance or somethin'..
By not taking control of the moment.
Or somethin' like that.

I just dont know where to start..
But at least i do keep trying right?..
:/

All i know is that no matter what,
I have to keep smiling, always. (:

Anyways,
got back my geog wet rice cultivation test.
Surprised? indeed i was.
Got 11/15.
I dont remember really studying for the test..
but i remember i tried to remember the points by thinking very hard.
And it's unlike mdm tian to give a sticker for a good score too.
Hmm.
Go figure :D

yay!
see-saw.
jello-mee stands corrected.
I win! I win! hehe :]

Oh yeah,
yesterday during english, we had to write a story line based on a one-word title, Love.
Did it with Siti & Jac :D
I thought of the name Belle, for da girl.
Then for the guy, Jac said Orlando Bloom.
Suddenly I thought of a compatible last name for Belle.
And our couple's name is...

Orlando Bloom & Belle Blossom.

geddit?
LOL

It was strange that i cud somehow contribute my experience to it..
It's like you're telling people this big open secret about you..
But they think it's just some other story.
So it's like no biggie or somethin'
Telling a secret which is a big part of you without having any qualms abt it..

Even Mrs Ng said it was hard to write about da situation.
But I could've just shown her that long entry i posted last time.
Which actually had an ending.
heh.

Ooh ooh!
check out my group's English Drama Festival Poster Design.
:D



So how?
Do I have a future in Mass Comm.?
HEH.
Hope my effort pays off.
:D

It was just yesterday I was saying abt how i wished i had remembered a moment in time last year more vividly..

Today,
it was like my wish came true,
in a way.

Racial Harmony concert
-he performed.

Coincidence?
Hmm.
Mrs Ng did say before that there are no coincidences in life.

So whatever happens in life is either destiny or fate?

Serendipity.
Each day, you step a little closer.
almost. almost. almost.

p.s.: sorry i published yesterday's post one day late heh. :]
Bbq photos below :D

Added Links:
Mei Wei.

Here's an excerpt from a horoscope bk abt Mr eyecandy:

Aquarius
He's not a chaser and is often oblivious to his effect on women.

Is it any wonder that i have to make the first move?
haha :p

Hmm..just saw my mom's boyfriend in person.
one word:

approve.
HEH :D

dang.
I've been having cravings for Twisties, Tomato flavour for da past two days.
I think it's bcos everytime i open the fridge,
i see a pack of Twisties, Chicken flavour.
And all i can do is stare at it & frown.
Cos it's my bro's & he doesnt want to share it with me.
hmph.

XD

Okie dokie.
let's get down to da nitty gritty. :]

Thursday, 13 JULY 06.

Physics was a high period.
-as usual x)
Wen Han said stuff.
Mr Tee asked him to rewind cos he was alarmed by somethin' he said.
"which one? the part you retarded ar?"
"No. the previous one."
XD

He said f* you.
then Mr Tee said,
"wah..you all nowadays say this sort of thing. I find it very disturbing especially when girls say it."
I guess he's thinking literally.
LOL

Then yuemin said,
"it's our way of saying hello"
*turns to qiao li & shakes hands*
with big smiles on their faces:
"f* you :D"

LMAO! XD

After school,
got changed & rushed to J8.
Met up with bibi, ning zhi & my ah pek.
Wenta watch Just My Luck.
Hmm..quite a nice movie, not bad. (:

but it was quite predictable, for me that is.
poor bibi, she was sitting beside me.
Had to listen to all my predictions
& see me getting 'em right.
HAHA :D

My favourite part..no wait, parts.
Of the movie was those that had McFly in 'em!
*swoons*

haaaaaaa :D

I wonder whad happened to them?
Havent seen 'em in da music scene lately.

anyways,
ate Long John's.
Chit-chatted.
My ah pek & I amused ourselves,
laughing lyke retards. XD
Got to know some lame jokes lol.

Thank you for that wonderful outing.
:D

Friday, 14 JULY 06.

Maths lesson.
Miss kuck let us listen to some chinese songs.
Then Tong Hua came on.
I immediately thought of him because...

I wished i remembered that moment last year more vividly.
I didnt bcos i never really took notice of him back then..

BBQ!
I was fashionably late.
HEH :D

BUT!
only bcos i had photography b4 that heh.

There was me, jt, zhan yi, xue er, chin ying , jac & wei qiang.
Spongebob had to leave early so i nv gt to meet him.

Wei qiang & gd ER fetched me from da bus stop.
wah, it's a long way to jt's hse.
Imagine walking that distance every single day.
poor jello-mee x)

Wei qiang didnt have to show me which house was it.
I immediately knew when i heard MCR's Helena blasting from the speakers lol.

whoo, i had a blast. :D
the food was yummy.
Most of da bbq was done by jac & jt.

We were insane.
Stepped on each other's foot.
Did a lot of air-guitar.
LOL

Oh yeah,
when Green day's song was blasting from da speakers,
jt sang:

"Wake me up,
when O levels end."

XD

I was surprised to hear 50 cent's Candy Shop being played.
*raises eyebrows*
haha.

All songs are credits to zy's mp3.
(:

I didnt know jt had a guitar.
Or that he knew hwta play it...or not.
But i think it's for display purposes only.
LOL

After that,
drank sparkling grape juice.
yummy :D
i almost thot it was alcohol bcos of it's bottle.
:p

Made a circle & played spin the bottle/truth or dare.
Whatever's spoken in da circle,
stays in da circle.
Our lips are sealed.
:]

WHEEEEEEEE.
cant wait for da next bbq!
i love my posse :D
HEH.

It's not possible for me to post all of da pics.
Cos dere's lyke 61 of 'em.
So i shall leave you with some of 'em alrighty.
takecare! :D




chin ying & me :DD


And again! haha :D


Behold! Zhan yi concoction.
cranberry & ribena was it? yummy :D




Hiaaaak! XD


Now this is what i call in-depth conversation.
LOL




The Fight Of The Bbq Chicken.
(think Pirates of The Carribean)
XD





guitarist poseur.
XD


wah, such emotion.
XD


Xue er getting scolded by jt for bringing the tongs near the sofa.
HAHA :D


Jac on da piano ;D


doesnt he look lyke E.T. here?
lol.





Jac's dare.
She's supposed to look lyke a teletubby with da shoe ears.
Convincing enough? lol.


sparkling grape juice :D


Taken by zhan yi.
Aint it nice? (:

UPDATED:
5th Star
Love List. [hint: siti & jamie]
Wishlist.

I've texted you before.
I've smiled at you before.
I've laughed at you before.
I've spoken to you before.
But that was only a "sorry" ;
for bumping into you, unintentionally.
but oh-so fortunately.

Give me a reason.
to say hi.
Cos i really, really want to.

hee. :]

For some reason,
whatever i do,
wherever i go,
which ever path i choose to take,

it always leads me back to you.

that's why i believe.
i believe there's something.
Somehow, there's this invisible force that's pushing me,
that's got me coming back for more.
Crushing you for three times;
a record on my list that's only got your name on it.
It also gives me the strength & encourages me not to give up.

Besides,
giving up this chase wouldnt be me at all.
wouldnt it?

(:

a deeper meaning.

GEEZ.
yeah, i think that one word is enough to describe this situation.
And it's not even a descriptive word lol.
but i think those who know it's meaning will understand.

Although it's sorta ironic that we're facing somethin' similar,
but at least i have someone who i can relate with.
Which makes it way easier for us huhs? heh.
i evol you sexy !
muack :D

And carebear.
for giving me clarity.
heh :]

i shall be unfazed.
(:

dang.
i'm really trying to save up more.
money money money.
bleh.
:p

N lvl oral.
it was ok i guess.
i think i did well heh.
They kept nodding and nodding.
But why do examiners dont really smile?
I think they should.
Cos it really helps.
Especially when there's so much tension in the hall already.

Wen Han.
he's nuts lol.
he really wanted to know how easy or hard it was gna be.
So he asked jeremy ng to tap his foot repeatly if it was easy.
For me, it was..
hair behind -easy.
hair over shoulders -hard.
XD

So..how was it?
hair behind. (:

wow.
there's been more eyecandy in school lately.
but sadly, it's not da students.
but teachers instead.
yes, pe teachers.
HAHA :D

=X

I really like Mdm Tian's lessons tday.
So different.
It's like she was more open abt stuff & happy tday.
angry, a bit only.
I really like her when she's happy :]

yay!
watchin' movie with bibi & ning zhi tmr.
I told them i'm broke.
But they insisted on treating me.
Cos ning zhi dont wanna miss the chance of spending quality time with me.
aww...aint that sweet?
i feel so loved & treasured heh.
:]

It's a shame.
School is the thing that brought us together.
But yet, it's also the thing that keeps us distant.
By making us busy.
But i'm so glad nothing's changed between us.
(:

woohoo.
cant wait for friday's bbq.
I believe the chances of insanity being present is guranteed. :D
LOL

i will and shall not let anything bring me down.
:]

For my fellow small people:
LOL



i'm super duper euphoric tday.
haha :DD

no special reason tho'.
heh.

gah. I've got a misconception goin' on.
oh wells.
let people think whad they want? haha.
it doesnt really bother me anyway.
or him for that matter lol.

he's just a best friend.
who happens to be someone i'm seen around with all da time.
and he happens to be a guy.
So best boy friend, with a space.
nothing more okie? heh. :]

watched Bend It Like Beckham tday!
girls rule baybeh. ;D

oh yeah, world cup.
Italy won.
Some ppl will be getting richer tday haha.

L.A. Dance.
They're having auditions for their Phunk Control crew & the scholarship thingy is here again.
Two auditions, so cool :D
i wna try out. but dont know if i have da time to create my own stuff.
Shall try to get my mom to help me.
I really wanna dance so badly.

give me a dancefloor.
cos i'm itching to dance :D

Jasper called.
I've thought about it.
I told him i'm not gonna be da cheer coordinater next year.
Cos i think i have a lot to juggle.
I still have photography.
not to mention, o lvls.
but still, i'll do my part by just being a cheerleader!
heh :D

yay!
i love monday nites.
Cos there's Grey's Anatomy & Scrubs.
whoopee :D

I love da drama in Grey's anatomy.
And da wits & sarcasm ;D

I really get a kick out of Scrubs.
It makes me laugh my socks off.
Not to mention, make me laugh like a hyena.
Or does it sound more lyke a monkey?
XD

new character enters the picture.
will there be a change in plot?

LADEEDUMDUM.
=X

UPDATED:
Love List.
[hint: tasha :D]
Designs.
Added Links:
Jamie, pixie's tooth fairy! :]

OMG.
you absolutely have to see this vid.
it's so COOL :DD

but wait!
see it only when you have da time.
Cos it's 11:18 mins.
And your eyes will be glued to it haha.
click da link:

Little Winners Crew

felt inspired after watchin' da vid.
oh yeah, they are also living proof that
small people RULE :D
tee hee.

showed it to my mom.
my mom said "eleh, i used to do this last time laa."
Oh oh! and guess whad?
Gonna sign up for dance class soon.
yepp yepp, amore fitness.
I think my mom finally made that decision cos she saw how happy i was;
my reaction to da vid.
Cos i was responding with wonderment & awe.
(take note: a habit of mind)
-really! x)

thanks to xue'e for intro-ing da vid to me.
gd ER belly belly GOOOOOOOD :D

wenta da modelling agency with jello-mee ytd.
hmm..learned a lot abt some stuffs.
lol. =X

but as usual, must pay for portfolio.
I dont think i want it..
i'd rather pay more for that talent agency instead.
Cos modelling isnt my ambition anyway.
And that talent agency has a package that has courses i'm interested in..
blah.

ANYWAYS XD,
the agent asked if jt & me were a couple.
no.
then he said,
"Ah...friends first, later couple."
-.-''

that's the misconception people always make when we're together.
got used to it already.
LOL

I cant believe my bro went out with his friends tday.
he's anti-social rmb? XD
darn, he got all da top 12 singapore idol finalist autographs.
He said Rahimah's prettier in person.
And when he said "rahimah cantik."
she blushed haha.

Oh yeah, High School Musical fever isnt over yet.
Those currently still suffering from it are jac & sherlyn.
especially sherlyn haha :D

Mr eyecandy.
i added him.
but I hvnt seen him online yet..
oh wells. :/

Did some tickle tests tday.
Looking at my results,
i realise the type of guy i really lyke is funny.
someone who can make me laugh.
the class clown. the goofball.
haha :D

okie dokie.
i guess i'm done.
i shall leave you with some pics!
heh. take care :]

Today in class,
sherlyn & samantha called me over.
Then this happened:

"Say yes."
"Why?!"
"Just say yes"
*looks at them skeptically*
"Ok..yes."
Sherlyn shows me a paper.
my reply?
"oh no."

I didnt know what i was saying yes to.
But since they are gooood people *coughs*
I said yes.

And now,
i must model for the racial harmony design competition thingy.

AHAHAHAHAHHA.
ok laa..as long as the outfit's nice.
Cos i dont want to have a repeat of my pri 5 camp experience.
Dont get me started on that lol.

Ooh ooh!
speaking of modelling,
rmb i used to mention abt this modelling agency?
anyways, they called me again tday.
apparently the girl that i met that time recommended me for this ad.
Still not sure if i shud go or not..
Gonna ask jello-mee abt it heh.

Oh yeah, watched Singapore Idol Up-close just now.
There was this part when Joakim's parents were so proud of him.
They were divorced but put away their differences & watched their son perform together.
The look on their faces..
They were so happy when Joakim made it through.
Watching that, I almost shed a tear.

To me, the feeling of your loved ones being proud of you is one of da greatest feelings in da world.
That's why it's on my wishlist.
All i want is the people i love to be proud of me.
:D


I want you.
you you you.

=X

Oh no,
not again.

The only significant event today:
i recessed with siti :DD
hehe.

thank you sexy.
i evol you :]
tee hee.

I've been getting headaches lately.
but it's usually around the afternoon.
And it only happens during school days.

Hmm..perhaps it's due to studying?
thinking abt stuff too much i guess.
blah.

Mdm Ida mentioned to me that there's gonna be a lunchbox!
Remember, that thing we had at da old sch last time where you get to perform in da canteen?
i want ! hehe.
i've been itching to perform but never had da chance.

now the only thing i'm puzzled about is..
whad song to sing dey?!?
hmm..we'll see yeah?
hehe.

oh yeah, there's this article on msn which i think is worth reading.
click da link:

The Truth About Soulmates

I need to loosen up.
I must not let myself be inhibited.
I must not hold back.
I must not bottle up but open up instead.
Be more light-hearted.
Be emotionally naked.

A skill I've yet to master.
:]

Oh yes, and another one.
To embrace love, not deny it.

It's very confusing y'know.

scenario one
Boy like girl.
girl no feeling for boy.
So, girl must either give him a chance or not do anything abt it ryte?
no feeling mah.

scenario two
Girl like boy.
girl dont know if boy got feeling or not.
So she either decides not to pursue it; dont do anything abt it or she turns to denial.

geez.

My Horoscope Today:

04 July 06.
Capricorn

The easiest solution is usually the best one
- especially if it happens to jibe with what your mind, body and soul want you to do too.
Why are you fighting this? Struggling against the obvious just makes life harder.

Jac read it.
Her feedback?
" I agree. You always make your own life harder for yourself."

HEH.
=X

ANYWAYS, XD
i shall leave you with one of my tickle.com results.
Take the quiz too & tell me your result okie? :]





You should pick your Funny Friend.

Seriously, there's nothing like spending time with the person who just naturally brings out your sunny, and funny, side.
Who wants to be dour and sour?
Your upbeat attitude and appreciation for the lighter moments in life is what seals the deal for you and the resident comedian in your life.
You know who we're talking about — the friend with the one-liners, the quick wit, the insightful commentaries on life's absurdities — the friend who can make you laugh even when they're poking fun at you.
But even if they are telling a joke at your expense, you know you can count on them to keep you young at heart, laid-back, and fun-loving. When it comes down to it, would you want it to be any other way?
No way!

The Just Between Friends Test

Brought to you by Tickle

(:

Hmm.
Firstly, i want to apologise if i have been replying anyone's testimonials, texts, tags etc. more l8er than usual now...
cos i've been busy. school started already rmb?
so sawree alrighty.
but i always do get back to you eventually ryte?
heh. (:

Wah.
Normal acad. students who do well in their studies, conduct, yada yada dont hafta take their N-lvls.
They can straightaway proceed to sec 5.
so goooooood.
But this is only starting in 2007.
hmph..not fair. :/
oh wells. life's lyke that isn't it?

I dont know why.
But i'm starting to have doubts in some friendships.
yes, with a s.
It's lyke i dont feel da love as much as before.
Maybe i'm just being cynical.
maybe it's just a pessimistic feeling that will go away soon..

Oh yeah, i'm so glad i had lunch tday with kelly, ningzhi, jo & sin mei.
So long never hanged out with them.
Although we never really get to spend a lot of time together,
my friendship with kelly and ning zhi hasn't changed at all.
it's still going strong. and i hope it stays that way.
da two of you never fail to be there for me always.
i love y'all :]

Mr eyecandy.
Although i dont like like him anymore,
but i dont know why i'm still interested to be his friend.
Cos he seems lyke..a fun person?
someone worth getting to know..

But it's like i'm expected to make da first move?
Cos there was a moment where he turned to me,
expecting me to say hi..
but i..wasnt ready?
duno laa. but at least i smiled.
LOL

We've texted before.
But i guess it's just abt somethin' general..
but i dont dare to add him in msn.
hmm..we'll see yeah?
HEH.

High School Musical!
you gotta love da movie.
it so freaking coooool :D

my fave choreography is da basketball one.
Wow, obviously it's really thought out.
So challenging.
Oh oh. i love da songs :D
and that love story.

There was this scene where before they exhanged numbers,
they took their pic first.
I dont know why but i find that so COOL!
people should do that more often heh. :DD

dont forget to catch the encore telecast on
Disney channel, 7.30pm this sunday alrighty. :]

Singapore Idol.
The only reason i watched it this week was because of Gayle.
And guess whad?
She's IN !

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
I LOVE GAYLE :D



ain't she pretty? :]

i love her voice.
her personality.
her style.
there's so much to love about her!

And she's another living proof that
small people RULE ! :D
hehe.

She sang Beautiful Disaster.
One of my fave kelly clarkson songs (:

I shall leave you with da lyrics alrighty.
takecare :]

Beautiful Disaster - Kelly Clarkson

He drowns in his dreams
An exquisite extreme I know
He’s as damned as he seems
And more heaven than a heart could hold
And if I try to save him
My whole world would cave in
It just ain't right, Lord it just ain't right

[Chorus]
Oh and I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
He's such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful
Or just a beautiful disaster

He's magic and myth
As strong as what I believe
A tragedy with
More damage than a soul should see
But do I try to change him
So hard not to blame him
Hold on tight, baby hold me tight

[Chorus]

I'm longing for love and the logical
But he's only happy, hysterical
I'm waiting for some kind of miracle
Waiting so long
I've waited so long

He’s soft to the touch
But frayed at the end, he breaks
He’s never enough
And still he's more than I can take

[chorus]

He’s beautiful
Lord, he's so beautiful
He's beautiful

:]

Second love.
end.

yes, i'm not in love anymore.

Although it's over,
dont ask who or why.
cos i wont tell.

Only three people knew about it.
And it shall be my dirty little secret.
hee :]

But for the record..

Liked. crushed. infatuated. yada yada :p :
dont wanna bother counting that.
doesnt really matter does it?
(:

Fallen in love:
only twice.

Go figure :D

yays!
now i feel so light & free.
such a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders.
heavy heart no more :]

Now, i'm a happy happy girl :D

WHEEEEEEEE
all smiles ! :]

Second Love.

Like is.
crushes. infatuations.
nothing serious, just for fun.
it makes you blush.
cheeky.

Love?
is a whole different story.
it's something more real.
perhaps something that can only be identified with time & maturity.
something much more deeper. meaningful.
worthwhile.
true.

I may not be the one you love.
And it hurts to love you silently the way i do.

But what breaks my heart even more is to see you so down.
Even though you don't really show,
but i know.

Because i know you so well.
And the same goes for you too.

But my mission isn't to get you to love me back.
Because that's something only you can do.
My mission is to make you happy.

So i'll settle for less instead.
I shall not turn to isolation as a solution.
Because keeping myself away from you won't stop this feeling.
Because what kind of friend would i be if i walk away from you in your time of need?

I'll be the greatest friend i can ever be.
I'll be there for you,
with every step you take.
I'll put up with my heavy heart just to make you happy.
I'll be guiding you through your battles.
I'm not gonna leave your side.
I won't let you face this tide alone.

I will always be here.
I promise.

School started.
downside?
homework. tests. deadlines.
upside?
at least i get to see my friends regularly now.
HEH :D

Monday, 26 JUNE.

First day of school.
it was okay. nothing big.
i was kinda having a mood.
with myself that is. depressed? dont know.
Which was weird cos i'm not da kinda person to have moods.
I guess it was because i was dragging myself around with a heavy heart attached.
dont want to elaborate on that.
All i know is that i wanted to get everything over with.
I just wanted to make it through the day.

But there was a moment where i was a bit cheered up.
Thanks to jac & siti, that infectious laugher.
XD

your phonecall really made my day.
:]

Tuesday, 27 JUNE.

today was definitely better.
I was really cheered up by the antics of BFL & darhling during physics.
:DD

and my day was pretty much good after that.
heh.

Was tested for picture discussion.
feedback?
good use of vocab. discussed well.
everything GOOD :D
the only expectation left?
more organization.

I dont know why but i was pretty nervous than usual during the picture discussion.
maybe i felt..unprepared? hmm.
but i did well anyways.
so YAY ME ! :DD
hehe.

friendship problem resolved.
(:

a burden lightened.
only one more to go.

What Women Want.
It has become one of my fave movies !
it's soooo sweeet (:

If only men really knew.
heh.

I've realised somethin'.
Usually when i have a crush, infatuation yada yada,
it doesn't really matter to me who i tell it to.
Cos it's just like.

I've only been in love once.
And maybe now..
ha, i shall not finish that sentence.
LALALALAAAAA. x)

I've been keeping somethin' to myself the past few days.
a secret.
It's been eating me up inside slowly..
day by day.

I tried to figure out who i could turn to cos..
sometimes secrets has consequences.
And i couldnt really turn to the person i tell everything to.
It's so strange cos i can tell that person everything,
even down to my deepest thoughts..
except one secret.
just one.
It's like..
i needed another escape.
or somethin.

I'm so glad i had that much-needed talk with a friend today.
i realised somethin'.
Although she's not the first to know when i like someone...
but she's always the first to know whom i've fallen in love with.
And that happened only once and..

full-stop. (:

lucky you, friend.
HAHA :D

oh yeah, she also mentioned somethin' which made sense to me.
" I treasure only those who treasure me. "

Never really thought of that.
heh.

I shall leave you with some lyrics.
It's a very slow song..
hence, the lyrics instead of da song.
to me, it's simple yet meaningful and deep?
i guess cos it makes you think.
hmm.
anyways,

*splat*
NAH ! :D

Life Is Wonderful - Jason Mraz

It takes a crane to build a crane
It takes two floors to make a story
It takes an egg to make a hen
It takes a hen to make an egg
There is no end to what I'm saying

It takes a thought to make a word
And it takes some words to make an action
It takes some work to make it work
It takes some good to make it hurt
It takes some bad for satisfaction

La la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Al la la la la

It takes a night to make it dawn
And it takes a day to make you yawn brother
And it takes some old to make you young
It takes some cold to know the sun
It takes the one to have the other

And it takes no time to fall in love
But it takes you years to know what love is
It takes some fears to make you trust
It takes those tears to make it rust
It takes the dust to have it polished

life is wonderful
life goes full circle
life is so full of..
life is so rough
life is wonderful
life goes full circle
life is our love

It takes some silence to make sound
It takes a loss before you found it
And it takes a road to go nowhere
It takes a toll to make you care
It takes a hole to make a mountain

life is wonderful
life goes full circle
life is wonderful
life is meaningful
life is wonderful
life it is...so... wonderful
It is so meaningful
It is so wonderful
It is meaningful
It is wonderful
It is meaningful
It goes full circle
Wonderful
Meaningful
Full circle
Wonderful.

:]